I sat on my bed and cried, I just gave Nickoli permission to have sex with someone else. Not that he needed it, he could date who he wanted. It wasn't like we were an exclusive couple. How could I expect him to be with only me when I was dating Dmitri and not letting our relationship move forward. My time to make a decision was here. We needed to talk, both Nickoli and Dmitri, right after this full moon. I loved them both and did not want to lose either, but what I was doing now was worse.

The conversation of them not dating others had never come up, but I knew in my heart that they were not and I was equally positive that they were not having sex with anyone. Ok not positive, but from conversations I heard, it was quite clear that shifters were a very sexual driven, and closer to the full moon emotions were raw and I figured so was their sex drive.

I think I knew all this even before I talked to Jack but I buried the thought in the back of my mind, now I needed to know for sure. My time with Nickoli cut short due to not having enough restraint, and my selfishness not wanting to know more about them putting my love ones on edge. Enough was enough I had to stand up and take responsibility for what I was and what they were.

No better time like the present, I called Mason first and hoped he would be able to help. I hung up the phone before it rang, thinking twice about asking Mason certain questions. Things had started to change between us and add into the fact I started to leave certain thing out when we spoke. Topics on the sexual side as well as the feeling I had been having. Anything to do with my feelings towards Dmitri and Nickoli was on the top of the list so talking about sex was out. Mady was out, she was having a date night with her husband. So that left Jack or Lawrence. At least with them they would not hold back.

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Lawrence

Surprised to hear from Sam, I headed right over to her place. Telling myself it was the tone of her voice that had him drop everything to see what was wrong, but I knew the truth. She did sound distraught, but reassured me everything was fine and she had some questions she wanted to ask.

"Lawrence, thank you for coming over, although we could have done it over the phone," Sam greeted him at the door.

"Well I figured for you to call me it must be important or something you do not feel comfortable talking to with someone else," I said as I walked in the door.

Sam looked embarrassed. "Um...would you like a beer?" she asked, not able to meet my eyes.

Accepting the beer, sitting on the couch I watched Sam pace back and forth. I sat quietly giving her a few more minutes before speaking up. The longer I watched her in silence, the more my mind wondered in dangerous territory.

"Ok, the reason I called you was because you would be straight up with me and it would be easier to talk to you...well easier with some and harder than others. But I need answers now and couldn't wait. Not meaning that you were not the top five I would talk about this but..." she babbled on, still pacing and avoiding eye contact, I continued to sit there and waited for her to go on.

"What all does the full moon do to you? I mean I have noticed that everyone...well except for you and Jack, are more intense. I also know that you are more...more....Ok this was easier when I said it in my head," she sat down hard on the other end of the couch, cradling her head in her hands. "Sex, your sex drive. Does that change closer to the full moon?" She mumbled into her hands.

That question caught me off guard. After Sam's admission of her physical attraction to me, I thought I would be one of the last people she would want to talk about this with. Now I understood about her babbling and took no offence. Never letting it show on my face, I stayed relaxed before answering, "Yes we are more sexual and before the full moon increases are libido. We do not take sex as personal as human's, it's more of a passion. No that's the wrong word...need; it's more like a need.

"The closer the full moon, the closer our animal is to the surface. The need to run, hunt, and enjoy each other's bodies can take precedent to all other needs and wants. The older and stronger we are the more control we have," I explained.

Sam sat still the whole time, than asked, "So what, you turn and have a big orgy?" her tone more curious then disgusted.

I had to chuckle, "No, it's not like that at all, although it has happened. Don't get me wrong we all enjoy sex and the more the better, but that is only with the unmated. Mated pairs our loyal to each other to the end and I have never seen or heard of a mated pair share their bodies with anyone besides each other."

Sam sat and digested everything I told her, after a few minutes she turned to face me, face pale, clears her throat and sat up straighter, "I heard that closer to the full moon that you could hurt a human during sex, what does that mean exactly?"

I just found out why all the Q and A all of a sudden and why she called me. "Like I said before our animal is closer to the surface and with our strength so much greater than a human and with our natural ability to heal quickly our sex during that time is always rougher," I paused to let her catch everything, "Especially for a new sexual relationship is probably the worst thing any of us could do. There is no love making during those few days, it's just plain hard fucking," I hated to sound so crude, but it was the easiest way to explain with no misinterpretation.

Sam was pale and clearly upset. "Thank you for being honest with me," she said her voice shaky.

I could not leave her feeling like this, "Sam, the stronger we are the more we can hold back our animal side. We don't have to have sex on a full moon. We get a little irritable, but it can be done. Some have gone months without it at the time near the full moon until we were confident we would not hurt our human mate," I added, hoping it would put her mind at ease.

With a small smile she finally met my eyes and said, "Thank you, thank you for everything."

I got up and started to head for the door, I told her the truth and now it was time to go before I stayed to comfort her. It might not be welcomed with the strong sexual feelings that passed between us, but if she did allow it...that would be a mistake, and with everything I just told her, my libido was on high and with the sexual tension she had confessed to having towards me, there was no doubt where it would lead.

Opening the door I looked over my shoulder to see Sam right behind me, "I will talk to you later," I said. Taking her hand in mine, she gives it a squeeze of thanks. Not able to stop himself, I turned and pulled her into my arm and laid a kiss on the top of her head before leaving quickly out the door.