BAEKHYUN’S POV

After Tae's dramatic pull out.  We stood there looking at Sehun, egar to know what he plans on doing next because 1) He ain't giving up. 2) Imma smack him hard if he does give up because that will be stupid.

“So what do we do next?” Kai asked as confused as he should be.

“You guys” Sehun looked at us “will help me with mess I created of course.” He huffed.

“Why the fuck would we do that?” Chen roared.

“Because I am the makena...”

“Ex-makena” Someone corrected from behind while Sehun left an unapproved growl.

“Yes whatever but I'm still the baby who makes mistakes and you guys are still the hyungs that help me wipe the spilled tea.”

“Fair point.” We agreed.

“Okhey what do we need to do?” Kyungsoo asked massaging his temples with his fingers.

We all gathered together and started planning. Ideas where being thrown on the table, gesturing hand in air, boisterous voices were heard and so were mumbles, expressions from meaningful to petulant where all on display while someone connected the phone to China resulting in an ear full of scolding (courtesy of Lu Han) and a handful of stupid shit base ideas.

After a whole lot of 3 hours 20 minutes and 12ish seconds the call was disconnected, the hands were dropped on table, expressions now satisfied and lazy and of course an idea was finally cooking now we wait for the dish.

ERIE'S POV

The pain has an unpleasant warmth to it, eating at my stomach. There's nausea too, just enough to make me hold onto the table for support and breath slow. I've often prized myself in ignoring pain and just rocking on regardless, but that just isn't possible right now. It owns me, dominates every thought, controls every action. I am so angry and hurt over his behaviour, he didn't even let me explain.

The rumours are spreading wild. Old pictures of Taeyong and me are all uploaded and showed in a whole different way from what the actions actually were. I am stressed over everything but mostly I am sad about the fact how I just lost the man I love and how he never really tried... never truly cared.

‘I wanted it so badly. I was able to make it, watch it, even smell it but I couldn't touch it. A relation with him, I mean, a future. That's what I want most the most, to feel it. This stupid, doltish, dipstick, troglodyte of a rumour gives me a burning pain. All I wanted was a relation full of love but no matter what I do it slips every time.’

I was cut from my thoughts when I heard my phone ring for the sixth time today. I know it's Xiumin but I have zero energy or heart to pick it up.

I am at my own apartment right now. The one we have to fool humans. There is silence in the apartment and as well in my soul. The last rays of the late afternoon sun fell slanting through the window when I heard a door open and close. I really didn't bothered opening my eyes I can recognise this coffee scent anywhere.

After hearing sounds of dishes clanking I finally feel the door to my room being opened allowing artificial light to come in and join the dance of the sun setting lights.

“What do you want Xiumin oppa?”

“I was worried so I came. Why? Can't a parent come check on their only daughter?”

Finally I opened my eyes to see a beautiful face painted with worry and eyes filled with tears. A tray in his hand. Guilt piled up in me.

“Hey mom I'm fine, okhey? You raised a strong pup don't get worried over me especially when nothing big happened.”

“Nothing big? Nothing big? Hun? You didn’t came home since two days and you work undercover like you are James Bond but yeah sure nothing big happened.”

“But Eomma I'm fine really its just I wanted to come to the apartment I haven’t really been here, so you know...”

“Erie, sweet heart you should know that you can not lie for shit.”

“Well I try.”

“Come on Eat.” He says after choking out a laugh trough the lump in his throat.

There were little fried shrimps and fish fried to crisps, in a dish. He placed a pile of shrimps on my plate and drenched them in a creamy sauce. He clenched a shrimp and stuffed it into my mouth. His licked his fingers, smeared with cream and oil. He crunched another handful of crispy fish and shoved it in my already stuffed mouth. Now that I think Xiu can no scratch that will be a great grandma ‘always stuffing mouth of his children or grand children’

“I’m stuffed Xiu”

“Stuffed? Look at you. You became so thin in like two days.” He says while lifting an other crisp fish in front of my mouth. ‘see a perfect grandma’

“Just this one okhey? I am really stuffed.”

“Okhey.” He smiles the ever charming smile before putting on the serious expression “So when are you coming home?”

“Nah I ain't. I like it here”

“White lies.”

“You try.”

“No Erie this is not the time to say song lyrics. Tell me.”

“I am not coming back to that place. I am not willing to come back and look at his face and feel shit.”

“Erie ‘that place’ is your home where your family resides. Just because you can not look at Oh Sehun does not means you get to live alone.  I won't have it, Chen won't have it, Suho won't have it and Kris will most certainly drag your ass back himself cause he won't have it either neither the rest of them. Therefore young lady you are coming back home this instant.” He had a commanding tone which left no space to argue.

Silent covers the room before Xiumin  gets up and packs some bags. I have no idea what he is packing since I never came here with stuff, I already have some clothes here but I am not going to question.

“Let's go.” Hesitantly but surely I take his hand and we are off to home. ‘I don’t know if I'm ready or not.’ With this thought in my head I doze off to sleep.

SEHUN'S POV

I wait at the road end, with Beakhyun hyung, waiting for them to arrive. Every passing moment is increasing my guilt.

There are times my brain fries up. It's no excuse I know; I own my behaviour. I try to help, try to be good, and then a trigger is flicked. My emotions turn cold, fearful, anxious and I back away, flee or strike out at someone who loves me. In these moments I am least proud of who I am. But right now isn't the right time to think about this. Right now I am standing here to fix what I did.

The silver gray Mercedes cruised down the freeway, stopping in front of us. Xiumin hyung came out while i saw an angel sleeping in the side seat.

“Why is she sleeping?” Baek asked.

“I dunno she just drifted off. Good for us eh?”

“Yeah. Yaah Oh Sehun you mess this up imma disown you and...”

“And I will make you regret every living moment of your life.” Xiumin completed the sentence although I am 99.9999% sure that this wasn't how Baekhyun hyung wanted to complete the threat.

I nod and drive off with Erie sleeping besides me.

ERIE’S POV

I wake up feeling cold. The air surrounding me is chilly not the bad kind though just the kind that makes you want to have hot coca and a good book. The smell of grass is always alluri- grass? Air? Then it hit me I was suppose to be in a car, with no air or grass to surround me. ‘What the fuck?’

I look around to see that I am in the middle of a forest. Below me is a green coloured picnic matt, almost the colour kf my fur, while candles surround me. Just above me are small lanterns, attached to the tree branches, dancing along gravity.

Although this is beautiful it still leaves me confused, am I dreaming?

“Hello?” I try raising my voice but all I manage is a moderate pitch which right now is of no use. “Xiumin oppa?” I try again when I hear shuffling from the bushes in front of me. I move not even an inch. The bushes jiggle and out comes a 6 feet human. ‘Definitely not Xiumin’

Sehun looks cautious of every breath he takes and every move he makes. He is wearing his favourite fluffy zinc-blue polar bear pyjamas and a plain grey t-shirt. He looks undoubtedly cute and handsome as always but the dragon plushies in both of his hands manage to catch my attention.

“Hi” he says and I snap back to reality. In an instant I am on my feet ready to leave.

“Erie please listen.” He begged.

“Why should I?” I snapped back.

“E, please, I'm sorry”

“Are you really?” I said, crossing my arms.

“Yes I am”

“How do I know you aren't just going to break my heart just like you've done before?, Twice may I add?”

“Just please trust me one last time please just sit here for 20 minutes only please.” he begged.

At this point I am so tired that I have no ounce of energy or tears to shed besides how am I suppose to leave thing jungle without him? Sighing I sit back. A pregnant silence covers us. I can feel him tensed.

“So what did you bribed Xiumin hyung with ti get me here?” I say breaking the tension.

“Steamed buns.” He says while looking at the sky. And then he looks at me and speaks again. “Look Erie I am terribly sorry...”

“Lets not bring the topic up, ever. Lets just pretend that day never happened.” I butt in his sentence. I don't want his stupid apology or pity.

“No lets bring this topic up and pretend that day happened because I have never been this scared to lose something in my life but then again nothing in my life was as important as you are”

“What do you mean.” I was dumbfounded, shook, confused as to what he was saying and why he was saying.

“Let me complete okhy?” I gave him a confused nod.

“For a long time” He started, “I had a crush on you. I don't exactly know when I realised it or when it turned into love but it did that I am sure of. I know I have been a douche to you in the beginning but trust me I liked you even in those times. I know I low key promised you to be a better person and I was an asshole two days ago but I swear on Tao's wushu stick I do love you and I know I should have let you explain should have never trusted posts but jealousy made me do shit stuff. I hate myself for letting my insecurities rule my mind I won't ever let that happen again.”

I sit there looking at him with I-have-no-idea-how-many-emotions inside of me. I wanted to hug him, kiss him and stop him because I forgave him the moment he sat next to me after all who stays angry with the one they love, for so long? But I couldn't find the will to move as if my body forgot how to move or speak so I sat there looking at the most handsome man I know rambling things...

...In the middle of the forest...

...While wearing pyjamas. Well I am no one to complain I am in my Elmo PJs myself.

“Erie, I love you more than my Harry potter wand collection and more then Hermione Granger loves books. I love you more than Xiumun hyung loves coffee and Baekhyun loves eyeliners. I love you more than Elsa loves winters and Olaf loves warm hugs.

What's Micky without Minnie? What Piglet without Pooh? That is me without you.

When Peter pan can't fly and Simba never roars.  When Chanyeol's ears are small and happily ever after doesn’t exists that's when I'll stop loving you.

I know this is all lame but this is my confession. As dark as I am I will always find light to adore all your pieces with all my pieces. Will you let me call you mine?”

SEHUN'S POV

Not knowing when it happened Erie's lips were suddenly locked with mine’s, kissing me. The start of the soft touch sent a strong feeling of warmth spiralling through my system. My eyes were closed, but the closure didn’t let me see darkness, it instead created colours of fondness. My tense nerves soon began to relax, my guilt, my pain began to melt away and the surroundings began to disappear leaving only me and her. This, this felt true. This felt good. This felt right.

Reluctantly I pulled away. Her eyes leisurely began to open, eyelids relaxed as she slowly sucked in the cool air. I stared back, eyes calm. She rested her forehead upon mine as her hands circled my neck. Her breath was slow. In strength she quietly murmured “I love you too and most defiantly more then Xiumin loves coffee or Baek loves eyeliners.”. A laugh escape our mouths before our lips meet once more before finally letting go.

The leaves were falling and squirrels could be heard. Everything comes as magical as any fairy dust, as improvised as deep south jazz, and as soulful as love's kiss. In that moment I am present, feet still and heart open and eyes fixed on her. There and then I know I am seeing my forever.

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Okhey everyone here we end this story. Thankyou for bearing it with me and loving it all the way. I hope you guys like it. I am not sure when I will write an epilogue or if I ever will write an epilogue so no promises.

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