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He's been thinking, pondering over a lot of things. Sitting amidst the tall grass with his skateboard for support.

A certain song had been on loop for hours now. Only one thing comes in his mind.

"Zhan-ge, is this your answer?"

Feeling so small under the vast sky, Wang Yibo could only pray.

He's the type to believe in one's hard work and effort yet right now, how could he feel so helpless, so powerless and so weak.

He closed his eyes and let the wind do it's magic but even when there's nothing to see, all he could feel was the other. His smiling face lingering in the shade of dark as if the beacon of light itself.

He let the tall grass comfort him and laid down like the fire flies nesting, with their lives to pay.

Diànshì yīzhí shǎn

liánluò fāngshì dōu hái méi shān

nǐ dài wǒ de hǎo

wǒ què cuò shǒu huǐ diào

The TV keeps flickering

The contact number hasn't been deleted

Your faith in me

I mistakenly destroyed

He remembered how his friends from Uniq used to tease him that he would die loveless. He would laugh it off and say it didn't matter as long he gets to do things he love.

It matters. It's the matter of heart after all.

He wonders, does love carry gravity? It's nothing but heavy. But he knows he would never be loveless, he has a lot of it to give. Even if he receives none of it. 

yě céng yīqǐ xiǎng

yǒu gè dìfāng shuìjiào chīfàn

kě zěnme qù áo rìyè diāndǎo lián tóu kuǎn yě còu bù dào

We had a common wish

A roof over our heads

To make ends meet, worked day and night, couldn't even afford the

downpayment

He recalls the time, when he had just debuted as an actor and director reprimanded him, telling him that if he cut his pay there would be nothing left for him.

He had gone through a lot worst, a lot more horrendous pain.

They prisoned him – his soul full of freedom and glee. They showed him that his heart didn't matter, his innocence was not needed and put a tag on him -- exposed him for display.

He was lost, a mere child with world to face.

qiáng bǎn bèi wǒ zá làn dào xiànzài hái méi xiū

yī wǎn rè de zhōu nǐ pà wǒ méi gòu dōuliú yībàn dài zǒu

gěi nǐ xíngróng měihǎo jīnhòu nǐ chángcháng yǎnjīng huì hóng

yuánlái xīnténg wǒ wǒ nà shíhòu bù dǒng

The wall-board I smashed hasn't been repaired to this day

A warm bowl of porridge...afraid I didn't have enough, you gave your half

To describe your goodness is to cause a future of reddened eyes

Your loving ways, I didn't realize at that time.

His eyes were closed, a lonely tear slid down his cheeks, falling on the glass it trickled down till it landed on the soil beneath.

"Zhan-ge is different." His whisper mingled with the wind, like the rain that was meant to wash away the screams.

He broke him free; he sent the stars, in the kaleidoscope of the sea. He found his lost heart buried so deep in a tench undersea. 

Once again, he wanted to live. Finally, he found the key.

jiǎrú wǒ niánshào yǒu wéi bù zìbēi

dǒngdé shénme shì zhēnguì

nàxiē měimèng

méi gěi nǐ wǒ yīshēng yǒu kuì

If I was young and promising – not inferior

Knew what was precious

Those pipe dreams

That I never fulfilled for you, is my shameful existence

Dreams. He has become his dream now. A dream he wishes to fulfill, a dream he wishes to live. A dream he will never let go.

Whether the universe keeping them apart or their own hearts, he would wait for a life time. He would love for an eternity.

jiǎrú wǒ niánshào yǒu wéi zhī jìntuì

cái bù huì ràng nǐ tì wǒ shòuzuì

hūnlǐ shàng duō hē jǐ bēi

hé nǐ xiànzài nà wèi

If I was young and promising – understood propriety

I wouldn't let you suffer for me

At the wedding, have a few more drinks

With the one you're with

If there was a song every time, he thought of him, he would be singing in every lifetime.

Wang Yibo got up and stared at the contact number for long. Xiao Zhan had the picture of Nut as wallpaper. He smiled and reached out to press the green button. Even the green and red here are different.

One opens the whole world while other embraces it with all of him.

Before Wang Yibo could press, his phone buzzed along with his heart. Zhan-ge was calling him.

He calmed his racing heart and picked up the device.

"Zhan-ge?"

Even after a minute, all he could hear was the muffling sound of sobs.

Why? What happened?

His hearth churned with agony, that face is meant to smile not a tear should reside in those eyes.

"Zhan-ge? Is everything alright?" He asks but is received by the love of that naïve boy.

"wàng bù liǎo nǐ de ài

dàn jié jú nán gēng gǎi"

His heart beat a million beats like the symphonies of each keys on harmonium.

This is the answer.

This is love. 

Wang Yibo breathes in with the next verse and the two of them vow to sing the song of their heart and love.

"Zhan-ge, didi ai ni."

For the first time, the empty space was filled, for the first time his love had finally reached.

"Bo-di, gege ai ni."

Nobody could measure how much a heart can hold and the pages of new melodies were ready to be unfold. 

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sorry for errors and thank you for reading. 

5.9.2020

Happy Birthday Zheng Fanxing!

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Happy Birthday turtles!