I'm in utter shock... half of me wants to knock on the door and kiss him back... but the half that wins is the one that causes me to have a breakdown at the memory of the last lips on mine before stephens...

I slide to the floor and curl up in a ball. Everything around me seems bigger and I seem much smaller. Every sound seems to echo throughout my skull, magnifying each time.

My chest feels heavy as I struggle to take a breath. And struggling to breath makes me panic more... which causes me to struggle to breath more.

Hot tears flow down my face, leaving bright red trails behind them... fogging my vision as a fugue walking past notices my gasps for air and sits next to me.

"Can I see your hand?" A voice asks gently, the only sound that isn't deafening in my head. I hesitantly push my hand out and it is moved to be on someone's chest. I feel their heartbeat and steady breathing.

"Let's try to breathe the same ok? Take as many tries as you need." The voice coaches encouragingly. I try but obviously fail so I start crying harder but this person keeps getting me to try again... eventually I realize it's Hosuh... he's the one helping me.

"Hey There you are." Hosuh smiles once I've calmed down enough that it's just me crying.

"I'm sorry... I've never really had problems like that before..." I mutter wiping my tears away.

"Did something happen to you? That would have caused it?" Hosuh gently rubs his thumb over the back of my hand.

"Yeah... something did...." my voice high and broken.

"Do you want to share? Or just sit here in silence?" He opens his arms for a hug, i throw myself Into it with a sad smile.

"I just want to sit here." I whisper.

"Ok. But if you need to tell anyone anything, I'm here for you. You're like my sister too you know." He kisses my temple and gently rocks me as I quietly let my tears fall.