PART ONE

IN NEED OF LIGHT

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❝Starting today, I need to forget what's gone.

Appreciate what still remains and look forward

to what's coming next.❞

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S U M M A R Y 

Coming soon

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D I S C L A I M E R 

This work is unedited and will remain so throughout its publication on Wattpad.

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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C O P Y R I G H T 

Copyright © 2020 by Kayla Roman

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B A C K S T O R Y  

This work is a therapeutic outlet and should not be taken with much judgement. My writing may not be of its usual standard and I am fully aware of the fact.

The story begins with me; as in the living Kayla Mae.

I decided to start writing again because I have reached a crossroads in my life, and since I can't start therapy right away, this work is my healing process.

Although this story is not realistic, I am using it as a channel to express the ups and downs of what I learned from my devastating breakup of a 6 year relationship.

My ex dumped me the day after walking across the stage to receive my bachelor's degree. I was with him from the age of 18 to 24, and I knew nobody else for my entire adult life. I neglected making friends in college because I was so set on building a future with this boy. I worked tirelessly in college to be in the top 10% of my class just so I could get a well paying job and support the family I wanted with him. Well, that dream fell apart and I was left alone with nothing left to work towards.

I made the mistake of putting all my eggs in one basket. I thought we were a team and that he would follow my passion for a future where we could marry, travel the world, and own a husky named Puck.

To tell you that I was devastated was an understatement. My entire world ended. I had graduated college, which was my one goal for most of my life, and my relationship ended next. I was left with no ideas for the future. It seemed like everything I had worked so hard for was worthless. What's the point of life now that I had no one to share it with? What am I meant to do now? I asked myself these questions and couldn't find the answers. I came to the conclusion that I had nothing. For my entire adult life as I knew it, I had been with this person. I had absolutely no knowledge of how to be alone.

As if that wasn't heavy enough, I accepted an offer for my first full-time job. I was suddenly thrust into a new life with a job where I made a livable wage. Hell, I was making more money than I thought I deserved. For the first time, I was comfortable. I wasn't a college student keeping coins so I could get a soda from a vending machine. I had health insurance for the first time in 10 years. I suddenly had nothing to worry about. I was comfortable.  Which in some ways made this situation worse because I had not one thing to worry about other than my singleness.

I suffered with a great identity crisis. Everything in my life changed in only a month. The two things I had - school and a boyfriend - were suddenly gone. I struggled to understand who I was and what I wanted.

I felt immense sadness in the fact that I failed. At this stage in my life - being a 24 year old college graduate with a well-paying job - I pictured things to be different. I always thought that when I got to this point in my life... that I would be with this person and we'd be happy. But life didn't turn out that way.

You may be reading this and not understand... I don't think I'm capable of expressing the pain and frustration of failing at a long-term relationship. Everyone has told me that I'm young and I have plenty of time to figure out my life, but that doesn't take away the hurt and emotions. Especially for me - someone who needs to have control over their life and makes goals specifically so I know what's coming next. Nothing scares me more than an unknown future.

Now, you may also be wondering why I bothered writing this extensive backstory...

Because this work is one way for me to visualize a future. Even if this future isn't real and will never happen, I still want to believe that it's a possibility.

Enjoy this short romance story about a girl who got her heart broken and found new light from starting life over. 

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C R E D I T S 

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