Mew's POV

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We got engaged, me and Gulf are now officially betrothed, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that we will get to this point, since this engagement, no, since the fight we had with Boat, few things changed between us.

We suddenly became conscious of everything, but at the same time we naturally hold hands, hug or even lay on each other even though there is no one around, like now we are both on our phones while I'm laying on his lap, I'm feeling so comfortable that I'd rather not move at all, this closeness feels so good and although I used to like spending a whole day by myself, currently, I can't imagine a day without seeing Gulf at least once.

I know that you think I'm dense and that I should just realize that I'm really in love with my student, but I think I'm just confused since we've done so many things that couples usually do that's why we are this close and all, I mean let's look back to everything that happened for the past 9 months now, we told each other everything about our lives, we trained, holding hands, hugging, even kissing, we went out to take pictures, we even mastered some answers for typical questions talking about how much we love each other and destined partners... all this are what couples do right? So I'm sure I'm just feeling too relaxed with him because there are no walls between us, nothing romantic.

I forgot to mention that there is one more thing that changed, or I'd rather say, that we agreed to just do it from now is, it's sleeping together, every time that someone come over, Gulf would come to my room and it felt a little weird so we decided to just keep sleeping together instead of having Gulf jumping from room to room each time.

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"oh a new laptop?" I asked Gulf who just came back

"yes, I finally got enough money after repaying you and got one for myself, thank you for letting me use yours all those months"

"no problem, well you worked hard for it, you deserve a good dinner as a celebration"

"come on it's just a pc, no need to bother yourself cooking, just rice and tomato are fine by me"

"no way! Besides I really worked hard for it, it's fine to feel proud, let me spoil you with a super delicious meal for today" I winked getting into the kitchen

"I will go wash up and come back real quick"

"take your time" when we sat eating

"wow so delicious P' Mew, thank you so much"

"I'm glad to hear that, btw, now you should work less, exams are approaching and you need more time to study and focus on university projects"

"yeah I already resigned from Saturday and Sunday's jobs, from now on I will only work one part-time along with tutoring"

"shouldn't you just stuck to tutoring only?"

"I can't, I still have to buy clothes for myself and save some for when I will move out next year" once I heard him said that I stopped looking to him, that's right, one more year and he has to leave... I don't like this thought, I hate it

"you don't have to you know, I told you to keep being friends even after we break up" I noticed a pained tiny smile on his face

"that was before getting engaged but now, when we will call it of, it will be so strange if I keep living with you P' Mew" he's right, it will get so complicated with our families if he stays but I still don't want him to leave

"until that time comes, enjoy your time here"

"I'm already enjoying every day, like this tasty meal you made for me" we exchanged some more random talk and then sat watching some horror movies, Gulf was leaning his head on my shoulder clenching his fists on the light blanked we had shivering at every jump-scares, his reaction just made me giggle, I didn't know he was this faint hearted.

"you should have told me you're no good with scary movies" I told him as we went to sleep

"it's true I'm not good with them but I still like watching those movies"

"I just hope you won't get any nightmares"

"I'm not a child!" I giggled as he pouted turning off the light. That's how peaceful our days were and since the brown eyed boy dropped some of his job we got to spend more and more time together, I was feeling so happy and calm... but of course something has to happen since it's a story right?

I was eating lunch in the cafeteria with Kiet and other two professors when I noticed Gulf sitting not too far in the student section, I was surprised since he always ate lunch alone outside, there was a boy next to him being faced with two girls, they were talking and giggling once in a while, they seemed they were planning something exchanging phone numbers, I'm glad he is getting along with some other student, it kind of made me sad seeing alone most of the time.

Later that day, while shopping for dinner I got a message from him saying that he is eating out with some of his friends, I guess they planned for this earlier, so I told him to be careful on his way back and went to pay for what I bought, when he got back, he told me about how his friend Panit dragged him into this since he was courting one of the girls and he expressed how annoying he was and I didn't think much of it.

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I'm feeling so irritated right now, I can't focus on anything, not even my work and the important exams that I need to finish marking, I kept glancing to my phone seeing if there is any messages, it's already past 11 pm, this really has to stop!

It started after that day of him being dragged by his friend Panit, this friend kept taking Gulf with him to hold the other girl busy while he can flirt with the girl he loves, they have been doing it for almost three months now, at first they mostly met to study for the final exams and after they started going out to have fun as friends, although I started to hate that the time we spend together decreased because of that but I couldn't stop him from hanging out with his friends.

However, I began to notice them being close together at the university too, Panit will be walking ahead with his girl while Gulf was behind with the other girl and they seemed to get along well, the first time I saw that I felt so angry, I've never felt like that before, I saw him speaking and laughing with so many people before at work and even when hanging out together but for some reason I hate the fact that he was smiling to that girl and especially that she was casually patting on his shoulder and ruffling his hair.

Of course I discussed that with my boyfriend and he told me he is letting her have her away to distract her to let Panit and his current girlfriend have some private time since she was the type to be stuck to her best friend and I couldn't argue with that excuse yet even after his friend successfully confessed and started dating the girl he wanted they still hang out and even started staying out until very late just like today.

Not long after, I heard the door opening and closing, slowly a figure appeared, I stood up furiously looking straight to his eyes

"Gulf you're very late!" he was taken aback for a moment but then looked apologetic

"I'm sorry P' Mew, you must have been worried"

"I called you and send you several messages but you never replied" I half screamed holding my phone tightly

"my battery is dead and I forgot my charger here"

"why are you this late? You went out with the girls and your friend again right?" I walked closer waiting for his answer but he averted his eyes, I stared at him from down to up and that's when I noticed that he was hiding his left hand behind him

"what are you hiding?" I asked him but he stepped back shaking his head quickly

"nothing P' Mew, anyway, I'm so tired right now, I'll take a shower and go to bed" he tried to slip away still hiding his left hand but I pulled him closer holding his right wrist

"show me" I simply said but my serious voice that was fill with fury must have scared him as he slowly showed me his hand

"omg! What happened?!" I was shocked, his left hand was in bandages up to half his bicep, it was professionally done so he must has seen a doctor, he slowly touched his arm

"after eating dinner with Panit and the girls, we went to the karaoke and stayed there for a couple of hours, we took a cap for the girls and then me and Panit decided to take the train back, on our way we got hold off by two old drunkards men and they tried to flirt with us, of course me and Panit ignored them and walked to the side but they got so angry and hit us with glass bottles, one broke on my arm leaving cuts with some shards on it while my friend got hit on hit tight and some shards even scratched his face but nothing serious, some people who saw us helped us and we went to the hospital to clean the cuts and take the shards out" he explained with a little grin

"you should have called me from any phone!"

"I'm sorry, I never expected that smth like that would happen and I was shocked a little and could only of coming back nothing else" he looked down with fear in his eyes, I held him closer patting on his back to calm him then I took his face with my hand and lifted it as he stared to me

"I'm so glad you're alright but please be careful next time, streets are dangerous by night and anything can happen especially on Saturday nights, next time if you are out that late just take a cap and don't try even going to public transports they are even more dangerous" he nodded

"I will, I promise" I hugged him feeling relieved that he wasn't seriously hurt, my heart almost stopped earlier seeing his hand with bandages like that. It took two weeks for his cuts to be fully healed.

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"I've had enough!" I screamed once Gulf got back, my voice froze him while he stood not far from the front door, it was Sunday past 10 pm and of course he was out meeting the girl

"what's wrong P' Mew?" he asked confused

"until when you keep meeting this girl?!"

"I don't know, I've never thought of that"

"don't you know how risky it is to be with some girl until this late? You may get seem by anyone and they will think you're cheating!"

"but we weren't alone"

"whoever will see the four of you will think that you are having a double date or something" he rubbed the back of head trying to form his next sentence

"we can just tell the truth that I was helping a friend besides I can't exactly refuse to help now, Panit believes that I'm not dating anyone so it's normal to hang out like that"

"I don't care what others think I only care about you! I even saw you with her many times at university as you let her flirt and touch you" just remembering that is making me more raged as I stood across from him

"I'm going with the flow to distract her, I already told you that, besides no one could see us at university like that"

"did you forget P' Kiet? I'm sure he also noticed you and I'm sure that he held back from telling me not wanting to cause a ruckus, just stop going out to see her and tell your friend that you are dating someone from somewhere else" he averted his eyes looking troubled

"I can't" he weakly said looking down

"why? Is it because you actually fell for her and trying to court her?" the moment that realization popped in my head my heart sank, that must be it, he must have been attracted to her too, there is no way Gulf will go with the flow for 4 months now, he loves her and as soon as we break up he will officially start dating her.

Time stopped as all kind of thoughts and imagination swirled inside my head, him falling for the cute girl, meeting her, going on a dates, holding her, kissing her... and mostly, leaving me, moving out, and starting to leave with her, no... no, no, no, no, no, I don't want that, no, I can't let him leave, I can't let him be with that girl, I can't let him love anyone but me... wait, what did I just say?

I won't allow Gulf to love anyone but me

"is that a bad thing?" he asked making time move again, I was shocked looking to him, he stared back with suffering yet little angry eyes

"what?"

"is it a bad thing for me to fall for her? I mean we will keep this fake relationship for less than year now, I should start building up my future, a good job and a cute girl"

"it's not a bad thing but I won't allow that" I lowered my voice

"why? Is it because you want to keep the deal clean from any suspicion? Don't worry about that I will be extra careful"

"it's not about the deal, I just don't like her"

"I don't care if you like her or not, it's me who should like her, you should understand, I need to, I must try to fall for her, I have to do it!" he said with cracked voice like he was on the verge of tears, I don't know why he is saying that but I'm glad to know that he still didn't and I can't let him actually fall for this stupid girl who suddenly appeared causing us this troubles but I also should be grateful to her , thanks to her, I...

"it's you who need to understand Gulf" he looked up as our eyes locked, I stepped closer to him until we were a few inches away, he blinked with confusion and concern as I breathed out

"I-"

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I know, I know, I stopped at a very bad part and I'm so, so , so sorry, but believe me it will be worth it

Tomorrow's chapter is the awaited one and I want to prepare for it so well to be up to you liking

Please don't be so angry ^^" See you tomorrow!!!