We get into the Netherlands. It's beautiful and everything is starting to get chilly... good thing I have a jacket on.

"Let's check into the hotel and then we can film stuff around here." Lulu motions for me and Falcon to follow her.

All the way there I feel sick to my stomach... I have gotten sick once or twice on this adventure but this... this is much worse of a feeling.

"Hun are you ok?" Falcon wraps their arm around me loosely.

"I feel sick..." I hug my stomach and give a weak smile to my friend.

"Let's get you inside, get you in a bath and we'll see what else we can do." Falcon ushers me to the room and helps me into a cold bath.

"Fal you are the best." I smile as I relax. I don't feel awkward being naked infront of them honestly because I've caught them and Lulu having intercourse more times than they've walked in on me changing.

"I know I am." Falcon kisses my forehead before leaving the bathroom.

I let my mind wander. I've felt sick for a few days but... not this severely... like I would puke right now if I wasn't forcing myself not to.  And after a while my mind is on the night before my birthday...

I remember being pulled into an alleyway... everything smelt like alcohol and weed. I think harder about what happened and I remember being felt up... it was such a foreign feeling...

I hurry myself out of the bathtub and throw up my stomach when I realize what happened... and I just want to die