"Did we really just do that?" He pants as I nod,resting my head on his chest "why did I do that?"

"I don't know..." I look up at him "fun while it lasted." I hold in tears as I reach for my top but his hand stops me.

"I'm still your tutor," he sighs.

"I think I'll get a replacement," I say coldly "you should tell the woman you're meant to marry."

"I can leave her? I don't love her."

"You don't mean that." I pull on my top.

"Here," he scribbles down his number and places it into my hand,kissing me softly "I'll be at the park tonight at eight. Meet me. Please Freya."

"Whatever," I wipe my eyes and look at his features one more time. He was so perfect. He raises my chin gently and pecs my lips once more before dressing and departing. He leaves me to lie alone looking up at the ceiling. Why would k sleek with an engaged man? Let him take my virginity. How could I be so stupid? I breathe in his scent from the pillow once more before walking to the wardrobe. I find a pair of dark jeans and a blue off-the-shoulder floral top. I grab my studded boots and yank a comb through my hair. I glare at my reflection. In reality,if you want someone to touch you and you can't change the way you look,the best thing to do is to hide it. But I couldn't hide this,not at all. I grab my shoulder bag,shoving my phone in and heading out the house. The warm summer weather calms me as I make my way to the park through every bone in my body is yelling at me to turn back and head home.

Once I reach the park I see him sitting there,like he's panicking too. I sit beside him but say nothing,I only look ahed.

"Why did you tell me me here?" I ask "shouldn't you be getting back to your fiancé?"

"I'm sorry I just-"

"I don't get what happened. You probably think I'm easy,maybe I am! Or maybe I'm just lonely! Even though I let you... you took that from me didn't you? I'll never forgive you for that!"

He sits there,looking at me speechless. "You're not the only one that's lonely..." he whispers as he takes my hand in his. I squeeze it tight and look up at him. "Tell me what you want me to do Freya."

"I want you to stay here with me. Please,don't tell me goodbye."

"Okay," he kisses me gently "I won't. Come home with me,"

Like a moth to a flame,I sink into it. I take his hand in mine as he walks me away from the park. Im life,a lot of people taught me a lot of things,usually by now he'd just be a name in a long list of names. But he wasn't just a name. I didn't want him to be that.

His house was beautiful,the front was full of colourful flowers. The house was white and the door was a bright blue.
"She won't be here,it's okay." He reassures me as he retrieves the key from his pocket. I've realised that I'm constantly in need of people telling me that everything's okay,even if everything's not.

Once I'm inside,I'm met by a corridor and a staircase. Unsure of where to move,I turn to Thomas for directions.

"She's at work," he informs me "won't be back till late."

I nod slowly and take his hand in mine. My legs begin to tremble terribly and I regret the decision to wear high heels. He leads me to the living room and helps me to sit down. I hated feeling this vulnerable.

"I barely know you," he suddenly blurts out after about a minute or two of silence "how about you tell me something?"

"There's not much to know about me," I say-desperately not wanting to sound like one of those uptight wannabe mysterious bitches "I've got a few friends,I'm failing maths and I've got a pretty cool tutor."
He chuckles and looks down as I yawn escapes my lips. I had been up late last night trying to cram for a Biology exam I had next week.

"You tired Freya?"

I shrug "up late studying."

He lifts me up gently,cradling me against him as he walks me upstairs into his room. He lays me down on the bed and strokes my hair. I sit myself up and look into his eyes,pressing my lips to his.

"We don't have to do anything," he whispers "just rest."

"I want to..." I clutch him by the sleeves of his shirt. I say nothing. I just reach my hand out to palm his growing erection,he lets out a groan and presses his lips to mine. His tongue swiped across my bottom lip and I parted them, allowing him to deepen the already intoxicating kiss. His hands slid from my waist, up along my back, his warm hands splayed across my skin. I grasped for the hem of his shirt, awkwardly trying to tug it up over his head. He pulled back and took it off his body,my hands automatically found their way to his bare chest. I grabbed the waistband of his jeans, slowly pulling them down. He slowly pulled me back and lay me down,laying over me as he strokes my cheek gently.

"You're so beautiful," he whispers,kissing me passionately. His hands moved to my top and took it off,then my jeans. He stopped to look for permission which I immediately granted him. I felt his fingers slide down my stomach as he grasped the thin material, removing it from my body, before standing up and shedding the last remains of what covered his body, leaving nothing between us. I spread my legs, watching him fervently as he positioned himself carefully;he gave me one last delicate kiss before pushing into me,giving my body time to adjust. He picked up his pace, hitting a spot deep inside that had made a loud noise escape from my throat.

"Thomas!?" We hear a voice call from downstairs. My eyes widen as he pulls out of me quickly,yanking his clothes back on and fixing his hair. I feel the tears in my eyes as I wrap the sheets around my naked body.

"Just stay here," he kisses me before leaving and closing the door behind him. I just sit there in silence as I hear slight conversations. I wipe my tears and pull on my clothes. I fix the sheets and open the window,it wasn't too far down. I sit on the ledge and I'm about to climb down once I hear a noise behind me.

"She's gone. She just forgot some of her presentation notes." Thomas says. I freeze and turn back to him as the tears stream down my face.

"This isn't right," I whimper as he helps me back,wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Shh..." he kisses my cheek softly "I'll take you home. You've got school tomorrow."

I nod "thank you," I take his hand in mine as he helps me downstairs then to his car. He buckles me up and then himself,starting to drive. He pulls up at the house and takes his hands in mine.

"I'll see you soon Freya," he kisses me softly "you've got my number if you need me."

"See you soon," I kiss him again and get out the car,walking inside. My head was a mess,I couldn't think... I couldn't think about anything except for the fact that I missed him already.