(New poems are always last after a new update)

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"They drag me out,
Please let me stay,
I can't talk perfectly,
Either way,
Hiding from the blinding light,
Tired of my parents fights,
Let me escape this agony,
And maybe kill some anxiety..."

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You lock me in,
You say you care,
When I was younger, you weren't there!
Present in body, but never in soul,
You switch each time,
From hot and cold.
Left me then,
And leaving me now,
Confused and in tears,
History repeats itself,
An endless cycle,
Killing me,
And endless cry,
Choking me"

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"I'm giving up like way back then,
When I leave don't try to see me again,
Don't speak to me again,
Don't look at me like I couldn't make you proud,
Don't call out to me in a crowd,
Don't ask me what you did wrong,
As if you didn't know,
I don't want you near me,
Not now and not when I'm old..."

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"Treated like a monster,
Getting out of hand,
Screaming never listen,
Please try to understand,
I tried to do a good thing,
Then I did a bad,
A bad one out of anger,
Cause you don't understand..."

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"Mess on the floor and towers of Lego,
I want it back even though it was long ago,
Caps in the sun and papercut bandaid,
I miss all the times from memories I've made,
A friend in one hand and ice cream in the other,
Looking like a duo feeling like a brother,
I know time has past,
But in my heart,
these childhood memories, will always last..."

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"Yelling, fighting, all again,
Brings me back to when I was ten,
"Listen now or I will leave",
He used to say but now that's me,
Screaming till I loose my voice,
Anoying them I have no choice,
All I want is make them hate,
Hate me till it's all too late..."

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"I tried my best,
Did not go far,
"I know this isn't who you are"
I saw the pain your eyes kept showing,
But deeper is the pain of knowing,
What I am is all I'll be,
And all I'll be is lost at sea..."

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Missing trains and time confusion,
If we had made it,
I would have called it "delusion",
For if there's something,
My family does consistently,
It's missing deadlines,
No matter how properly,
Plans are layered,
Or early hours made,
Unfortunately,
It's not just a phase...

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