Quinn POV

I lay down on my mattress, just trying to calm myself down.

My heart is racing and I feel sick. 

I close my eyes and rest my hand on my stomach. 

I just need to think about that night and what happened. I need to remember at least everything I can. 

I need too. 

*Flashback*

I walk through the crowded house, trying to find Joy who called me to get her.

I hate parties and try my best to stay as far away from them as possible. But, if she calls me saying she wants to go home, I have to go. 

I walk to the den where I'm told she is at. I find David sitting beside his girlfriend who looks wasted. "Is she okay?" I ask him.

"Yeah." He answers while standing up.

"Why couldn't you take her home?" I ask David who looks too sober to say he can't drive.

"I've drank some beers and smoked a blunt. I don't exactly want to drive." He says to me. I know he's lying, his eyes look perfectly normal and his breath doesn't smell like alcohol. 

"Okay." I say, turning back towards Joy who looks drowsy. My eyebrows furrow a little by how different she looks. I've seen her drunk plenty of times, but she doesn't look drunk.

"Can we talk?" He asks, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"No." I say with a chuckle. 

I don't want to talk to him about last weekend when he kissed me after admitting he's been in love with me since the 8th grade. I'll admit I always had a huge crush on him. But once I met Richard those feelings changed. David started dating Joy and I started dating Richard, who I love. So, I don't look at David that same way I once did. I just looked at him as my childhood friend.

"Please?" His light brown eyes look into mine.

"Hey Quinn." I hear a familiar voice say. I turn around and see my boyfriend standing in the doorway with a beer in his hand.

"Hi." I say with shrugging shoulders.

"I thought you weren't coming." Richard says while walking over to me. He leans down and kisses me and gives me a small smile.

"I wasn't. I'm taking Joy back home since she called me." I say, referring to my friend who I'm worried about. 

"Can you take her to your car then come back so we can talk? I want to speak to you about something." His eyes look behind me, to I assume David, then back to me.

"Uh, sure. But it has to be quick. I want to get her home and make sure she's alright." I say.

"It will be quick." Richard assures me with a friendly grin. He kisses me once more before letting me help Joy up.

I drape her arm over my neck and put my arm around her waist for support. I begin to walk her out into the hectic house. I have to say excuse me loudly so people get the memo that I'm trying to get out of the house. 

The music is too loud for my liking and it's starting to give me a headache.

When I step out of the house, I feel the cold wind touch my skin. Shivers rush up my back, causing me to become a little more cold.

I walk over to my car parked across the street and help Joy in. I look at my friend who's grinning lazily at me. "Hey, can you hear me?" I ask.

"Quinny!" She exclaims through a slur.

Is she high? 

I look back to the house that has people walking in and out from. "I'm going to be right back, okay?" I tell Joy.

"Hm, okay." She says through a giggle. 

I close my car door after grabbing my Pepsi that I brought over. I walk back into the house I don't want to be in and make my way back to where I was before.

I head back to the den and see Richard and David talking. When I enter the room, their conversation falls silent. The first one to look at me is Richard. He gives me a weak grin before walking over to me.

He takes my empty hand and guides me through the crowded hallway. He opens a bedroom door and closes it once I'm inside. 

Richard turns around and looks at me after turning on a light. I sip my drink that's almost gone and look at my boyfriend who's staring at me with a soft expression.

"You're happy with me, right?" He asks.

"Yeah, why?" I ask. "Hold that thought, I have to pee." I say while putting my Pepsi down and heading to the bathroom inside the bedroom we're in. 

I take a look at my reflection in the mirror and scrunch up my nose. My under eye circles are slightly visible from my lack of makeup and I overall look tired. 

When I exit the bathroom, I hear the bedroom door close. Richard is still standing in here though so I'm a tad bit confused.

I pick up my Pepsi and continue drinking it to just finish it off. "So, what did you want to talk about?" I ask, bringing back up our conversation. 

"I wanted to talk about our relationship." He says while stepping closer towards me.

As Richard starts speaking, the more I become tired. My thoughts become hazy and I start stumbling on my feet.

My vision is out of focus and is causing me to wipe my eyes. I feel a pair of hands hold my arms and set me down on the bed. The words "Wait here" echos through my ears. 

What's happening to me?

My breaths are slow and my eyes are zoning in and out. My hearing is muffled and I don't know what's going on.

I hear the door close shut and lock. "Ri-Rich?" I slur out.

"Sh." I hear an unfamiliar voice say to me.

The feeling of fingers pulling down my leggings cause me to jerk. The touch is unfamiliar and I can barely think. I try to move away, but the hands of the male I don't know pulls me back.

"Stop." I say through a mumbled whisper.  

My heart rate is fast and my eyes are stinging. 

The feeling of a hand going over my mouth and one going inside my underwear causes my eyes to wide and makes me cry. My sobs don't come out just like my words. 

All my movements that I'm trying to do, don't happen. I'm just a numbed out body that can't move. All I can do is feel.

Harry POV

I walk into the cafeteria, furious with what David told Quinn.

I head to Quinn's usual lunch table and find Kay sitting there with a wide grin. "I need to talk to you." I say to her.

Her eyes glance over at me, and she looks confused by me speaking to her. Kay excuses herself from her friends and stands up from her table. I begin to walk away, knowing she's following behind me.

I stand in the hallway and see her soon stand across from me. Once I hear the door to the cafeteria close and see the hallways are empty, I speak.

"Why the fuck are you telling people I raped Quinn?" Saying this out loud makes me want to throw up.

"What?" Her face look confused.

"You heard me." I say tensely.

"I never said that." Kay tell me with a scoff.

"Really? Then why does Quinn think I'm the one who did it?" I ask her. My words are tense and my voice is low.

"Who told her that?" She asks me.

"David." I say. Her eyebrows furrow by my answer and her head shakes. Kay doesn't answer, which makes me become more annoyed. "Well?" I say once I've become impatient. 

"I never said to him that you did it." Kay tells me. 

"And how do I know this is true if Quinn thinks I did it, because you said something?" I ask. Her logic makes me sick and overall annoyed.

"Because David raped her," She says to me in a low whisper. "I told him if he doesn't either tell the cops he did it, or tells Quinn himself, I'll do both. I gave him a few months to make up his mind and next week is the last time he can say something before I do. I guess his plan was to make her believe you did it, so he can finally be with her."

"Why would David want to be with Quinn?" I ask, feeling sick.

"Because he's loved her since the like 8th grade." Kay answers casually. 

"He loves her so much he'd rape her?" I ask, confused.

"Hey, I'm not the rapist here. I don't know what his motive was." She says to me. 

"Can you tell Quinn then that I didn't do it? Because she doesn't believe me and she isn't answering my calls." I say with stinging eyes.

"She won't believe me." Kay says.

"Make her. Why didn't you tell her the morning after it happened? Didn't you help her?" I ask with furrowed eyebrows. 

"I mean," She pauses. "I didn't break down the door. I saw David leave the bedroom and when I walked in she was naked. At first David didn't say anything to me, then I threatened to tell Quinn and he confessed saying he did it. But he didn't directly tell me until months after."

"Then who took photos?" I ask. 

"I think there was a camera or something in the room because I found those in David's car. So maybe someone is holding that video over his head." She says to me.

The thought that there is a video of Quinn getting raped makes me want to throw up. 

My teeth gnaw at my lips and my finger nails are digging into the palm of my hands. "Are you sure it wasn't Richard?" I ask.

"I'm sure if David told me himself he did it." Kay answers. 

"Did Quinn and him have a fling or something?" I ask curiously.

"Not that I know of. All I know is that David told Richard he was in love with Quinn. So, Rich was going to break up with Quinn to see if she wanted to be with Dave instead. I think that's what he was going to tell her that night." 

"Did he do that because he didn't want to admit he was cheating on her with you?" I ask.

"No, we never slept together," Kay admits to me. "He never cheated on Quinn. He said that so she could be with David if she pleased. And she never did, so he broke up with her for no good purpose." She tells me with a chuckle.

"Wait, you both never--" She cuts me off.

"Yep. He never had sex with me. He never even kissed me." She says. 

"Why did you go on with it then?" I ask. 

"I had nothing to lose. Plus, I love the drama," Kay says to me with a grin. "But, Richard is still in love with Quinn and so is David. So, I hope that makes you feel special that she chose you."

"Well, I'd feel really special if she didn't think I raped her." I say, focusing back on the main purpose of us talking. 

"I'll try to talk to her, okay?" She says to me.

"Like, now?" I ask. I don't want her to think I'm the one who did it, more than she already has.

"Fine," She says, shrugging her shoulders. "What if she doesn't believe me?"

"Just explain to her what you know, okay? While you do that I'll be beating the shit out of what's his face." I say while scanning around the hallway for the person I deeply hate.

"Calm down hulk. You can get in major trouble for beating someone up, again." She reminds me.

"I don't care. He's a fucking nasty cunt." I say through a low growl. 

"Well, um, I'll go to Quinn's house and hope she lets me in." Kay tells me. I nod and turn to walk the other way.

I take out my phone from my pocket and dial Quinn's number again. I press my phone against my ear and hear her voicemail, again. I close my eyes and sigh.

"Hey Quinn," I say once I'm allowed to speak after the message plays. "It's me again. I don't know if you're purposely ignoring me but uh, please just call me back or at least know I didn't do it. Please, please, believe me. I hope you call me back. I love you." I hang up and put my phone back in my pocket. 

I exit the school and walk to my truck. I don't know if I should go to her house or not. Maybe I should wait until Kay speaks to her?

Coincidentally I see David heading to his BMW once I look up from staring down at my feet.

I stop walking towards my car and walk over to David who has his back facing me. 

I drop my bag on the concrete, which makes him turn around. He looks to me then my bag on the ground. "Need something?" David asks me with furrowed eyebrows.

I don't answer. I just swing my fist across his cheek and take out all my anger on this one dude who I want to murder right now.

Quinn POV

I woke up from my small nap with a racing heart and clouded eyes.

I made myself remember that whole night and I don't even know who did it. All I can remember is the feeling of being helpless and numb. 

I hear my doorbell go off as I exit my bedroom to get water. I have a major headache from all my thoughts and tears.

It's probably Faith who's supposed to be home today. She never has her house keys so I wouldn't be surprised if it is her.

When I get down to the bottom of my stairs and open my front door, I see Kay standing on my porch with her hands in her jacket pockets.

"Busy?" She asks me.

"Aren't you supposed to be in school?" I ask.

"Aren't you?" Kay asks me back with a raised eyebrow.

"What do you need?" I ask, brushing off her remark.

"I need to tell you somethings. Got tea?" She asks me. 

I hesitate to let her in, but cave in. I need to know everything that Kay does to help me cope with everything that happened.

As we walk to my kitchen I just blurt out a question that's only on my mind. "Did Harry do it?" I ask her. My heart starts to race again.

"No, David did." She answers bluntly which makes my heart drop and my body ache.

I lost my virginity to David then.

The guy Joy is in love with.

The guy who was my childhood best friend

Someone who I actually would consider my secret first love. 

I plop myself down on my kitchen counter stool and let Kay just vent to me about everything she knows.

While she speaks, the more sick I feel, and the more I want to hide.

A://N

as promiseddddddd here is a chapter

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~lauren