I appreciated what Jack was trying to do, but as soon as I seemed to get use to one thing, something else came up.

Halfway into our lesson and before the hard part, controlling my lust and blocking the others out, I asked Jack. "How do you and Lawrence know this?" I had been wondering that for a while, but they usual got right into their lesson and I always forgot to ask.

"We all do this to an extent. It helps keep are animal in control especially when anger or lust is involved. But when you are an Alpha or Leader, it's even more important. For the people we change we have a constant link to them. Even the ones we don't, the link is still there, but more of a whisper, I guess that is the best way to describe it. I have over 600 pack members and if I didn't know how to control what I was feeling I would have lost my mind many years ago. Just like when you felt sick. That was increased when you could feel all the negative emotions, which always seem to be the strongest. Just imagine 600 emotions hitting you from all sides' day and night," he explained.

That, I could not even image. What I felt now was sometimes overwhelming. Then another question came to mind. "Um, Jack? What about Katie?" Katie was a wolf that was beaten, raped, and later killed back in June. I wanted to know, but regretted it as soon as it came out of my mouth.

Jack seemed to deflate at the question. "I tried, but whoever had her broke our connection. See when a new member joins another pack there is a kind of ceremony that needs to take place. As an Alpha we are to bite the newest member, and taking of blood and flesh is involved and that is the same for the new member. We give them our blood and flesh to complete the new bond. That will break the connection with the old pack and let you be part of the new one. Even if done by force the result can be the same especially with a weaker member. Only the strongest members of a pack can fight the bond of the new pack, but the break of the previous pack will still be broken," Jack sighed, and rubs his forehead. "Katie's bond was broken even before I realized she was missing. I did not change her so our link wasn't as strong, plus she was very much a submissive wolf which is why I couldn't feel the bond break," he explained.

I felt like a heel for bring it up, but at the same time it helped me understand more about the pack connection. "Thank you for sharing that with me," I gave him a small smile, "And no offence, but I'm sure as hell glad I'm not you," I admitted.

Jack laughed wholeheartedly. "That's how I feel about you too, Sam." Jack turned his head slightly, "Right on time," he said getting up and walking to the door. "We are going to change things up today," he said letting in two men I had never seen before.

Scrambling to my feet, "What are you talking about?" I had a bad feeling about this. That mischievous glint in his eyes was not reassuring.

"Your blocking is going very well and since you told me about what you have been dealing with we are going to use Brad and Mark to distract you."

Brad and Mark were gorgeous; both hard body's, one light complexion with fair hair and the other darker complexion with black hair. "Uh uh, I'm not ready for that." I looked everywhere but at the two gorgeous hard bodies that just walked through the door. I knew they were amazing to look at, but at the same time, I was blocking them out of my view and my mind. Today has already been a rough enough day, and it was barely noon. Once I thought about it, I wasn't really attracted to them, which was a huge bonus. Fear could have contributed to that.

"Too bad," Jack said.

I tried to per sway Jack and that was a waste of breath. Gritting my teeth, I gave up and started the lesson. I never made eye contact with Brad and Mark, hoping all the guards I had up would not crash. Until this morning I only worried about the men I loved and now my best friend Mason, but after Quinn my confidence was shot to hell and really did not want to fall over these two new men like a crazed horny teen. I did apologize and reassured them it had nothing to do with them, and to please not take offence to my hostility. They seem to understand and shrugged it off. If anything, they found the situation amusing.

Brad stood in front and Mark behind me, close enough to touch but not. They must have been informed earlier what to do, because as soon as Jack said, "Start," I felt their lust hit. Quickly slamming up walls all I felt was the barest of pressure. It felt like a summer breeze and nothing more. This I could handle.

Looking over to Jack with a big smile. "I can do this," I was excited. Their lust had no effect. There was no urge to strip them down and take them right there. Even the knock on the door did not waver my control.

Lawrence walking in did though. It wavered, but it took me only a second to reinforce the shields, or maybe I was just getting a little over confident sandwiched between Brad and Mark and still able to think.

"Good morning Samantha," Lawrence's voice could melt butter.

"Morning," I was surprised that my voice was so strong when the whole time my knees felt weak. Flashbacks of the time we spent in the shower and the fact that this guy was a walking talking sexicle. Brad and Mark decided at that moment to move in closer. Locking my knees, putting all my concentration on the man in front of me as well at the one behind, I turned my head slightly so Lawrence was no longer in sight.

After around twenty minutes or so of having hands on my hips, what I suspected was an erect penis brushing against my butt and their soft breath on my neck and ears, I was still doing great. Then both men took a half a step back and started to walk around. I figured they were changing spots since they did not walk away totally. I was happy kept my walls up, but at the same time I was getting kind of bored.

This time when they moved in Matt stood in front still leaving space, but Brad left none. He was right up close and personal and still I held on strong.

"You're doing very well Sam," Lawrence purred into my ear as his nose touched it.

Shit, it wasn't Brad! My guard was up so much I didn't sense who was behind me till he spoke. Lawrence switched spots and this time there was no doubt; he was hard and pressing his front of his body against my back. "Mmm, nice catch, I barely felt that," his breath on my neck.

I was surprised my walls did not shatter into a million pieces. I struggled to keep them in place; my own lust began to rise. Heartbeat raced, palms began to sweat.

Lawrence gently dug his fingers into my hips as he inhaled my scent. "Do you think you can shield me when I drop mine?" he growled.

I was barely holding on by a string, once I heard and felt his chest rumble when he growled it totally undid my hold. My brain went to mush. Panties were soaked and if I did not remove myself right that second, I would have taken Lawrence right there in front of the other three men. "I'm done," my voice tight, body shaking and sweat poured down my face as I pushed past Mark and raced up the stairs.

In my room, I sat in the middle of the bed taking slow deep cleansing breaths. Eyes closed letting my mind go blank, feeling my body become one with the air; floating into nothingness. Not thinking about the men downstairs, not thinking about the way my body craved to be touched, to be kissed. Just not thinking at all. And absolutely not thinking about Lawrence.

My body at ease, my mind at peace, I felt better and at one with myself. The soft click of the door closing had my eyes open slowly and to see Lawrence leaning up against the closed door. Keeping my breathing steady, I said nothing.

"Leave it up to you to have a thing for growling," Lawrence sounded amused, "We're part animal and have a tendency to growl," he shook his head in disbelief.

"Yep. Definitely not one to make things easy or less complicated," my voice flat. Climbing off the bed to put more distance between.

"Sam," he growled, taking a step towards me.

An uncontrollable shiver raked my body, my knees started to give and only holding on to the bed frame kept me up, "Dammit Lawrence, stop," my voice shook. There was no way I could deal with him right now or even in the near future.

"Block me Sam," his voice soft, eyes penetrating hers as his lips turned up to a sexy half smile.

I could feel his influence push hard against my walls. More like a sledgehammer trying to break down a concrete wall. He grabbed the sides of my face pushing his will even harder. Sweat started to run down my temples. "I can't," I finally yelled, "It's really fucking hard when every time I see you I want you naked and fucking you!" I screamed. Once again speaking before thinking, I slapped my hand over my mouth and my eyes practically popped out.

I could no longer feel Lawrence push his lust towards me. Not wanting to talk or even spend another second in the same room with the man, I ran into the bathroom. Locking the door, stripped the clothes I wore faster than I ever had before then jumped into the ice cold shower, cooling my burning body.

Refusing to come out until I knew everyone had left the house. I spent the better half of an hour under the cold water. Shivering, I finally stepped out. Getting dressed then climbed under the covers to warm myself up. For the next few hours, I ignored the phone and just practised my mediation.