"Are you sure you're okay?"

I cuddled further into his chest, my tears falling to the nice shirt he wore. I felt bad not wanting to ruin it, but it felt nice to be held this way. "Yeah." I whispered back. "I'm fine."

"You know what she said isn't true." He replied rubbing my back up and down. "Aunt Mae is a miserable bitch and she was just saying that because the attention was not on Minah."

"It is true though." I said through more tears, thankfully able to keep my voice steady. "Dad will recognize you and Jin sometimes, but he never remembers me anymore."

"He talks about how you remind him of his daughter. He remembers his daughter, Noona. He remembers you." He tried assuring me.

He made a good point though.

He did compare me to his daughter quite frequently but he never realized that I was her. Any time I would visit him with Jin or Namjoon he would always have bits and pieces but was never fully there. It was only when I wasn't with them, that he had fully lucid moments and knew who he was. They would tell them about my weight loss, so he knew, but he didn't all in the same.

Alzheimer's is a horrible disease.

Just horrible.

I would never wish this on anyone.

Not anyone.

I sniffled and nodded my head in agreement. "I guess you're right." I breathed.

He tightened his arms that were wrapped around me and gave me a few kisses to my cheek and forehead. "We can leave if you want." He said. "We can pack up and go, Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jimin can stay, and we can go home. You do not have to endure that kind of treatment. I won't allow it."

"Dad would want us to be here." I replied. "But thank you. It's good to know my baby brother is on my side."

"I will always be on your side." He started to move his hand up and down my back in a soothing manner. I could almost fall asleep but I wasn't really tired. Just emotionally exhausted. "It's a brother's job to protect his sister."

"I should be the one protecting you." I said, looking up to him. He raised an amused eye brow making me giggle. "You are very protective younger big brother, you know that."

"I do." He smiled. "I did the same for Jin when he started talking to Hobi."

"You are worse with me. What was with you knocking Jimin from sitting next to me at dinner, huh?"

He narrowed his eyes and opened his mouth to response but was interrupted by a light tap on the bedroom door followed by a soft "Noona?"

"Come on in." I said turning a little to see Jin walking slowly towards us. I opened my arm and so did Namjoon to include him into our group hug. He gave me a sad smile before cuddling up next to me and wrapping his arms around us.

"I'm so sorry that woman is such a raging thunder cunt." He mumbled into my shoulder.

Namjoon and I both blurted out laughing, Jin following shortly after. "Oh god I needed that." I said wiping the tears from my face and catching my breath. "That is the best insult I've ever heard."

He chuckled and ran his fingers through my hair before speaking again. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"I'm fine." I said.

"Are you though, not to bring it up but that was uncalled for and harsh."

"It was just a sensitive topic and she said it in front of everyone so, I just need to breath and clear my mind. But yes, I am okay."

"Good. The youngin's were also worried, should I tell them you will be down in a little?"

"Actually," I said turning over on my back between my two brothers. "I think I'm going to take a really long hot shower and try to relax before I come down. What time is it?"

"It's not quite 6 yet, it was an early dinner." Jin replied, laying his head next to me with a smile.

"Give me until like, 7:30 or 8:00. When I say long shower, I mean long shower, I need the hot water." I giggled. "Give the other guys heads up that they may have to wait until the morning to have hot water for their own showers.

"Fair enough." Namjoon said. He kissed me on the side of my head again before getting of the bed and walking towards the door. "Come on Jin hyung."

Jin smiled and kissed my nose before jumping out of bed and leaving, shutting the door behind him. I love my brothers.

I really, really did.

But right now, there is only one way to relieve my anxiety and in order to do that, I need alone time.

I grabbed a sleep shirt and a clean pair of panties before reaching under the bed and grabbing the thing that I really needed. My waterproof vibrator. I was sure to put brand new batteries in it before we left and even packed extra.

I walked into the bathroom, locking the door to my bedroom and started to strip. The shower was on and getting hot and by the time I was ready, the shower was too. I was sure to first clean off my body, then my hair. I also decided to shave. I always felt cleaner when I did for some reason.

I was not sure how long I had been in there for, but once I was done and thoroughly rinsed, I was so ready for a bit of relief. I turned on the vibrator, that thankfully wasn't that loud and slowly moved it to the place I needed it most.

I honestly didn't like using toys. I liked a warm body pressing against me, thrusting into me. I liked being kissed and being touched. I enjoyed the physical activity of sex. I prefer it rough, letting someone else take control of my pleasure. It wasn't often that I found someone who could really blow my mind but I managed to enjoy myself when I did find partners.

I leaned up against the shower wall and slowly used the silicone device against my swollen nub. I tried to be gentle to get my engines running, but I was struggling to really be in the mood.

I honestly didn't want to force this, but I knew I would feel better if I just had that hard snap. Hell, even a small snap would make me feel better.

Anything to take my mind off of this.

I tried picturing different things I knew usually worked for me, but nothing seemed to get me in the mood. I tried so many different angles, settings, and levels of the toy, that I almost gave up.

But then a thought ran through my head.

Jimin.

His sexy smirk.

His alluring eyes.

The way I felt when I watched him bite his lip.

The thought of actually being able to lick his perfectly toned abdomen sparked a little excitement within me, and finally I felt myself start to react to the vibrator. I closed my eyes and leaned back, lifting a leg to give myself more room, and let my imagination run free.

His mouth on me, his hands on me, pining me down chasing his own orgasm by using my body for his pleasure.

I felt a slight pull on my lower stomach, the idea of being with Jimin more exciting than I anticipated. 

It was working too well, and I let his name slip from my lips in a low moan, the images in my head getting more vibrant and realistic by the second. I was just starting to get into it when I was interrupted seconds later. 

A low slam pulled me from my fantasy, followed by the distinct sound of a door locking. I dropped my hand and turned to see Jimin opening the shower door, glaring at me with dark eyes. His chest was heaving up and down and his mouth was parted open.

"Jimin!" I scolded trying to cover myself, failing miserably. "What are you doing?!"

"You called for me." He growled, not moving an inch.

"What?!"

"I heard you." He grinned. His eyes were burning into mine. He looked down at the toy in my hand and scoffed. "Baby, you don't need that."

It was then when I noticed he was only in his pants. Shirtless, and allowing the water to sprinkle on his arms and chest, he stepped back pulling his pants down. I moved to shut the door but he was quicker than I was. He kept the door open, pulling down his boxers. Once he was naked, he pushed me back, stepping under the water with me and shutting the door behind him.

He pressed my body against the shower wall and his left hand moved down to rip the toy from my grasp.

What in the hell is happening?

"Jimin, why-"

"This isn't going to satisfy you. This isn't what your body needs." He said. 

"How do you know what my body needs?"

"I listen remember?." he replied with a smirk, dropping the toy to the ground. "I can hear your body." 

"And what is my body saying?" I breathed now not caring that he invaded my shower.

He let his body lean against mine even more, the warmth of his skin giving me shivers. His face diped towards me, allowing his lips to ghost over my neck, up to my ear. "Your body is begging me to touch you." he spoke softly. He placed a soft kiss on my neck; so soft; like it didn't even happen.

"H-how can you tell?" I stammered trying to regain my composure. But I was too late, I was done for.

"The same way you hear my body beg for you." he whispered, this time against my lips. "The question now is, do you want me to touch you? Do you want me to listen to your body, Noona?"

I felt like I was about to explode. I couldn't breathe normally, I felt my blood pumping through my veins at an alarming rate. Most of all, it was undeniable by the look in his eyes that he wanted this.

I couldn't deny my own desire, wanting him to take me, use me.

I wanted him.

"Yes." I breathed, nodding my head and my eyes locking with his once again. "Yes."

He wasted no time engulfing me in a passionate, wet, and needy kiss. His hands moved against my hips and up my sides until they were behind my back and pulling me close. The movements of his mouth were erratic and desperate, his breathing just as heavy as mine was. I let out a whimper when I felt his member press up against my thigh, right next to my core.

He was rock hard.

He was thick.

And the excitement I felt intensified 10-fold at the feel of it bare against me. I reached down, gripping it tightly and pumping him softly. I could feel the veins in his member and the throbbing that followed my movements. He pulled from the kiss panting, and his forehead rested against mine as I kept my hand moving.

"Fuck." He breathed out. "Your touch..."

"Jimin." I called to him. "What do you want?"

He opened his eyes to look into mine, before stopping my hand and smirking.

"To give you the relief you deserve."

He stepped back and fell to his knees, his head level with my pelvis.

"Jimin!"

"Shhh." He hushed me. He pushed my thighs to part and lifted my left leg to hook over his shoulder. Once he settled comfortably, he looked up and grinned. "Close your eyes Noona, let me take care of you."

I took a deep breath and let go to any reservation I had about this. I leaned my head back, and let the strength of his arms keep me in place as he dipped his tongue into the folds of my core. His tongue was hot and strong and he knew what he was going.

I groaned out loudly, my eyes rolling to the back of my head as I felt electric charges spark through my whole body from the movements of his mouth. He used his lips, tongue, even grazes of his teeth against me, driving me absolutely crazy.

"Fuck!" I let out, panting heavily. His fingers dug into my outer thighs keeping me in place. His face was buried deep between my legs, skillfully building up the orgasm I was sure to have. Each swipe of his tongue gave me a pulse of pleasure that ricochet through my body. Expertly, his tongue lapped up and down, focusing souly on the hot button at the top of my core. Over and over he rolled his tongue with speed and strength bringing me to a very quick snap, my insides convulsing. He continued his assault against me, not letting me move as I arched my back and sang out my orgasm. I needed something to take hold of, and when I looked down his hair was too inviting to pass up the opportunity.

I took hold of his roots with both hands, riding out my lingering orgasm. He started to slow down, but kept me close, winding his tongue around my clit, slower and slower as I came down.

When he pulled back, he continued to kiss me, and let my leg drop as he kissed up my body until he met my lips again. "Feel better beautiful?" He asked, running his fingers through my wet hair.

I opened my eyes and at the sight of him licking his glistening lips, I lost all of myself control.

I wanted more.