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I waited for a couple of minutes near the door for his 'good night' but he did not reply back. I unlocked the door to move out then suddenly Ayan grabbed my hand from behind and pulled me inside. Pressing me against the wooden door he slid his hand into mine. My fingers interwined between his and the air merely had any space between us. The fragnance of his shampooed hair carressed my breaths. I began to lose control. He is the most comfortable place to live and die for. I looked into his passionate eyes staring at me cowardly.

"I can't see anyone touching you." He looked down at our tangled hands.

"Don't worry, I wont let anyone touch me." I assured him and held his hand tighter than before. He looked up at me as if he had found the tumbledown Titanic from the deep sea. His breaths puffed my cheeks and he came closer to my face. I closed my eyes, ready for my first kiss. His nose touched mine but not his lips. He withdrew and instead planted a gentle kiss on the forehead. The moment his lips took a touch of my brow I knew it was forever. I felt satisfied and opened my eyes to see my dream come true. He moved his fingers in the dense forest of my hair. "I love you" he said, finally. "I love you, Farha. But you cannot love me." he pined.

"Ofcourse, I love you too and there is nothing that I can't do. Remember I am a superwoman." I said in childlike tone. He smiled and moved away giving me permission to leave.

A little rain on sun burnt land increases the temperature rather than cooling it. He did the same. I didnt want to be abandoned after his splendour portrayal affection. Why doesn't he commit? What is he afraid of? Rahul didnt looked anything beyond my skin but that was not more torturing than Ayan's neglection. His stillness plundered my sanety.

I walked back and hugged him from behind. "Give me a reason not to love you and i promise to return without regret." He turned facing me. Holding both my hands close to his chest and kissing them he said, "you are looking for a home in a traveller. A victim of time, I belong to nobody."

"I am willing to venture with you. If you are an unchartered map, I will be your compass. Willing to die on a voyage with you." I said looking into his deep black eyes, begging love from him. I was greedy for few blissfull moments that I didn't mind grieving the rest of my life.

"You sound poetic." He exclaimed and evacuated from my circumference.

"Learnt from you. By the way inform me now if you are suffering from any terminal desease. I will allocate your earnings in worthful investments." I said jokingly. Having the least pity on our love affair.

"When god was allocating brains you got the worst I suppose. You wish death for your lover!" He rebuked.

"Then what is it that wont let me love you now?" I demanded politely, encircling his waist with my arms.

"Marriage. Wait till then." He unlocked my hands from his waist.

"Not a big deal but I wont stop loving you ever. I will wait till our marriage get solemnised." I concluded.

He is different. He is priceless. I dont know of any man, in the apex of his youthful days, having every delicacy to lure any woman, denied the love of his life from love making. I feel blessed to have a spiritual man as my future husband. Today I learnt that skin is not the cover to the soul but thoughts are perfect wrappers. Protecting and guiding our soul. Clean your thoughts and you soul will be cleanced.

I spent the night in his chamber, in his bed, by his side. Making love through my eyes. His glances peirced my soul caressing it magnificently. The pillows stood erect like the Great wall of China between us. Guarding our chastity. We didn't talk, we didn't touch. We just stared at each other. As if to behold the most beautiful moment forever. We slept together but apart.
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