Okay, time to vent.

I've been dealing with a LOT of stuff for the past few days. Actually, more like weeks. You know what, let's say months.

Wattpad is one of the major contributors to that.

I have SO MANY good ideas I want to make books out of, but there are so many. Here, look at this list.

Corpse Party AU for the DR cast.

DR AU for the Corpse Party cast.

DR movie making AU

DR 18+ version featuring lemons called "Hornyronpa"

DR Christmas, which is getting closer, so the book might not be a thing

Ace Attorney high school or college AU

Ace Attorney Legends (prequel about Diego Armando and Mia Fey's attorney days, featuring Neil Marshall as the rival prosecutor, inspired by a post on tumblr asking for this specific fan fiction. Kinda also want to make this an actual fangame, but I don't know where to get a good case maker. That, and it'd be difficult to find a good villain, since I can only use canon sprites and fan made ones. I still really want to do it, though.)

Danganronpa AU for the Ace Attorney cast

Ace Attorney AU for the Danganronpa cast

Total Drama Island AU for the Danganronpa cast

Danganronpa AU for the Fairy Tail cast

Danganronpa AU for my OCs

(You think I like Danganronpa?)

Like, I am really good at coming up with this stuff. My friends on Discord have branded me the SHSL Creative Mind. I'm great with executions, murders, free time events, trials, anything and everything it would take to put ANY cast of characters in a DR book.

Plus, there's the books I already have. I REALLY want to continue with Danganronpa 2.5, EEAOA (Everyone, Everything, All Over Again), I've got asks and dares for Gundam, there's the series where the DR cast is swapped, there's a lot of Danganronpa stuff. I think I like these characters too much.

Then there's Fairy Tail. I started one Wattpad making Fairy Tail fan fictions, completing only one, and a ship week book. My most popular book, I'm pretty sure, is "The Love Of Tigers". It became VERY popular, VERY quickly. I love writing it, but I've been losing inspiration and motivation for it lately. I hate having to disappoint the viewers who LOVE reading it so much and who comment and vote and are always so happy, but it's hard to bring myself to write a chapter without motivation.

Same thing with "Redemption of Love". I feel like I'm cheating the readers, because even though the book was supposed to be about Fairy Tail ships, I feel like I'm focusing too much on my OCs. I feel guilty and I'm trying my best to bring the focus back.

Then comes school. FUCK SCHOOL. I'm serious. I wouldn't mind school, I've got mostly decent friends, the food is good, I play my 3DS on the bus (Professor Layton. Just started getting into it and am on the first game. LOVING this series so far!), and the kids aren't THAT unbearable (As long as you don't get involved in their antics, because a lot of them are REALLY childish), I really wouldn't mind school if it wasn't for one thing.

Homework.

FUCK. HOMEWORK.

If I didn't have to do homework, school would be one of my favorite parts of the spring. (Cause there's less bees in school and I am TERRIFIED.)

Homework stresses me out, there's too much, I don't like doing it at home (for those curious, I go to my grandparents house after school which is where I do my homework. My aunt's on Wednesdays), and it just takes the time out of my day.

Part of why I don't think I can do all these books is because homework, and school, is taking up so much fucking time.

Then the more personal problems.

You guys might be able to directly help for this one.

Please, go send -FluffyPotato- some love! She is a precious cute girl who deserves to be loved!

And for those wondering, she's the one I mentioned before about being very compatible with me...

But we're taking it slow. Warming up to the idea of dating before officially calling it that. Though, I already have my pet name for her ready. (For those curious, its Fluffer Nutter. Don't you dare call her that, that's my thing.)

But, Fluffy lives in California. For reference, I live in Massachusetts. AKA, the exact other side of the fucking country.

But, I won't let that discourage me. I really really care about Fluffy, and am willing to wait as long as it takes until we can see each other in real life. I don't care how long I have to wait. She's worth it to me.

The problem is that she's having problems.

She's been getting sad, discouraged, and since she isn't on that much, I can't talk to her immediately when things go wrong.

I really want to help her. I love it when she's happy. When she's smiling. When she's being goofy and making puns. I love that. But because of time zones and Fluffy being busy a lot, our interactions are few.

I want to talk to her more. I feel guilty for not, because I love talking to her. She... She is special to me.

Then comes my other friends on Skype.

Not many problems as a whole.

hajimes is always there to cheer me up, give me advice, and help me when I'm down.

kingcarlos2334 is there to always be having fun and never letting anything bother him.

KoKomaedaPuff is there to make you laugh and joke around.

CloudStarStorm is there to be weird and wacky with you when you're feeling weird and wacky.

Melody_Of_Writing is there to give you the respect you deserve and never forget you.

muffychu is there to support you when you need support.

WasureroBeam is there to let you know you aren't alone.

-FluffyPotato-... Well, I already said it, but Fluffy is there to cheer you on and always be positive.

And then there's one that I don't think I know their account. (If you're reading this, please tell me your account.) I'll call them Girl C for reference.

Girl C is there to be honest and truthful and tell it like it is.

But, Girl C gets depressed. She gets depressed and won't talk on skype, only text, and it makes me so sad seeing my friend so upset.

But hey, it's usually my fault when she gets depressed, so it's not like I can help her anyway...

Geez, I'm rambling. This is not helping at all. I'm so stupid.

I've never been popular. I've struggled with fitting in and making friends.

To the world, I'm annoying, I'm a pervert, I'm a loser, a freak, someone who doesn't belong.

But there's so much more.

I'm shy. I'm a little nerd who loves video games and anime. I'm actually pretty smart. I'm great at math. My IQ was 123 last year. I'm always really happy. I love having friends and talking to them and hanging out with them and doing cool stuff with them. I'm a bit awkward. I love reading and writing. Writing is my passion. I love doing it, which is why I want to become an author in the future. I get nervous a lot. I'm not that brave. I'm still a pervert, but a good one, I don't go around staring at girls or making sexual jokes all the time, I just really like boobs. I respect others. I know that women are not toys to play with or just things to have sex with. They are beautiful creatures with amazing personalities. I know that men are not immortal. They can't just decide all the rules. I know that humans are not gods. We can't create everything alone. I'm someone who treats other how they deserve to be treated. I want everyone to know how special they are, and that they shouldn't give up. I appreciate all the little and weird and little weird things in life.

I'm... I'm me. And that's exactly who I want to be.

It's my dream to help people. I became an author hoping to write a book that would change everyone's attitudes and give them a new outlook on life. It's a dumb dream.

I've always wanted to help people since I was younger. I hate seeing people sad and upset, especially when they don't deserve it. My goal in life is to make the world a better place. A happier place. A place you can be proud to call home.

I'm such an idiot.

Anyway, I'm actually glad I did this. I feel a bit better now that I got this off of my chest.

I'm sorry if I annoyed you guys with this, or bothered you by tagging or talking about you. I just got a bit carried away.

Anyway, thanks you for reading this is you did.

Have a nice day, and remember. Never confuse a bad day for a bad life!

This is Emer... This is Nick. You guys deserve to know my name.

This is Nick, signing off! Peace!