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"i find it kind of weird . . . . . ." hangyul mumbled as he nuzzled his head onto the alpha's shoulder. the two had just gotten back to seungyoun's place after their little date, but hangyul was still clingy as ever.

seungyoun hummed, grabbing a cup and pouring in some water before taking big gulps of it, "what's weird?" the alpha brought his attention from the empty cup of water he just placed down to the omega who just detached himself from the alpha's side.

hangyul laced his fingers together, fiddling with them as he looked at the taller, "that we're so close and all . . . . . . ."

"and?"

hangyul bit his bottom lip, nervous to continue as he watched seungyoun approach him. hangyul's back was against the edge of the black, marble table while seungyoun's hands were on either side of hangyul, trapping him in between the table and himself.

"and what?" seungyoun smirked, already knowing what the omega possibly wanted to say. or he hoped what he had in mind was what the younger was going to say.

"and we're doing everything that couples would normally do besides the kissing and the sex part" hangyul mumbled shyly, cheeks heating up as he said the last few words. it wasn't like he didn't want to confess. he was too nervous and he wasn't even sure if it was a good idea to do it now. he wanted to wait for the alpha to say something, but he couldn't wait any longer.

he didn't want to just be friends. he wanted more than just friends. it disappointed him to just be considered as seungyoun's friend. he knew it was selfish of him to think that way. he put aside seungyoun's reputation and image for himself, but he wanted to let his feelings out one way or another.

hangyul shook his head after a few seconds of silence, "n-nevermind—" he should've thought about this over before blurting it out. he didn't even consider seungyoun's feelings. what if seungyoun was just doing it as a friend? what if he didn't have any intention of courting him?

seungyoun lifted up the shorter's chin with the tip of his finger, "you want me to kiss you?" the alpha teased, leaning his face and body closer to the omega's.

hangyul looked away, not wanting to look at the alpha or else he felt like he might explode. seungyoun probably was just teasing him anyways. the alpha pouted when he saw the omega jerk his head away. he softly grabbed the shorter's chin and placed a sweet kiss on his lips.

and who knew a single kiss could get them into a heated make out session. hangyul could feel seungyoun's smirks in between their kisses, but he wasn't that embarrassed as before. seungyoun wanted it as much as hangyul did.

seungyoun had to admit— he was quite a good kisser. it wasn't like he dated anyone before, but it felt like he knew what he was doing. hangyul was kind of shocked at how good seungyoun was. but he thought seungyoun was so good at it because he dated people before which mad his heart drop a bit.

the younger placed his hands on the taller's chest, pushing him away slightly, gasping for air. maybe the thought of seungyoun dating someone else disappointed him a tiny bit, "we— we shouldn't be doing this"

it wasn't like they were a couple. why'd they do things that couples do? it just wasn't right. he wanted seungyoun to get a hint at what he was talking about— not do whatever he asked. maybe seungyoun didn't get a hint of his feelings at all. maybe it was all affection as a friend. maybe he didn't mean anything serious with his actions.

"hangyul— wait!" before the older could even say anything to explain his feelings, hangyul had dashed off to put on his shoes and was ready to leave and not turn back. he felt humiliated. the alpha's hand grabbed his wrist, stopping him.

"listen to me" seungyoun said, as softly as possible. he didn't know why hangyul was acting up all of a sudden, "what's wrong? did you not like it? i'm sorry—"

hangyul mustered all his strength to get his wrist out of seungyoun's death grip, and surprisingly, he got his wrist out and seungyoun's hold and unlocked the door. he already felt tears brimming at his eyes. was seungyoun just clueless about everything?

"it's— it's nothing" hangyul muttered, though seungyoun wasn't quite convinced that nothing was wrong, "i just don't feel like staying here tonight. i want to go back to the dorms" he opened the door, but let out a yelp when seungyoun slammed it closed before hangyul could even get it open all the way.

and what came out of seungyoun's mouth made him shiver. seungyoun's voice suddenly got octaves lower and it was the first time hangyul has heard seungyoun use that type of tone to talk with him, "hangyul. there's definitely something wrong. there wouldn't be a reason why you don't want to stay here for the night. just tell me"

the omega could hear the desperation in the alpha's cold and serious voice. part of him felt guilty and wanted him to stay the night and reassure the alpha that nothing happened, but the other part of him wanted to run away. he couldn't do this anymore. he didn't want to kiss seungyoun and still refer to him as a friend. it wasn't right.

"i just don't feel comfortable anymore" hangyul's voice cracked as he replied to seungyoun. seungyoun's eyes softened as he grabbed hangyul's shoulders with his hands. maybe hangyul needed a little bit of time to himself? but that still didn't answer why hangyul changed all of a sudden after the kiss.

"let me take you back?" seungyoun asked, eyeing at how teary the omega's eyes looked, "it's dark out and i don't want anything bad happening to you" he decided that he was going to wait for hangyul's explanation. as much as he wanted to hear it now, he assumed that hangyul had it bottled up inside somewhere.

hangyul nodded, and without uttering another word, seungyoun grabbed his car keys from the drawer and they both headed out.

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𝓹𝓾𝓫𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓱𝓮𝓭: 10/31/2020 ☁