Pairing: Soramafu

It's been two years... It continued to haunt me. I haven't had any mental illness as severe as this. It came to the point where I feel like I can't escape. His face, his voice, his smile. It's trapped in this mind and I can't get it out.

"Soraru-san..." I hear him again. God please just go away..

"Soraru-san please.." Please go away I don't want to hear you.... I can't...
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"SORARU-KUN!!" Lon screamed at me. I snapped back to reality.

"Y-yeah?" I reply lazily with a shocked face.

"We just went to the therapist weeks ago are you sure you're taking your meds correctly?"

"Of course I am..." Stop lying Soraru..

Lon sighed. "You know sometimes I can't trust, but I can't stay with you either or not people will get the wrong idea.."

"Then just tell them you're not dead..."

"My twitter already explain my activity..."

Soraru sighed. "What about tommorow?"

"Hm? Oh yeah.. Luz said he'll take you there if you want to.."

"........"

She sighs and pats his back. "There, there..."

Soraru sobs and hug his knees. "F-funny story.. a few years ago he asked me.."

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"Will we die together Soraru-san?" He said while looking at his coffee at the sofa.

"I'd hope so... But since I'm the oldest I'd die first.."

"Hey don't say that I still need you here Soraru-san!" He pouted, making the navy haired chuckles.

"Ok, ok.. I'll be with you as long you need me okay?" He touches the albino's hair. Smiling.

"I-I need you forever Soraru-san..! I love you!" He hesitantly kisses Soraru. "Stay as my husband till the end or you'll regret it!" He said with a red face.

"Sure, Waifuwaifu..." He grins.

He frozed his face blushing red. "W-wait- where did you get that nickname from? That's no fair!"

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He laughs in tears remembering. "He was so cute when he said that, I just really his smile so much..." His laughing stopped all of a sudden. "I really thought I'd die first... But look at me now..." He cried.

Lon stared at him. Patting his back. "You know sometimes, god chooses to ignore things we want the most.." She pulled him into a hug. "He wants you to survive Soraru-kun... Just like how he did.."

Soraru looks at her. "......."

She slowly took a handkerchief and wipe his tears. "Survive.. so that you could see him again.." She said smiling.

"........." He didn't respond to her. He's just staring. God, that warm smile is so familiar..

"Let's get your meds now okay? Gotta get you feeling okay for tomorrow.."She smiles.

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The rain pours down, not really helping the situation. Luz escorted me to his grave.

"Hi mafu... Happy birthday, I brought your husband here because we can't really give you fancy gifts that you wanted before.." Luz patted my back asking me to say something.

"U-um... Hi, Mafu-kun..." This is bad I can't say him like how I use to.

"I'm glad I came here to say happy birthday to you... It's..." I gulped. I don't know what to say I just.. "I-I'm sorry..." The words slipped out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry for not coming to visit you everyday... I.. need to go to the therapist.. but it's nice to come back once in a while to see you.." I smiled, with a tear in my eye.

"Don't cry Soraru-san.." He said, with a soft voice.

"M-mafu?"

"I'm here now so don't cry..." His cold hands touched my cheeks. I missed his warmth..

"I-I'm so sorry dear I can't save you-"

"It's not your fault Soraru-san.. It's not mine either okay? Fate is just being cruel to us.." He kissed my forehead.

"I love you so much, Mafu-kun..." I reach to his hand, feeling nothing but my tears.

"Me too Soraru-san.. Please survive for me.." He smiled warmly. My tears falls down like a river.

"I can't find the courage to move on, I still love you.. and only you..." He's gone, that's that. I can't reach to him anymore.

"Let's go Soraru-san..." Luz said touching my shoulder. Smiling.

I slowly nodded. Still looking horrible from crying. "D-do you have a handkerchief?"

"Ah yeah, here.." Luz said giving a handkerchief from his pocket. They walked to the car. The rain still hadn't cleared but still one thing is in his mind. I...will try to survive.. for you Mafu-kun..

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Sorry for a crappy ending ;;

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