◢✥◣POV: Leo◢✥◣

It's been a week since that night on the rooftop. Scorpio and I haven't really talked. I'm not quite comfortable around him just yet. I'm not even sure why I was so brave that one day. Maybe I was just trying to cope with the wave of emotions?

Was I just using him?

I really don't think I did. I don't think I really like him but at the same time... I want to be more than friends? This makes no sense, I know.

Why is this so much more complex than when I had feelings for Cancer? With him, it was so straightforward and simple. I liked him. I knew that for a fact.

With Scorpio, I want to kill him for making me feel this way. But I don't want to hurt him or anyone else to hurt him as well.

So I hate him... but I don't?

I was sitting on the couch in the living room. I was planning on telling Aquarius what had happened since he was one of my close friends. I just needed to build up the right mindset to do so.

"Hey Aquarius?" I could hear my voice tremble. "Hmm?" Aquarius looked up at me. "I need some advice from a reasonably intelligent person. Could we go to your room?" I asked. Aquarius nodded and stood up. I got up as well and followed after him.

He let me inside and I collapsed in his beanbag. "So, what's on your mind?" He stood in the corner of the room. "Are you good with feelings?" I looked up at him hopefully. "Maybe? It depends, I think. What kind of feelings are we talking about here?" He had a thoughtful gaze on his face.

I let it all spill, "Well, you know how I had a crush on Cancer right? And he got a girlfriend, Ophi? That was devastating news to me and I went up to the roof to watch the sunset and try to organize my thoughts. Well, I met Scorpio there." 

Aquarius sighed and sat down dramatically, "This is going to get interesting," he said, "I should sit down for this." I chuckled a little as I continued, "Yeah, you might want to sit for this one. Basically, I started crying and I don't know why. So he was super awkward and asked me if I wanted to go down into his room because he knows that I wouldn't want to be seen like that. Also, people know not to go into his room. So I agreed. While we were sneaking around we saw people and blah blah blah, details and blah. The moral of this story is that you shouldn't sleep with people unless you're sure of your feelings about them." 

Aquarius simply sat I front of me with a shocked expression on his face. After several moments he finally said, "You- Scorpio- but... why? Just... why?" Aquarius had finally processed what I had skipped over and implied. "Well... have you talked to him since?", he raised his eyebrow as he questioned me. I scratched the back of my head and felt my face heat up a little, "Er...no?" Aquarius asked me another question, "How long ago was this?"

"A week..."

"A week?! How have you not addressed this with him for that long?!"

"I dunno... I just didn't come out of my room when I knew he was out of his?"

"LEO OCH! THAT IS NOT HOW YOU HANDLE THIS!"

"Whoops."

Aquarius was practically screaming at me as he banged his head on the wall. "Think about the state you left Scorpio in!!! Imagine what could be going through his head right now! Boy, you are getting up right now and explaining everything to him!" I felt my face heat up even more, "But I don't know what to say to him... I don't know how I feel about all this, about him!" I put my face in my hands and shook my head. 

Aquarius practically teleported to right in front of me. He grabbed my hands and forced them away from my face. When he spoke I could almost hear the devil echoing in his voice. He hissed, "Leo Dakota Och, you will get up and go tell Scorpio Asher Raziel what you think and stop tormenting the poor Angel." Aquarius pulled me up. "But I don't want to!", I groaned in annoyance, "I bet he doesn't even care!" 

Aquarius simply ignored me.

And pushed me out of that damned door.

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I wandered down the halls, through doors, and empty rooms all the while looking for Scorpio. I was making my way very very slowly to his room. With each step, I grew more and more worried about what I would say to him. Was I going to flat out tell him? Or maybe beat around the bush a little bit then tell him. Oo or I could just simply what I want to say and he can forgive it out himself, he's smart enough. He would figure it out eventually. I mean, at least I know what I want to say, just not how to say it. 

That's an improvement.

Right?

But maybe not...

His door was in sight now. I was getting closer and closer. I was now 5 feet away. Now 4... Now 3... Now 2... 

my hand was on the door handle.

Why was everything going in slow motion?

I slowly opened the door and peeked my head in. 

"Scorpio?" I asked into the dark room. There was no answer. 

I walked into the room a bit more and turned on the light. 

It was empty.

Of course, it was.

I stood there staring at nothing, just thinking about where he could be. "Where are you?" I whispered to myself. I shook my head, on my way here I took a long way. I searched every room in the house for him. I whispered again, "Where could you be? I don't understand where you could be."

I heard the door creak and the steps of someone coming in. "What in the name of all things holy do you think you're doing in my room?!" Scorpio's voice seemed to cut me like a knife. "I- I was, uh... I was looking for you?" I said as I turned around slowly.

Scorpio scowled up at me. He had his arms crossed and was tapping his foot impatiently. After what felt like forever, he finally said, "Strange, I was just looking for you." I was confused. "Why were you looking for me?", I said a little nervously. "Mmm, no. You first. You are the one who went into my room, so it must be important." I narrowed my eyes, "Ugh, fine." 

I took a deep breath and then started. "So... you know what happened a week ago... Well, I've decided that I should probably acknowledge it.." Scorpio almost seemed to perk up. He interrupted, "Oh! I was going to talk to you about that!" I was surprised, "Really? Oh, well that's good I guess. So I've made up my mind. On what I want to do about it. What do you want? I don't want to sound silly by you saying the opposite and such." 

Scorpio looked down at his feet. I could tell he was carefully planning what he was going to say next. I bit the inside of my lip in anticipation. I could taste blood overwhelming my mouth. Finally, Scorpio looked up. When he talked his voice wavered like he was unsure. He said, "Give me your hand." I looked at him like he was crazy. He rolled his eyes and sighed, "Just do it." I shrugged and placed my hand on his. He continued, "Okay, so you say your idea and then I'll write my response on your palm. Now, speak."

I was flabbergasted that I was about to do this. 

"Well, I- uh... Damn this is harder than I'm making it look." 

"Sure, I defiantly believe you. Now, start talking!" 

"Holy Hell! Calm down! Ow! You're squeezing my hand too hard!"

"Sorry... I guess..."

"Thank you. So I'll get to the point, I..." I had to take a deep breath. Only the truth, I thought to myself.

"I have no clue how I feel about you..."

"Well it wouldn't be the first time someone has done this to me."

"Really? How so?"

Scorpio let go of my hand and let it fall to my side. I flicked my tail nervously. Did I say the wrong thing? I don't think I was too straightforward...

Scorpio walked out of his room. Then he stopped in the doorway. "It's good to have a past where you can just look on and remember that hope is a feeble thing. Don't you agree?" I didn't answer. He just walked out the door without looking back. 

"Shit, I knew this was a bad idea." I mumbled as I ran off to go find him. 

Apparently I did lie.

I knew exactly how I felt.

Hahaha...

This was fun...

Next chapter will only get worse...

But you need to go down hill so you can go up again, right?

Bye!