Rumors

It's been a few weeks after the break up and honestly I'm still not okay. I don't know if I'll ever be.

I miss him so much. I miss his touch, his smile, his silliness. Waking up without him everyday isn't how I imagined my next few years to look like. Hell its not how I imagined my whole life to look like.

I guess I was the one who was way too in love with him. I guess I loved more than he did.

What a sick joke this all is.

The members including Meji have all tried to help me cheer up of course. But it just isn't the same anymore without him.

I've been trying to get him off my mind by dancing or playing the piano... but he takes up my thoughts. Everything that I love reminds me of him. I showed him all my favorite things because I loved... love him. I wanted to experience all those things with him.

And I still keep those memories in my head... but they seem sadder than before.

The past couple of days I've been going to bighit a lot. They're surprisingly supportive of me and my dreams and have even thought about me signing with them. But I'm not sure if that'll be possible anytime soon.

Today the guys invited themselves in my apartment. They said they had to tell me something really important. So I'll have to go home in an hour, but right now I'm catching up with Meji... who's really been here for me lately.

"Oh the date was so bad! He talked about himself the whole time!" She complained while sipping on her coffee.

"Oh I would hate that... what an arrogant ass." I say laughting.

"You know... sooner or later we'll find some nice boys who'll treat us right." She says and I immediately nod.

But Jungkook was nice. We were perfect for each-other... he was suppose to be the one.

"Hmm what happened to that guy... what was his name?" She asks looking confused.

"Chanyeol?" I ask 

"Oh yeah him!" She jumps up a little in her seat. "He seemed so cute! And he was totally into you!"

She winks at me and I just laugh at her.

"He's a friend Mej, we're just working together." I say convincing her.

"Yeah sureee." She says while raising a brow.

She continues to talk about the horrible date she was on last night but I immediately zoom out when I see the news on TV.

I've always thought that rumors are a funny thing... there are no good rumors unfortunately. Only bad ones. But this one made my heart break into a million pieces.

Is this true? Has he actually moved on so fast? Was I nothing to him? I feel like everything between us wasn't even real. How could he do this to me? Maybe he never felt the way I did toward him. Maybe it was all fake.

Meji notices that I'm not feeling so good. She turns around and sees the tv in the coffee shop. She instantly gasps.

"Y/n let's get out of here!" She says and takes my hand leading me out of the coffee shop.

"I want to go home..." I say trying not to break down in tears.

My feet feel heavier than usual, as we go into her car.

When I arrive at my apartment Meji follows me until I got to my door. At this point I just want to be alone and cry it out.

I walk into my apartment and get scared by a loud shouting.

"SURPRISE"

I immediately look up and see six of my best friends in-front of me with confetti.

"What is this?" I saw with a little smile.

"CONGRATULATIONS ON JOINING BIGHIT!" They scream.

I gasp.

"WHAT? Really?!" I say and jump to hug them.

I hug brother super tight and thank him for everything he's done for me.

"Thank you for raising me Joon." I day and pull away.

They prepared a whole party for me with lots of food and drinks. And then and there for a second I forgot about Jungkook.

A few drinks in and lots of loud music I get a knock on my door. Jimin goes and opens the door.

"Why are you here?" I head Jimin say.

Then I see him walk into my apartment. What right does he have to be here. This is suppose to be my happy moment. One that I haven't had in a long time. I've had enough of him and suddenly the alcohol kicks in.

"You asshole." I say going up to him while everyone just watches in silence. "Was I a joke to you? You moved on so quickly like this between us was nothing to you. And I'm here drowning in my tears." I say while feeling my eyes began to water. I have to be strong I can't show him how hurt I am.

"Y/-" He begins but I interrupt him.

"No you don't get to talk this time." I say. "The sight of you with her breaks me. My heart aches everytime you say her name. But I don't matter anymore huh? You promised you weren't going to break my heart but look where we are."

"It's not wh-"

"Isn't this what you've always wanted?  She's always been your ideal type and you finally have her congratulations. You're a good match. I just wish you didn't use me to get to her." I say turning around and going up in my room.

I lay on my bed when the tears began to fall like a waterfall. I can't even stop them when I hear a knock on my door.

"Go away." I say with my voice cracking.

But the familiar face doesn't listen. The door opens and I see Tae come in.

"Don't worry I told everyone they should leave." He says coming next to me and sitting down. He notices I can't stop crying and puts his hand around me and hugs me.

"In the end everything will work out I'm sure of it." He says.

"Tae...is this my fault... isn't it? Why did everything have to go wrong." I say looking up at him. He shakes his head and pats my hair.

"It sucks" I say looking down at the my feet.

"What does?"

"He's already moved on to someone else." I say as tears fall down my cheeks.

We sit there in silence. Our bodies close to eachother as he's comforting me.

"It's his loss, for letting someone like you go." Tae says suddenly

I softly smile at him not believing a word he's saying. Because I know I could've been better for him. And that at the end of the day I'm hurting more and more everyday.

authors note:
hiii how is everyone doing? This chapter was kind of emotional. I don't know why but I like writing more heartbreaking and emotional chapters. But I promise this story will have a happy ending! Anyway, would it be weird if Tae and Y/n started dating... I don't know if I'm down for it but we'll see.
I hope you have a great day!