After Dmitri and Nickoli left, I picked up the phone calling the very depressed sounding Mady, letting her know that I was not leaving and inviting her over. Needing a friend to talk too and an apology to be given, I was relieved when Mady said she would be right over.

Tackling my friend in a bear hug as soon as Mady walked in the door and apologizing profusely, getting giggles and, "that's Ok," from Mady, we headed to the living room. Mady jumped in with a hundred questions before we had a chance to get comfortable.
Feeling on top of the world, I laughed, "Ok, Ok, one thing at a time." I explained how Dmitri and Nickoli found me and then came over for our talk. "You know how I have a bad habit of talking to myself," I paused, "Well I kind of told them I was falling in love with both of them." Mady's mouth dropped open, eyes bugged out in complete surprise. I never told her about how I felt. For all that matters, I too had just come to the conclusion recently. "I know. Believe me it was a shock to me. You should have seen their faces when they heard me." I looked back and laughed, "Anyways, they told me that they love me and now we are going to date," I added nonchalantly, waiting for her response.

Bewildered, Mady just sat there looking intently back at me. "Oh. I am delighted that you are staying, more than I could ever say. But Sam...is that a wise idea, dating both of them? What about sex? Are you going to be with both of them?"

I sighed, "That's what I said, but we decided to cross that bridge when we came to it. I'm trying not to think about it but it's hard. Keeping my hormones in check these days is getting harder and I'm pushing the line of how far I go further back," I acknowledged. "Mady, it was breaking me in two when I decided to leave here, you, my friends, and them. I know I'm being selfish, but for the first time ever I need someone...someone's in my life, I need you. I need all of you," I confessed.

Mady smiled, "That I do understand. I'm just...worried. This is not how we normal do things. I know you being a Tlazolteolt probably has played a big part of this. The way they are willing to share you...is not....ah usual. I'm worried what may happen in the long run."

I saw her point and I too was worried, but believed the risk was worth it. For now anyways. For all we knew everything would work out just fine. That was once I figured out the physically part of it.

Staring off out the window, Mady said, "You know if you would let me explain more on who and what we are it would make more sense and be easier on you finding out more about yourself."

"Mady, it's not that I don't want to know, but you have to admit I, we have had a lot of whammies over the past couple of months. When I'm ready I will ask." I had avoided all topics of shifters and the Tlazolteotl, not that I was not curious, I was very. But I was just getting use to what I meant to the shifters and when the time was right I would ask more questions.

The rest of the night was pretty quiet. Conversation stayed neutral, not talking about the wonderful mess my life seem to be in or shifters or being Tlazolteotl. Just two old dear friends shooting the shit over a glass, more like three glasses of wine.

Once Mady left, I called Mason to let him know I was staying. After a few excited questions from him, I admitted that I was going to be dating Dmitri and Nickoli and it was their idea. Leaving out the issue I had about the sex part and not telling him about the confessed love we shared. He was my best friend as well but I could not bring up my feelings I had. My gut told me to shut my mouth and that was what I did.

It was a long day, emotional day, and my bed was calling. Climbing in, the bold red light from the bedside clock read 01:38 am. It was way past my usual bedtime. The day was over. The first anniversary of my family's death was past. Not sure how I felt about that, I laid down, and closed her eyes. "Worry about it tomorrow," I yawned. Within seconds, I was fast asleep.