I walked back to my house after Rin left. I was so unsatisfied with the way we left things, although I'd never tell Rin that... I wouldn't want to pressure him. All I could do was control how I responded. I stopped at my front door. If I went inside now, I probably would let all decisions I've made slide away. I needed to talk to Haru. Now. I went back the way I came and turned to go to Haru's. I walked right up to his door and held my hand up to knock. I held my hand there for a minute, my knuckles seemed itching to rasp at his door. I took a deep breath and knocked. Nothing. I knocked again, louder this time.

To my surprise, Haru actually answered, "Hey."

I looked at him for a moment before I firmly said, "Haru, we need to talk."

"Sure," Haru shrugged and retreated into his house, leaving the door open to me.

I followed him inside and shut the door. "Haru," I called. But Haru just kept walking to his kitchen without looking back at me. I could feel my voice rising, "Haru. Look at me."

Haru stopped at the stove and turned to face me. He didn't even say anything, he just looked at me with that same cool expression like always. Normally I might feel a little annoyed, but today I was downright angry. I'm not the kind of person to get angry easily but I guess I just couldn't take it anymore. Words spilled out, "Haru I can't keep doing this. I am always there for you and you never seem to notice."

Haru just turned his back on me. He went back to the pots on the stove, not even seeming to acknowledge what I was saying. I gritted my teeth, I had to stop being soft. I grabbed Haru by the shoulder and yanked him around. "Haru," I actually yelled, "Are you even listening to me? Take me seriously! Am I so unworthy of your respect? Are just going to ignore me?"

Haru's expression broke, he knocked my hand off. "What about you? This isn't a problem we'd be having if you weren't fucking Rin."

"What about you and Sousuke? You don't remember what happened my ass. But this problem, it existed long before any of that happened. All my life, I have given you everything. Everything."

"All your life?" Haru snickered.

"Yes! Don't you care at all?!" My heart was breaking, I hadn't meant to be so explosive. But it was too late to stop, "I have looked out for you since we were kids. Or do you not remember? That's everything. I gave you my heart. And I could've lived with you not loving me back, but this is worse. You don't love me, you don't even respect me. You're just using me, always expecting me to be there. But I'm a person too. I have problems, I mess up, I make mistakes. I'm only human. I can't be your everything, not anymore."

His eyes widened, he was actually shocked. His mouth hung open. He breathed, "Makoto..."

"I'm done Haru," I could feel something welling up in the corners of my eyes, "I can only take so much... and I've had enough."

I had to leave, I didn't want to stay and see Haru's reaction. I held Haru's gaze one last time before I turned away. I slowly walked out of his kitchen and back down the hall. I guess I took my time because I knew that was the last time I would be there. My heart hurt like nothing before but I knew that this would be better.

I stopped outside Haru's house and looked back at it. "Goodbye Haru." I didn't know how long it would take, but I would move on. I did everything I could with him, but he just never saw me quite the same way.

I slowly walked back home. It was completely dark by the time I walked in the door. Immediately, Ren and Ran were bouncing all over me, asking me where I had been. I tried to smile and answer their questions quickly but they noticed something was wrong. When they asked about it, I just told them that I was tired. I went straight to my room after that. I laid on my bed with my back to the door, wanting to shut everything out.

After a couple minutes, I heard a soft knock at my door. I didn't say anything. My door opened anyway. I heard footsteps coming to me and I glanced up to see my mom sitting on my bed next to me. I looked back at the wall and said, "I ended things with Haru."

"Really?" My mom seemed surprised.

I nodded, "I just couldn't take it anymore. I wanted him to notice me, to appreciate me and he just couldn't."

My mom rested a hand on my shoulder, "He doesn't deserve you sweetie."

I squeezed my eyes shut and hoped that she was right.