SEHUN’S POV

If this is what falling in love is then I want to cancel my registration.

Every time she looks at me every ounce of breath in my lungs float into the air like midnight smoke. She never leaves my mind, she's always there; mentally if not physically. It's just incomprehensible. It’s not that I don’t like it I do. This feeling is so strange; it stretches throughout my whole body. It’s overwhelming, yet makes me feel complete but shit I have no idea what to say to her or how to act in front of her every time she is there. But this isn’t just it, this problem is what I can get through, I will get used to the tingling feeling every time she calls my name or smiles.

I can handle the zoo that has managed to permanently live in the pit of my stomach but what I cannot handle is ‘LEE TAE FUCKING YONG’.

That wolf gets on my nerves every single time he blinks. Why is he talking to her? Why does he have same coffee preference? Why does he know how to cook? Why do they both like blue? And why is she always smiling like a stupid high school girl when he talks to her? They talk about everything and so casually like they are joined to hip since birth! I shouldn’t have aborted my murder plan.

Honestly it’s not like I haven’t tried to do the same. I tried talking to her but either she talks about Taeyong or worse she is with Taeyong, I have tried to like black coffee but it’s yuck, I tried cooking and ended up being banned from the kitchen, blue is nice but black is better, she most definitely doesn’t smiles like that with me and we are most definitely not joined by the hip.

“Where is appa?” I see Jisung enter the living room. He is still in his pajamas and has messy bed hair. I really like this kid he is sweet and mannered unlike his so called appa.

“He is outside in the back garden with Erie.” As soon as Akari mentions this they both enter smiling. One looking absolutely gorgous the other looking like a retarded monkey.

“Oh you are finally awake.” Tae says while taking his and Erie’s coffee mugs to the kitchen.

“Hello there, little one.” Erie says while ruffling his hair. She really likes the kid I can tell. She always helps him in stuff and even taught him how to make pancakes, she alwaya manages to make time for him.

It’s been a week and two days now, since her shift and beacuse Kyungsoo hyung is so in love, NCT decided to stay here for some days which exactly equaled to our remaining days off just with the difference that they will be leaving tomorrow morning while we leave tomorrow night..

I sigh and focus on Jisung and Erie who have shifted there morning hugs and cuddles to the sofa. How I wish I could cling to Erie like Jisung the Koala bear. After a minute or two I see Tae coming back to the living room and sitting next to Jisung but not joining the cuddle.

“You three look like a mini family.” If I could I would have deported Mark to Canada myself this little shit has a little too much words to say. After this awfully unrealistic, stupid, impossible and utterly senseless comment I see Erie blushing while looking at the roof like it’s the love of her life (I wish I was the roof), Taeyong glaring at Mark like he committed a sin which I know he just did and Jisung looks like he just found out that he hit the lotto.

“Then I will call you Eomma.” Did I mention I like the kid? Yes? Forget it.

“Yaaah you idiot she isn’t married to Tae hyung or even in a relationship with him.” Jeno says while laughing hysterically. How can Erie laugh at such a thing? How is everyone laughing over it? I don’t find it funny. I am certainly not jealous but really I don’t find it funny.

“But she is so sweet and takes care of me and loves me. Don’t you noona?” he looks at Erie and gives her his best aegyo which I know no one can resist.

“Yes I love you. You are such a cute little baby.” She says sounding a little unsure but nonetheless giving in to the stupid maknae.

“Then its settled imma call you eomma even if you don’t get in a relation with appa.” Erie and Taeyong choke on air while the little one is happy with his decision and clapping his hands out of joy.

“I TOLD YOU TO NOT FLIRT WITH MY DAUGHTER.” Chen hyung says to Taeyong. I low-key want him to burry Tae in the forest but then again I know he is pulling his leg. Feeling quiet stuffy in there I make my way for the garden.

ERIE’S POV

After a minute or two of silence, Chen suddenly doubled himself up and burst into a loud harsh cackle of laughter. Now everyone is laughing, thank God. I for a second thought he was going to grill Taeyong alive.

Every emotion is fleeting in me, every thought gives way to a new one. It isn't a reason to despair, but one to rejoice. If you were to make a necklace of beads you'd choose the prettiest for your string, and such is life also. Make your moments happy so that they come together to form something wonderful.

This is my wonderful. A family people crave for. Friends I could die for. A so called son I really love. Looking around I see everyone laughing and talking. Lay, Suho and Akari have a conversation going on about some book, Chen, Xiu and Luhan are talking about soccer, Kai and Tao are talking to Jeno and Mark while Chanbeak are in their own world along with Soo and Aana. These two couples are my favorite couple. Lucas is talking with Kris on beauty tips because it’s their style. And here I am cuddling with my newly found baby and next to him is one wonderful personality.

Taeyong makes me giddy I don’t know why I like spending time with him. He is mannered and gives a new feeling. He listens to me. It’s not like others don’t its just ughhh... I don’t know exactly what to say or how to explain what I have for him but it’s new. Crush? Maybe I don’t exactly know.

Sighing, I again look at the beautiful scene in front of me when I realize Sehun isn’t there. Aishh this wolf has been acting so weird I swear. He doesn’t talks to me doesn’t sits next to me and he for some reason does not likes Taeyong, another reason of him not being around. I miss him. It’s like without me and him together, my day isn’t complete.

‘Wow I sound like a love sick Yeol now. Am I sick? Nahh maybe i had alot of coffee.’

I excuse myself and start looking for the strongest area in the house with the scent of wood. And there he is surrounded by woods, sitting on a log.

'Why does he like the forest so much?'

He is wearing a loose black silk shirt with leather cuffs and black trousers. However, he gets better and better, the more I look. Sehun is the total opposite of Taeyong shares nothing in common with him except one thing, they both are captive. But unlike Taeyong he isn’t my crush, yet I would say his looks should be illegal. He has distinct facial features and a sharp as knife jawline, his pale skin made him look devilishly handso… What the fucking hell?

I slap myself in reality and taking a heavy breath I lead myself to the man.

“Heya” I say and he looks at me wide eye. “Am I not welcome? I am sorry I uh… I’ll leave.” Broken, I take my leave.

“No wait I am sorry.” He says while stopping me by holding my wrist. I smile a little and sit next to him on the log he scoots away much to my dismay. He being like this hurts me a lot like a lot more then I would imagine. I focus on the leaves sitting on the forest mud.

“What’s wrong Hun? Did I do something wrong? Why don’t you talk to me anymore?”

“No you did nothing wrong E, it’s just me. I don’t feel well lately.”

“I don’t buy your excuse.”

“Believe whatever you want.”

“See. You are being cold towards me lately you don’t talk to me, sit with me and most defiantly don’t ask me to go get bubble tea with you.”

“You are always busy to do any of that. You have your boyfriend and his son to take care of.” 

“W…what?” I managed to say.

“What what? You know what I mean.”

“He isn’t my boyfriend.”

“Yet you know who I am talking about. Tae is all you talk about all you think about you don’t even notice that you ignore the rest of us while talking to him. And it bloody hurts.”

Shoving my wrist away he stands and leaves. For reasons unknown, whenever Sehun hurts me unintentionally or intentionally the pain is much more then any other I have experienced even more thenthe pain i felt while shifting. Tears soon well up in my eyes for reasons that are still unknown to me.

XIUMIN’S POV

Following Erie was a good idea after all. At least I can catch her before she falls. Wordlessly I go and hug her and she being her, cried burring her head in my chest. She sobbed and tears flooded like the waters rushing down from a waterfall and the only time she'd stop was to fill her lungs with fresh air to continue crying. I let her be, after all I really cannot say much in this situation. Love is about realization which only comes to you by time not by someone’s words.

‘I am sick of being surrounded by idiots who have no idea what their love life is like or who they love. I dont blame Sehun he got his stupidity from his parents but really? My daughter as well?’

BAEKHYUN’S POV

As soon as I see Sehun storming to his room I untangle myself from Yeol and run towards my pup. I find him in my room under my blankets. A smile appears on my face. He hasn’t changed much. When he was new in the family he would always find his way in my bed under the blanket to hide from his problems.

I have been observing him for the past days. His failed cooking attempts, his smiling a little too much, him being a little too much of an attention seeker, him trying to drink black coffee and spitting it on the floor. I know why he is like this he may not tell me but I know, after all all thoughts have the potential to grow toxic, but insecurities are born hungry and he is a victim, I was too.

I go near the lump on my bed and gently move my hand to comb his hair, still under the blanket.

“You can share your thoughts and insecurities it’s not like I won’t understand.”

“I am just sleepy.”

“Okhey”

“Hyung am I pretty? Can someone like ‘like’ me? Should I change myself?”

“What do you think? Should we change our selves for someone to love us?”

“If I knew I wouldn’t have asked you.”

“Huniee I think a person should never change himself in order to be loved? What’s the point in being loved when it’s not the real you they love?”

“Then how do you make someone fall for you? How do you become important?”

“Be yourself”

“Being myself isn’t working I don’t even know what I am now?”

“I don't know how to explain it," I said. “I guess, I guess you're like the sun, yeah, you strive to spread your light, but you're too afraid to rise." He looks at my face finally revealing himself from under the blanket, "Sehun, do you know what the world would do if the sun never rose?" 

His face scrunched into a questioning expression. "Well, I suppose that it wouldn't be as bright." He murmured.

"Yes.” I said, "Without the light of the sun to brighten our days, the world would be depressing. Sehun, you are that sun. Her world needs to be set on fire by the real you. The one you are made to be not the fake one you are trying to be."

“What if I don't know how to rise?”

I jabbed a finger towards his heart.

“The strength to rise comes from inside of you. You are the one who has to decide how to break down the walls between you two. Its either you impress her with who you are or let the other wolf swipe her off her feet in front of your eyes even when you were the one near the winning line. ”