Y/N's POV

I open my eyes to darkness. Adjusting my eyes, I look around to find myself on the first floor of the Mystery Shack. Except...the color scheme is black and grey. The Mindscape? Why am I back here? I stand up and look in all directions, confused as to why I was brought here.

I take a step forward as a golden petal fell past my face onto the floor. I stopped and stared at it; picking it up it reminded me of a rose petal and it didn't seem to be alone. There is a path of golden rose petals leading towards certain doors. This...doesn't feel right. A trick? Will this be like when Markus showed me all the memories of when I was called a "freak"?

Maybe it was a mistake to go to sleep, when I am asleep I am most vulnerable. I could always turn back, wake myself up. Then again, I never woke myself up from any of my nightmares. I either had let it play out or someone outside of the dream woke me. So, it doesn't seem like I can leave. I can't wake myself up from this.

I gulp before following the path, getting the dream over with while keeping my guard up. The first door reminded me of a cabin door. I've seen it before...Wendy's house? I reached for the doorknob, slowly turning it before the door cracked open to reveal me. A younger me with (h/l) (h/c) hair and wearing a (f/c) t-shirt with jean shorts to be exact. She was hunched over with her head on Wendy's old bed counting to herself.

"...27...28...29...30! Wherever you are, Red, you won't be there for long!" my younger self declared as she ran out of the bedroom. This was before I was kidnapped by Markus and given the nightmare about the wheel. I can tell...because here I am happy.

I take a step into the memory and I become transparent like a ghost; I'm even able to float around like one as well. I begin to follow my memory as it leads me out to the front door of the cabin.

"Red, are you out here? Wendy! I thought we said we couldn't go outside to hide." little Y/n shouted as she walked off the front porch. That's when Wendy came out of hiding throwing a water balloon at me.

"Hey!"

The two laughed before chasing each other outside with water balloons in hand. I can't help but laugh at this memory, I completely forgot about it! The memory ended as I exit through the door I had entered through, walking on my two feet once more. Well...this isn't so bad.

Following the rose petals once more I end up at another memory with the door resembling a type of school door. I gulp, what memory could possibly lie beyond this door that is good? Do I even dare to open it? I twist the doorknob and enter the memory.

6th Grade, the start of middle school. It seems to be lunch and guess who's sitting all alone at the table in the corner of the cafeteria, me. I sigh, this isn't a good memory at all. The memory then directs its attention to another table where Clarissa and her friends sat. They were all laughing and gossiping.

"Look at that freak!"

"She says she has dreams about the illuminati and some wheel."

"Pssh, I heard that she's had that dream since elementary school and she still continues to have it it to this day!"

"Maybe it's some sign; y'know, born a freak always a freak."

They laughed as I begin to back up towards the door, I don't want to hear this anymore. I almost turn around when I see a girl with brunette hair walk towards their table. "H-Hey! Knock it off, why don't you? Everyone's tired of hearing your comments, why don't you go find a place that actually cares about what you say."

W-Wait, Katelyn Cooper?! She went to my middle school...and stood up for me?

"Oh wow, a freak trying to help out another freak. Hearing any voices lately?" the girl, Faith, laughed. K.C. only shook her head, "Mess with me all you want but you've been at that girl since elementary school. It's time to let it go, everyone's sick of hearing it."

With that...the memory ended. I...never even saw that happen. I usually plugged my headphones in at lunch and just got out a book to read or homework I could finish then and not have to do at home. I left the memory, feeling a smile grow upon my lips.

I went to a few more memories, all of them being positive with either me being happy or people standing up for me that I never noticed. I opened another door that had vines growing out of it. Entering the memory I saw both Dipper and I playing with the miniature deer. I laughed as I saw myself place the deer on his hat, noticing that was the time Bill and Mabel had left.

"Dipper, how could you have been so selfish to hold all of this back from me?" I had asked him as he chuckled. "What are you talking about? You never asked so I never showed. Plus we've been busy lately with the whole 'wheel' thing."

I laughed slightly while looking at him, "Yeah, I guess you're right..."

He takes the deer off his head and cocks his eyebrows, "Hey, are you okay?"

I shook my head slightly as I hugged my arms, "This is suppose to be your summer; you and Mabel came to hang out with your Grunkles and see all of your friends. I seem to have gotten in the way of all that with me and my dream plus moving into the shack all of a sudden. It doesn't seem like you guys have gotten to do much because of me."

Dipper placed a hand on my shoulder while giving me a heart warming smile. He placed the deer on my other shoulder as I laughed by this action. "Y/n, it was our choice to help you. It was our choice to let you live in the shack and be apart of our summer. We've gotten to do plenty, this summer has not been wasted. Besides, I don't think I would've enjoyed it as much if we didn't have some trouble and mystery to accompany us."

My past self smiled as the two shared a hug. Geez, I think my eyes are beginning to water. I had placed the deer back onto the ground to watch it prance around Dipper's feet. We had laughed until we were interrupted by Mabel running in and Bill falling onto the ground.

Exiting the memory once more, I follow the petals to watch them come to an end; a singular golden rose sat at the bottom of a door. Picking it up, I couldn't help but smile at the beautiful scent the flower gave. I open the door, more confident than I have been with the past doors. Entering inside I am met with a white void. I look around but I can't find anything, the door I entered through disappeared. I start to walk around as I am curious as to what this memory is.

"Star?"

I turn my head left and right, doing a 360 degree turn with my body I find no source to the speaker. "Yeah Bill?" That was my voice but...I didn't say it.

"I...ummm...Truth is, I'm scared."

I look down at the golden flower to find that it glows whenever I hear Bill's voice. I stand still as I listen to the memory play out. I already remember this memory, this had been our second date as we sat down at the lake with it completely empty and all to ourselves. It had been great except something had been bothering Bill and eventually he decided to tell me what was wrong. 

"I-I don't want to lose you, I'm afraid I'm going to lose you. I almost did and I hated that feeling of not having you by my side, not with me."

I sit down while curling my knees up to my chest, staring at the flower as it continued to speak, "I don't want it to happen again! I don't want whoever is after you to take you away from me so I can be left on my own. I can't even promise that I can stop them before it's too late! I don't know if I can keep you safe and that scares me." A drop of a liquid substance lands on my cheek; realization hits me as I notice it is my own salty tears. I had cried then when he said this to me and here I am crying again.

"I have never felt true fear before neither have I ever fallen in love! I'm a dream demon who has broken the number one rule of not having emotions and honestly I don't care. Y/n L/n, my Star, I love you through all of time and through every single dimension and I can't lose you!"

The golden flower then stops glowing, slowly it dissolves into dust as it is blown away by a nonexistent wind. I look around as the white void begins to turn black, the darkness slowly engulfing the entire room until I am left with nothing. Soon enough, I close my eyes and let the darkness consume me as well.

•••

Opening my eyes, I find myself waking up on the couch with the lights that I forgot to turn off still on. I rub my eyes with my right hand, noticing the golden bracelet still attached to it. I begin to move so I can sit up when I realize my left hand was being held by something. Looking down I find Bill sitting on the floor with his head resting on the couch next to me and his hand wrapped around mine.

I sigh, am I still frustrated with him? Yes. How much longer am I going to be? ...I don't know. I lift my right hand and play with his golden locks as he mumbles something, stirs, then becomes still once more. "You overprotective demon..." I mumble as I look down at him.

I frown before leaning over and placing a kiss on his head. He stirs once more but stops as he lays his head on my side and wraps his arm around my waist. He mumbles again but I am only able to hear a few of the words clearly, "Pb Vwdu...sohdvh....plvv...irujlyh ph..."

I use my now free hand to rub his back as I close my eyes. "Thanks for the dream, Cipher. I miss you too."

A/N: Sorry I'm updating so late today. I do have news though: this week is spirit week for me at my school and tomorrow is favorite character day! Here's a hint of what I'm gonna be:

*I'm pretty much a lazy bones when it comes to working on patrol and I'm always having to ketchup on my work .*

Let's see who can figure out who I am!!