Our first game was tomorrow and the coach was making us practice nonstop. In the mornings. After school. On the weekends. I haven't had homeroom in two weeks. That's where I get the majority of my homework done.

Alex hasn't answered my calls in three weeks. He's either studying or practicing football. He's never studied this much before and I'm starting to worry. I think football is making his grades drop.
Peggy and Herc are always there though.

"I checked with his teachers. His grades are fine" Peggy said as she sat next to me
"They let you know his grades?"
"I know right" she laughed

I glanced across the lunch room and saw Alex talking to James Reynolds. Alex looked pissed. I heard a rumor James Reynolds was trying to take Alexs spot on the football team. Alex was quarterback which pretty much automatically makes him popular.

"I think he cares about football and being popular more than he cares about me" I sighed
"I agree. And that's coming for your best friend aka the girl that has you and Alex being cute as her lock screen and home screen"
"Aka my stalker" I added
"Not your stalker. The lams stalker."
"Oh my god Peggy I told you no ship names"
"And I told you too bad."

"Are you listening?!" Peggy asked snapping her fingers in my face
"Y-Yeah" I mumbled blinking a few times. I had been staring across the room at Alex and I still was.
Alex and James stopped arguing and Alex walked away. I smiled thinking he was coming to sit down at my table. He was walking this direction anyway so it was kinda obvious.
I waved at him as he got closer but he didn't even glance at me. He came so close I thought he would sit down but he never even stopped at my table. He just walked right by and left the lunchroom. Peggy got up and I started to panic even more than I already was.

"Calm down. I'm following that bastard" she said before walking off
"He's not a bastard." I said firmly

I nervously fiddled with the sleeve of the jacket I was wearing. It was Alex's of course.

Peggy P.O.V.

I got up and followed after Alex keeping a safe distance so he didn't notice me. What? Your girls good at stalking.

I saw Alex grab his phone and frantically dial a number. He held the phone up to his ear impatiently.

"Hi! Hello- um...is this Maria?" He asked clearly sweating

Oh no. No no no no no. He did not.
Maria has made so many guys cheat on there girlfriend and or boyfriend it's crazy. I can't tell John! He'll be crushed and he'll brake up with Alex and lams will be ruined!!! I'm not supposed to tell anybody but John was in an abusive relationship with Francis Kinloch and when he started cheating on him John broke up with him. He's really sensitive to this stuff. As a kid he's seen what it can do to a relationship- ack! I've said too much!

"Sorry..ok I'll get it!" Alex snaps
"I'm sorry I'm sorry. But if I ever hear you talked to him-" he was cut off by the other person hanging up. He sighed and started walking away. I followed being the sneaky stealthy totally awesome and legit spy that I was.

He went outside and sat on a bench with his face in his hands. I could hear muffled sobs. I did what any good best friend would do and I walked over and punched him in the face. What? I'm John's best friend not Alex's, remember?

"Ow!! Peggy what the fuck!" He snapped wiping away tears
"That's for cheating on John you bastard!" I snapped back. He had nothing to say back. He just looked away.
"You can't tell John. You will literally be dead to him. Dead. To. Him." I said coldly
"Isn't he a little more forgiving than that...?" Alex asked hopefully
"Usually yes. But John knows things. He's been through things." I said. Alex just groans and put his face back in his hands.

"Peggy I'm sorry" he said starting to sob again
"I know. And it's not your fault I guess...you're not James and Maria's first victim and you probably won't be the last.." I mumbled remembering— never mind. I wasn't remembering anything. What do you know?!?

"I just can't believe I did that to him.." he sobbed. I rubbed his back.
"I gotta go back to John-" I started
"Please don't tell him!!" He cut me off
"I won't I won't." I said getting up "figure this out Alex."

I went back to John a bit shaken... I knew Maria and James were targeting lams but I didn't think it would work. I thought Alex was smarter than that. I thought lams was stronger than that..

"What happened? You look shaken.." John mumbled
"Oh I'm fine. Alex is just studying" I lied "I'm gonna go to class early and help the teacher" I said speeding off.

Super sneaky stealthy totally awesome and legit spy Peggy is on a mission.

Operation lams is now in progress. I repeat, Operation lams is now in progress.

John P.O.V.

I walked to class. Usually Alex walked with me but I think he was ignoring me. Alex started to pass me but our football coach came over and stopped both of us. Alex uneasily moved to the side. Ok he's defiantly avoiding me.

"Alex John! Just the football players I needed to see!" Coach Micheal said
"Great." I mumbled "oh Alex this is yours" I said handing him his letterman's jacket.

"John I need you to be the quarterback" he said
"What?!" Me and Alex said in unison
"But Alex has worked so hard for it..." I mumbled sympathetically
"Come on! We need you John. You're perfect for the spot!" He insisted.

What Alex said next shocked and scared me.

"It's fine Coach Micheal. I don't deserve to be quarterback." He mumbled with a pained expression "congratulations" he said to me with a weak smile before walking to class.

"Um...I guess I'll do it.." I mumbled. I had always wanted to be quarterback but not this way... it's so unfair to Alex.

In class I passed notes to Alex but he wouldn't respond.

'Alex answer me.'
-John

'I can't..I did something awful. Worse than anything I've ever done in my entire life'
-Alex

'....what'd you do?? Just talk to me. Don't you trust me'
-John

"I can't tell you. You won't love me anymore.'
-Alex

'There's nothing in this world that could make me stop loving you Alexander. You're the best thing in the entire world. You're more valuable than 1,000,000,000 diamonds.'
-John

'There's one thing. And I did it. And you'll hate me forever for it.'
-Alex

'There's only one thing I'm super sensitive about and I've never told you'
-John

'You're not the one who told me about it.'
-Alex

'Alex you didn't....'
-John

'I did... and I'm so god damn sorry! Please say you still love me!'
-Alex

'I STILL LOVE YOU JUST GIVE ME BACK MY DAMN TURTLE'
-John

'John I did something worse than steal your turtle'
-Alex

I didn't write anything back. Surely he didn't...
But he couldn't have....

'John. Do you still love me?'
-Alex

'Alex. What did you do.'
-John

'But you won't love me anymore!'
-Alex

'Alex tell me what you fucking did!!'
-John

I fiddled with a hair tie as Alex wrote something down then erased. Then wrote something down then erased. I think you can guess what happened for the next five minutes.

'Ch....'
-Alex

Please no please no please no. Please just say something about Chess or Checkers! Don't say...

'Ea....'
-Alex

'Alex..'
-John

'ted..'
-Alex

I felt like I couldn't breath. I didn't want to cry over him. He wasn't worth it. He's just like Francis. Francis was right. No one will ever love me. I'm just not worth it.

He's not worth it.

Sorry for all the hesitating. And the POV skips.

Not sorry for the plot tho >:333))