Selozar

I watched as the new person speed off in his car. Interesting.

He seemed defiant, blooming with personality. He will never understand. Something about him was off. He seemed reluctant, fearful even. With all respect, I understand, he seems to be in a shaky relationship with Alone.

I told him about Alone, I thought he should know. Have a clue, at least. It was only right, Alone is a bad person, but I have to stick by him or I'll be eaten alive.

I take out the worn notebook and begin to doodle in it. I'm not the best drawer, but it's some pass time whilst Alone is sleeping. I casually draw some stick figures, I've barely drawn so of course I'm not good.

What am I saying? I'm bad at everything anyway.

After a while, I slowly begin to sleep. I jolt myself awake and hide the notebook under a broken floorboard, one that I use to hide everything. Especially things I'm never supposed to have. I'm his slave, and obey his every order, it's second nature.

I begin to sweat. My existence is now known by another being, a being that I spread classified information too, information that, if spread, can change my life forever. If I fall out of line around that human, he has the power to destroy my every inch.

I have sinned, a horrible sin.

I'm ashamed. I shouldn't have done that, but I clinged to the nearest person I see, so new to others lives. I'm too trusting, I can't do that, never again.

My life is at risk, and Alone will find out, one way or another... it's destiny.

I have to be on my best behavior, so he'll think it's some kind of mistake! Yeah! He'll spare me, and my punishment won't be so harsh!

I look at the loose floorboard. I've been gathering supplies to leave when I can, I probably should save those just in case.

I'm horrible.

I sigh, and fall back asleep in the bed, anxiety crawling on my back.

...

I awaken in a sweet field, flowers blooming, birds singing, and a fresh sent was in the air.

I walk around the flower field, there's a large but advanced and beautiful city close by. I look to my side, a place to rest. I smile lightly, and begin to walk towards it.

I sit down, and sigh. Beautiful.

Suddenly, the flowers began to die, and be reborn as a disgusting red flower, the sky turned black and the once beautiful city was in ruins, and set ablaze.

Chants of children rang in my head, I have no idea what they were saying, they were all screaming and chanting at once, their laughter echoed hauntingly.

The words mixed together, and twisted wickedly, but soon they all lined up, into a terrific chant.

"Wo ist eine lange Nadel?"

"Wo ist eine kurze Nadel?"

"Auf Wiedersehen, geh schlafen zügig"

It sounded like German, but broken, a jumble of words that grammatical makes no since.

"Das Fenster genau geschlossen?"

"Der Schlüssel genau befestigt?"

"Noi" Zuerst gebe ich Zwei"

The children's voices got louder, almost yelling the lyrics.

""Noi" Diese Zwei sind statt deinen Tränen"

"Nein! Nein! Ich Fallen!"

"Nein! Nein! Nicht springen!"

The voices became desperate and demanding, I have no idea what they're saying but it's full of emotion!

"Mit den letzten zwei Versprechen"

"Nein! Nein! Ich Fallen!"

"Nein! Nein! Nicht springen!"

"Nein! Nein! Ich Fallen!"

"Nein! Nein! Nicht springen!"

"Neiiiin!"

The voices hushed. It was silent for a moment, before a horrid creature appeared in front of me, I was no longer in the flower field and inside the city, on top of one of the only standing buildings.

I took a closer look at the creature, it had the resemblance of Alone, but with major deformities, and a crooked, terrifying smile. He looked as if he was at peek form, a final form to be more exact. 

"I know what you did, SELOZAR."

...

Selozar

I awoke in a pool of sweat. That dream was extremely weird... all though, I don't think my mind could have come up with such a complex world like that, so it had to have been from somewhere. Who knows, maybe I'll find out in the future.

I get out of my bed and walked out my room, to see Alone sitting with some coffee and some donuts. I walk into the kitchen and make some tea and biscuits for myself, and sat at the table, across from Alone.

We both ate there for a few minutes before Alone began to talk, "So, what do you think of Albert?"

I shrug, so his name is Albert. Interesting. "He's alright I guess, seems a bit awkward." I replied, taking a sip of my tea. "Are you sure? You seemed interested in him." Alone commented, I nodded.

"It's the first person I've seen in a long time." I replied, "Of course I would take interest in that."

"Sure." Alone replied, definitely suspicious, "Say, you didn't tell him anything, did you?"

I froze. "No sir, not at all."

"Liar." Alone spat, giving me a death glare. "You try to lie to me? And then expect me to continue this kindness?"

I nodded my head no, slumping down in my chair, clearly terrified. "You worthless hybrid, you are pathetically weak. If you died, nobody would care, rather, they'd celebrate in your funeral, as if you deserved one in the first place!" Alone yelled, spitting insult after insult, before grabbing a knife and throwing it at me, barely missing my head, only cutting a few hairs.

"Damnit." Alone slid back down into his seat, "Go to your room, I'll call you when I need you. You disobey, I beat you. Understand?!"

I nodded furiously and got up and ran to my room. I slammed the door shut behind me, breathing heavily. How did he..?

I slid down the door, tears falling down my face. I felt my thoughts taunt me, my past has been forgotten and I've endangered my species, and on top of that Alone's true feelings about me has spilled through the cracks of his stone cold skin. And it pained me.

I took deep, shaky, breaths and silently cried.

Why... why did I do that?! All my chances of finding out who I truly was had been lost.

I'm worthless.

And I just wonder why I even bothered to do that... unless something larger has been going on... who knows.

All I know

Is that I fucked up. I fucked up a lot and now I must suffer for eternity.

HA. DID YOU ALL SERIOUSLY THINK YOU COULD ESCAPE THE WRATH OF THE MADOKA MAGICA REFERENCES?! It's an addicting song, and thought it fit well enough.

So yeah, uh, I need help. I hope you been enjoying this story for what it's worth. And yes, my persona will be in here eventually. Just you wait ;)

And for those who don't give a shit about my persona; Understandable, it's usually annoying to see self inserts. But trust me, I just copied and pasted my personality onto her, she'll literally be the worst character lmao