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Jays POV

My Love - Sia
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The nightmares still haunted me, squeezing my darkest fears out of my pores as I slept, killing me on the inside. Four years of being locked up had taken a toll on me, like a wound that would never heal.

Ceces nightmares had stopped, she was as happy and strong as ever, barely three weeks in, and the kingdom had never been more content with a leader. The mourning of our lost had finished, and the celebrations had begun.

But deep down, I'd never stopped mourning. And I never would.

I shouldn't have been alive, I shouldn't have been here. Alek has sacrificed her life for mine, but what was the point when the life she saved was already broken?

I pull myself out of my bed, groaning as I know I'll need to hide my pain another day. I knew I was being selfish, but I had a right to be selfish. The only reason I fought to put myself out of my own misery was my people.

They needed me.

Soarsa needed me.

I turn to my beside drawer and put on my sisters emerald green ring, lightly running my fingers over it a few times before I start to get ready. The crack of dawn appearing through the stained windows.

I had been desperate to go out and allow my wolf a run, staying inside and dealing with matters had been hard. The grey coated creep that hurt Saorsa was still on the loose, and both Cece and I were desperate to catch Catori's right hand man.

Cece wanted to bring him in to be trialled, to lock him up until he decided being evil was stupid. But that wasn't how the world worked, if I managed to get near him, they wouldn't be anything left. His blood would flow into the river, where he would be forgotten.

Old. Unloved. Donefor.

Never in my life had I felt so weak, even while I was still so strong.I felt like a drowning fish, when I was where I should've been my strongest, I was weak.

As I made my way to the mirror, I stared at my run-down expression, as I plastered a fake look on my face before walking out the door.

*****

"The Batail wolves demand their pack member back! She does not belong here nor is she welcome!" One of the elders shouts to Cece and Hunter, who sit together around the round table. She sits to my left, as Hunter sits to hers.

"Over my dead body will be hand her over without assurance that she won't be violated!" Cece screams at them as she stands up, slapping her hands onto the table.

"That is not your decision to make!" Another elder shouts, running his hands through his white hair. "The Batail Wolves are forbidden here! They are a threat to our way of living, their alpha has destroyed towns to get what he wants!" He shouts, "and unless you want another damn massacre, then I suggest you give them back their property your Majesty." He spits, shaking his head as he sits back.

Cece glares at him, standing tall as she instantly calms herself, knowing that she is more powerful than all of them combined.

Hunter smirks as he sits back in his chair, arms crossed as he raises an eyebrow.

Cocky asshole.

Cece laughs for a split second, and I worry her mental state is in the same position as mine. "Saorsa, is not someone's property."Her voice is low, her authority and position showing over them.

One of the elders silently whimpers, and I smirk very publicly, gaining a few disturbed stares.

Cece was the Queen they demanded, and she was the Queen they got.

"The case is settled," she states as Hunter stands beside her, ready to support her. He finishes her statement for her, earning a cringe from me. Call me a hypocrite, but I was alone in this world, which meant any signs of love were immediately cringey.

"Saorsa will stay here, in the Ferolc Kingdom until further notice." The sides of his lips seemed to curl slightly, his large crown prominent on his head.

"Anyone got a problem with that? Say now so I can very publicly change your mind." He cracks his knuckles as one of the elders turns chalk white.

This time I didn't hide my laughter, Cece and Hunter were definitely a perfect match, and it showed stronger than ever after they finally mated. Any longer, and I would've gone in there and helped them do it. Watching the sexual tension between them made me want to vomit.

Cece and Hunter linked arms as they walked out of the room, her long hair continuing to grow at a quick rate. Obviously, she was looking to have it similar to her mothers.

Cece was just as beautiful as her mother Alexandria, they had the same kind heart. But her fierceness and power came from her father. Both her parents were fair and equal, and were so deeply in love that Alek used to wish she were their child.

As four year olds, both of us would take turns pretending to be their child, their love so real and genuine for each other, and anyone they encountered.

I smile lightly, knowing that deep down, they are reunited.

My parents loved my sister and I very dearly, and would have done anything to make sure we were happy. My mother and I were very alike, and grew close as I entered my teen years.

My father continued to push me too far, wanting me to be a strong leader for our people, my mother fought to get my father to be easier on me, hoping that it would lead me to feel less pressured.

It didn't work.

Instead I had to work harder, until I couldn't cope. My father and my mothers relationship began to fall apart, just as I had managed to sneak out of the Ferolc Kingdom.

I lasted two months, relying on the kindness of strangers to get by before I was captured, only learning that she took her own life when I returned two months ago.

I always knew at some point that I'd be alpha of the Nothern-Moon Pack, the family that raised me when my parents couldn't, but what I never knew, was that I would have to do it alone.

Once the rest of the elders finished debating about some topic that didn't concern me or my pack in the slightest, I left the room, wanting to head back to my room to be surrounded by the quiet. Yet, it never felt as though it was.

"Hey Jay," Cece catches me as I walk in the general direction of my room. Although, It could've been walking in the opposite direction, the palace was a maze.

"Hey princess," I smile as she makes her way towards me, her hair up in a messy bun and her clothes comfortable. I laugh when I see her, she could easily pass as a human and she knows it. She was after all, a year ago.

"That's Queen to you, James." I cringe as she gives me a small hug, knowing that physical contact with another human being other than Hunter just doesn't exist.

"Nope, always gonna be princess," I state, "and you can't change that." I lightly smile, knowing deep down it's taking all of my willpower to do.

"I just wanted to check up on you." Her large blue eyes wonder my yellow ones, causing me to look downwards. Cecelia was a beautiful girl, and I was attracted to her, but I wasn't going to involve myself in a situation where I wouldn't even be a contender.

The mate always wins. Always.

"I'm fine." I lie. Would she miss me if I was gone? I question myself.

She raises an eyebrow at me, seeing through my glass facade, except, she doesn't realise how deep it is, and she's only scratched the surface.

"Jay I know you're not okay, and you need to remember I feel the exact same. I was there." She states, wrapping her arms around me again.

"I was there."

But was she really?

*****

"Jay!" Saorsa catches me before I reach my room. I turn around and smile at her as she catches me up, Walking by my side.

I laugh slightly, because she's quite literally, half my size.

"Hey Saorsa, you okay?" I ask as I place a hand on her shoulder, her blond hair growing through on the small bald spot that her head has.

I clutch my fist in anger as I know he caused it.

She seems to cringe for a small second as I call her Saorsa, and she slows down her pace as Cece walks ahead and out of the doors ahead of us.

I have a look at her small body, and I'm quite content at how much weight she's put on, and the growth spurt she's beginning to have.

"What is it?" I ask her, immediately knowing something was wrong. I'd known Saorsa two years, after she was brought into the cages. Catori occasionally ate away at her soul, causing her to loose her memories, but we were both always last on her menu, almost as if she wanted us for bigger purposes.

Saorsa was unique, a hybrid that had never in all time existed. We didn't know how things were going to happen, but we would get through it.

"Jay..."she seems to whisper.

"You know how Cece remembered everything after...Catori died?" I silently nod. She continues walking forward as the sun beats down through the window, getting ready to set.

"Well, she thought it had something to do with the Moon Goddess, or the mate bond." She states, looking up at me.

"But it couldn't be..." she whispers.

"And why is that?" I ask her, making sure she stays close to me as we walk.

"I think, when Catori died, all of the energy that was released into the air, all of the memories, I think that's what caused them to slowly return." She states as I look at her, knowing she's not only talking about Cece.

"Are you telling me t-"

"That I am beginning to get my memories back?" She states, seeking to smirk at me. "Then yes Jay, I am." She laughs, taking my small hand in hers.

"Well," I smile, for the first time in what feels forever. "What do you remember?" I ask, giving her fragile hand a small squeeze.

"That I need to get home." She sighs.

"You need to get me to the Batail Wolves as soon as you can."

Ahh, the return of some of our favourite characters. Don't worry! They will be a large part of this book. *runs away*

I don't have a update schedule planned so I'm just gonna roll with the updates whenever I write!

What have you guys been thinking? I personally see a difference in my writing and I'm wondering if you guys do to?

Anyways, I'll see you in the next one!