"And I'd choose you;
in a hundred lifetimes,
in a hundred worlds,
in any version of reality,
I'd find you and I'd choose you."
THE CHAOS OF STARS

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"Joe" I moaned loudly as his tongue gave me all sorts of pleasure and he purposely grazed his teeth over the spot that only he could ignite a thousand sparks on. My fingers gripped his long hair tightly while he held my thighs forcefully to reposition them on his shoulders due to me moving. I hoped the shower running drowned out my moans because Joe seemed not to care at all.

I wasn't going to lie that I was ecstatic to be with him after not seeing him for three weeks after he had been successful at Hell in a Cell.

With Survivor Series on Sunday both brands were in the same city and needless to say when I saw that, I was smiling from ear to ear. Even more so when Joe pitched up outside my locker room after I had flown in later even after seeing my fellow Smackdown members on Raw last night.

I bit my lip as I felt him set my legs down before standing up and flipping his hair allowing the water to run over him as he tilted his head before he focused on me again. He smirked before lifting my thighs and pushing me up against the wall. I bit into his shoulder as he pushed into me and he groaned deeply into my ear.

"Fuck I missed you, Nicole" He breathe before kissing me, as soon as he did slowly eased in and out before picking up the pace. My legs wrapped tightly around him while my fingers pressed into his back. Nothing could compare to the way Joe showed me he loved me, missed me, he was an animal seeking what he was denied. All the times I had seen his pouting face when we had time to talk just broke my heart as I knew how he felt.

"Joe!" I moaned out as he broke the kiss and nibbled along my jawline as his fingers traced over my nipples. "I missed every inch of you, Nicole"

I smiled and kissed him again, harder with more need as we had been in here quite a while and I was most likely needed soon.

"Where's the Samoan?" I heard Renee as I approached the girls in make-up and took a seat seeing one of the artists give me a playful glare considering my match was almost up.

"He is taking a nap on the couch in my locker room" I slightly smiled. " He had a long flight and hasn't had time to really rest"

"Yeah long flight or long welcoming" Becky scoffed and I shook my head at the woman I had tagged with the previous week.

"Well I tried to be subtle but whatever." I smiled tilted my head back so they could finish up.

"Nothing like the smile a man puts on a woman's face." Carmella smiled as of course me getting to see Joe meant her seeing her giant as well. While I was all ready to brave the storm of torture, with the Survivor Series match it was safe to say that our current feud had taken a step back. Yes we would be going head to head tonight but luckily all we had was matches and no verbal encounters.

We agreed that what was said out there was taken in stride and we were girls backstage. After nearly three months sharing with them, I finally felt at home maybe it was because the last three weeks away from Joe wasn't with no communication so I didn't mind having a good time knowing he was doing the same with Colby and Truth. A couple of drinks shared to ease the tension wasn't just for guys...

"Ya'll and your long haired beasts" Trin giggled when she had one of her own, okay Xavier didn't exactly have long hair.

"Okay we need to get going, see you guys later" I waved as we made our way to the gorilla.

I watched as Carmella got ready to run into me as I was laid out in the corner but I quickly threw my body to the middle of the ring to prevent any further collision. I admit I had underestimated Carmella when we first started out fighting, her screams were enough to send your head into a tizz but I enjoyed working with her. I saw a section of the crowd seem slightly distracted as we were both laid out and my eyes followed to see Charlotte making her way down.

I guess I shouldn't have been surprised, our Smackdown team had invaded their territory just last night and while they stood victorious if they thought they could come and make us look like fools on our own show they had another thing coming.

I watched as Charlotte sat by with us continuing the match, I eyed the rest of the crowd and she was alone or appeared to be. I quickly followed Carmella out of the ring and grabbed her and threw her against the barricade and laid my eyes on Charlotte.

I liked to compare my feud with Charlotte before my neck injury to Joe's feud with AJ Styles. He pushed Joe to his limits and in the end they delivered explosive matches. That's how I had felt with Charlotte, I had never been more physical than in my matches with her and felt like I gave my all. And while I couldn't do all the viscous moves I had back then, now, I held a great respect for her. And of course she was the captain of the Raw team while I was Smackdown's.

"Come on, Nikki!" She mocked and I glanced away before laying a right hook on her for old times sake. I pulled her over the barricade and tossed her into the ring.

"That's our captain right there!"

I flipped her down and laid shots to her face but before I could do more damage I saw a flash of purple before I was pushed onto my back. Of course out of all of them Sasha was first to appear. I saw red everywhere and Carmella and I were clearly outnumbered but of course not for long.

Bodies were flying everywhere and I honestly wasn't sure where exactly my members were but I knew we weren't going down without a fight. I watched as Becky laid against the barricade while Nia prepared to run through her and I immediately left the ring, not fast enough however as Nia fell through the barricade but Becky luckily escaped. Trin launched herself onto the remaining members making me smile brightly before Becky and I slid into the ring to join our team.

I wasn't surprised at the rowdiness backstage as soon as we made our way to the back with us being separated we found these opportunities the best. While I had made sure I saw my Joe, I hadn't seen much of the women of the red brand. Sasha and I were friendly but the rest were newbies from NXT which left Charlotte as my closest companion out of the bunch.

I immediately pulled her into a hug as we distanced ourselves from the crowd, "how have you been?"

"I've been good. Getting back into the swing of things, I feel great now honestly. And of course my man is backstage so I'm ecstatic" I giggled and my eye caught the purple head and she smiled and waved before being ambushed by Jimmy, reminding me that he too was stuck in the couple separation boat.

"You should be happy you have a man period. The road is tough, after my divorce it has been hard getting back into the groove of things and of course the life we live doesn't help."

I smiled slightly as I recalled feeling like that while I had been with John. I hadn't seen an alternative to things, it was either John or be alone because many people had ideas. Ideas that my relationship with John had been materialistic and due to this framed me as a golddigger and in that way believed that I wouldn't be happy with anyone else. So in a way, harsh way, I was intimidating but of course the man I loved and chose regardless of maybe being alone forever, wanted me.

He knew that when I fell for John it was purely for the person that he was and nothing more, and I wouldn't have chosen Joe if I had been with someone purely out of their money. I chose Joe, because in the end he meant more and while John had hated the idea of us being close. Joe had always been our biggest supporter, helped our relationship by being an alternative voice from my family. But John saw him as a threat when he had been anything but then. And now here I was, knowing fully that if push came to shove I'd always choose Joe and I'd always be happy with that choice.

"The ratio to single ladies on the roster to guys is quite staggering. And I know the last time you mixed business with pleasure didn't work out so well for you, but you shouldn't let it hold you back." I certainly had words of wisdom when it came to that and while it was cringing considering Joe was my third guy on the roster but well, third time was the charm.

"Well I have my eye on someone but he is sort of hung up on someone. Someone who is quite hard to compete with" She shrugged causing me to frown until I saw Renee up ahead laughing with Bryan on the set of Talking Smack.

"You want Mr Vegan?" I frowned briefly giggling recalling mine and Brie's storyline with him many years before.

I guess on paper he and Brie would make a perfect fit since their lifestyles were so similar but while she was all about saving the world, she was a lunatic in her own right. She had always tried to tame it as we became older and it was but she felt comfortable enough with Jon to let go easily with him when needed.

She giggled shaking her head, "He is a nice guy but nope."

"Oh" I slowly smiled realizing she had her eyes on a other bearded gentleman and I sighed. "There is no future for them, as you can see she is so happy with Bryan. Colby needs to move on."

"Nobody wants to be a rebound" She cringed making me want to awww at the blush in her cheeks.

"Whoever said the first relationship after a break-up is a rebound is silly. Besides, a rebound is technically immediately after a relationship ends, its been well over a year since they split. And look how happy Bryan makes her, you could do the same for Colby." Yes maybe I was tagging along with her little crush too easily but having had a similar conversation with Colby about him needing to move on soon made the idea of them maybe ending up together quite appealing.

"Not everyone has great love stories, I don't know. You've seen his exes, seen the woman he cheated on Renee with. Where do I fit in?" The blonde beside me shrugged.

"You fit in by ignoring his past, Colby has become more humble over the last year. Yes I'm sure you heard about the many rumours.."

"So they didn't fight over you?" She mumbled and realized I was actually in her list of women of exes.

"No, it was the old Shield drama. Everything I said to Carmella a few weeks back is true. Colby and I were never together in that way, that would be incest." I shuddered, "I was simply waiting for Joe. He took awhile but sometimes things take time. Colby needs someone right now, he has Antonio and Joe on the road but they can't help him the way a woman can and not in that way. But he needs a woman's touch." I nudged her and she giggled resting her head back.

"We'll see. I should probably go shower and I'm sure your boyfriend is waiting for you."

"Mmm I almost forgot" I winked and made my way back to my locker room.

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"I love how you and Jon have these little gestures. You really miss each other huh?" I smiled as I watched him turn off the bathroom light before he rested his head onto my lap and watched the repeat of Raw.

"Well yeah, he was on edge tonight. Having a mini-baby freak out. Brie's now visible small bump is making him realize there is a little person in there." His eyes left the screen and he stared up at me and I briefly nudged my nose over his and kissed his scar on it, reminding me about his nose injury I hadn't been beside him for.

"Aww he'll be fine. I think he is trying to be so calm around Brie that he needs an outlet. Last week he was questioning me on if I was a crier as a baby. Because he's not good with crying, 'When Brie cries I get her some organic dark chocolate and a kiss. Babies can't have chocolate' " I giggled shaking my head.

"You really are bad at impressions" he laughed out and lift himself up and sat beside me.

"Hey! Don't judge your girlfriend, but all jokes aside, we need to consider him too. I've been so excited about being an aunt again I haven't really thought about Dean fucking Ambrose as a dad."

"Oh Colby and I had that enlightening moment when we found out. He'll do good, all first timers are nervous.." He shrugged.

"So if I had the bun in the oven, you wouldn't be nervous?"

"Oh hell yeah I would. With Jojo I was young, yeah it was terrifying but I was so excited I never saw it. I'm older now, different life, financially I'm stable so that's not really on my mind. So now I'll start overthinking things about the father I'll be. I've been away from Jojo since she was a couple years old, she knows how things work. She's older now..."

"You're a good father to her, she loves you unconditionally" I smiled as I straddled his lap knowing he had his fearful moments due to his absence.

"I am blessed that she does, and blessed to have you in my life. She loves you just as much as she loves me, if not more sometimes. I see you mouthing 'yes' behind my back when I tell her to finish her dinner first before getting into your donut stash. And I can't wait to start a family with you." He smiled brightly.

"I promise after my next title run, you can put some babies in me." I bit my lip with a giggle as he tipped me over.

"Here's to hoping next year draft you're on Raw so we can rule together"

"That would be so perfect but for now you are ruling the States and I'm ruling my team to kick your women's butts on Sunday."

"I can't wait to watch" he gently kissed my cheek before staring into my eyes.

"So I was thinking" He whispered slowly tracing his hand back and forth over my bare thigh and I took it into my head and kissed it.

"About?"

"We take a trip for your birthday next weekend" He breathe and I was reminded of my birthday next week, I knew it was November but days were such a blur in this company. I hadn't realized it was so soon...

"A trip? With our schedules?" I hesitantly questioned before getting too excited. Vince hadn't been too keen on our relationship or too happy of my mic moments basically frees styling, hence my mic segments taking a cool down.

So taking time off...

"Just a couple of days, you know we get the week of Thanksgiving off. I won't be able to see you on your actual birthday so we can?" He searched my eyes when a year ago we hadn't spent my birthday together. He had been humiliated at Survivor Series then as he claimed the title only for Sheamus to rip it away.

"Jojo has school though so.."

He smiled but shook his head, "Just Superman and his Superwoman for this one, Nicole."

He gave me several quick pecks and I knew he wanted me to say yes and I couldn't deny that a vacation was certainly needed after all this time.

"Okay, Joe. Whisk me away into paradise as we are reminded of my maturity over you." I smirked.

"In age, but everything else no. Who drew whiskers on my face with my daughter and allowed me to go to the market with it on? That fan got a show" He grumbled as I laughed out picturing how not impressed he had been with his 'girls'.

"You shaved your beard and we made you pay for it." I narrowed my eyes as I traced over his stubble and his arm tightened around me.

"Oh The Beard, here I thought you loved me either way." He smirked.

"You know I do, the beard is just so rugged on this gorgeous face. I don't know, does something" I smiled into his lips.

"How about I do something.." He slowly bit my lip.

"Oh boy, I guess its good I'm off tomorrow." I rolled my eyes dramatically as he pushed me onto my back and slipped his hands beneath my shirt.

"Yeah and you can have a late morning cause we'll be doing quite a bit of cardio." He murmured into my neck before kissing me before I could respond.