chenle stood in front of a shelf filled with stuff toys and plushies while having his head lowered and eyes staring down at his phone. with another call being ignored, the omega's frowned deepened and decided to send him another message. while typing, he paused for a moment just to scroll up and see how many apologies he had sent already. knowing that it wasn't enough and not to mention it hasn't been seen by renjun, chenle typed one long apology before sending the message and making another call.

moments later, he went on to sending a message to donghyuck who was unusually quiet also. at least he got to answer his calls, unlike renjun. but chenle understood as to why the older chinese didn't want to talk to him.

❝i really fucked up.❞ closing his eyes, he dropped his head down on to one of the human sized bear's leg and groaned.

not only was he worrying about renjun, but also donghyuck. he had no idea what's going on with the tanned male as to why he was acting strange. he once asked him when he called him but the older only said that he's fine and there's nothing wrong with him. chenle wanted to force out an honest answer but he didn't want donghyuck to get mad at him for pushing him.

he had no choice but to wait till he'd open up.

❝lele, look!❞

hearing a familiar voice calling for his attention made the omega put his phone back inside his pocket, not after sending another message to the two, and turned his head towards the direction of a tall pure blooded alpha who had a toy gun in his hands.

at least that made him smile. ❝what are you doing with that?❞

doing a pose with the toy gun, ❝we can give this to your cousin's baby.❞ the younger said with a bright smile on his face.

chenle wasn't in the mood to go out during a weekend, just wanting to stay at the dorms and think about the mistakes he had made. hopefully, he can also think of a solution for it. but jisung here forced him, barging inside his shared room with xiaojun and whined while having the omega's roommate being present there. the pure blooded looked so excited to go and buy gifts for yukhei's baby that chenle didn't have the heart to tell him that he didn't want to tag along.

upon reaching the mall and at a specific store, the omega only strolled around the place while checking his phone from time to time while jisung was out there having the time of his life trying and taking out ever toy he could see.

he even almost broke an action figure but he didn't want for chenle to find out about that.

❝stuff toys is also a good idea.❞ the omega said, not at the fact that he just ignored jisung's suggestion about the toy gun.

that then made the pure blooded pout, going over to the shorter male that's now taking the giant bear that he had his head buried on minutes ago. ❝but what about the toy gun?❞

chenle gave the younger a look, ❝just say that you want it for yourself.❞ he then told him.

❝actually, there's also a ball over there that i—❞ jisung paused when he realized that he got too excited to tell him all the toys he wanted to buy. and yes, just for himself. but of course, there's no way he'd admit that to his omega right here. ❝no, this is for the baby shower.❞

the sudden change of his facial expression made the older male laugh. chenle then placed a hand on his cheek and surprised the pouting pure blooded alpha with a peck on his lips. ❝you can buy all those if you want, i won't mind.❞

❝but you will find me immature,❞ jisung told him, placing the toy gun down the shelf filled with teddy bears and other animal plushies. ❝and i don't want that. i want you to think that i'm a responsible man that has a mature mind.❞

his effort of making himself like that made chenle have a wide smile on his face, he actually appreciates it. although, it didn't matter to him at all. chenle didn't love this pure blooded alpha because of how he's trying to make himself look ideal. he loves jisung because he is jisung park. the jisung park who broke his heart but found a way to fix it again, the jisung park who's getting clingier as each day passes by, the jisung park who can't control his possessive side at times, and the jisung park who loves him back.

noticing him being silent about his statement, the taller male took this chance to go behind the omega and wrap his arms around his waist, making sure to have his hand caressing the flat tummy that chenle had.

❝ji?❞ the older called out his name, almost flinching when jisung had his chin placed down on his shoulder.

❝what does baby want?❞ he said with a smile, softly patting the omega's tummy. ❝you want that toy car? daddy will buy it for you.❞

chenle knew that he was just messing around but the thought of him having a baby honestly scared him. not only was having his parents inside his thoughts and seeing them scolding at him and getting disappointed, but the big responsibility he had to take also scared him.

he felt like he wasn't ready yet. ❝jisung, stop that.❞

the said male then frowned when chenle tried to take his hand away from his tummy. ❝you don't think i'm going to be a great father?❞

were they really going to have that conversation at a toy store? sighing, the omega was only shaking his head. ❝you will be, i know you'll be.❞

❝then—❞

hugging the human sized bear, chenle tried to squirm away from his hold and once he was successful in doing that, he turned to the frowning male and gave him a small smile. ❝come on, let's pay for this.❞

jisung didn't want to argue, not at the mall at least, thus causing for him to shrug off how he could see the look of regret from the omega's eyes and took the toy gun that caught his interest from another aisle.

leading the way, the pure blooded didn't notice that chenle was having a hard time carrying the large bear. it was just then he heard a yelp from behind that made him snap his head around and quickly rush towards the omega that stumbled down the ground.

hissing in pain, standing up by his own was what chenle planned to do but he was lifted up in a blink of an eye by a worried pure blooded alpha and was engulfed into a tight hug that made his widen his eyes in a clueless manner. ❝are you okay?❞

❝it doesn't really hurt..❞ chenle trailed from his sentence when he saw jisung bending down a slight bit till he could come face to face with his tummy.

❝is baby okay?❞ the pure blooded looked genuinely worried at the nonexistent life inside the omega.

this caused for the smaller male to have enough of it, not taking another joke about it. ❝i told you to stop.❞ his voice came out stern, taking the pure blooded aback. ❝ji, i'm not pregnant.❞

and he hoped he won't be.

opposite of chenle, jisung actually didn't mind the idea of him being a teen dad. he was ready to own up what he had done and take responsibility of it. he is willing to stay by his boyfriend's side if ever something happens after that activity they had. the pure blooded was well aware of how hard it could be, how tiring it will very be, but he didn't mind that at all. he's going to handle all of it, he was willing to handle all of those obstacles for chenle.

but instead of getting mad to worsen the situation, jisung shrugged. ❝i was just practicing.❞ and then lifted his hand up just to see if there were any bruises on the older's face even though that wasn't really a harsh fall. ❝are you hurt somewhere or—❞

❝don't you think we're too young for this?❞ even with jisung trying to change the subject, chenle wanted to talk about it right now. it's for the sake of the pure blooded not to have his hopes up only to be disappointed.

the taller male then slowly closed his eyes as he let his forehead rest on the older's, having their faces this close. fortunately for them, they were in the same aisle and there weren't any people walking by to see them. ❝we are, but i'm always here, alright? i said this already, i'll take responsibility and i will never leave you.❞

that wasn't what scared chenle. it was his parents and how he'd be dealing with it. running away was already enough to know that he's in big trouble, much more finding out that their son returning and being pregnant. they'd surely make him suffer. worst, disown him. he didn't want that to happen even though he already hated his parents for controlling his life. he still wanted to have a family to turn to at the end of the day and if they disowns him, where would he go?

even if there's jisung, he didn't want to be a burden to him. the pure blooded had done so much already for him.

the pure blooded could then smell the distress in his scent once again, making him click his tongue. ❝you don't have to be afraid, chenle.❞

the thoughts were clouding him again, the problems mixing up and stressing him out. it made the omega be in a emotional mess right now, breathing heavily and having tears welling up from his eyes.

❝omega, listen to me.❞ jisung didn't want to use this tone at a situation like this but he wanted to reassure the older.

still catching his breath, chenle raised his head up just to look at the pure blooded who's staring down at him with his soft gaze. he was also being comforted by the taller's hand holding his own and caressing the back of his hand.

having a smile forming on his lips, the younger male leaned forward and kissed the top of the omega's forehead. he stayed still for a good second before pulling away and settling another kiss on the older's quivering lips. ❝i'm here, i'm always here for you.❞

honestly though, if jisung wasn't always there to comfort him and just be with him then chenle would have broke down already. a lot was going on and a lot of worries was getting to him that it came to the point where he didn't know what to do anymore.

❝ji, i love you.❞  chenle sniffled, being the verge of crying a while ago.

the younger male then chuckled, putting a hand on the older's face and wiping the tears that came down rolling from his eyes. ❝i love you too.❞ he showed him his signature smile before booping his nose and taking the omega's hand, carrying the large bear in his other arm and the toy gun in his free hand. ❝let's go, i still need to pay for this.❞

chenle nodded his head and followed by his side, having his small hand being securely held by the pure blooded alpha. he was still crying but he muffled it out and he's also wiping his tears using the sleeves of his hoodie. anyone that saw the two of them almost mistook them as a father holding his son that he had just scolded.

the moment they were lining up from the counter was also the moment chenle had already composed himself. jisung saw this and can't help but giggle, seeing that his omega was growing strong. he brought his hand up, the one he's holding the omega's hand with, and ruffled his hair. that earned a pout from the older.

but his hand didn't stay long on top of the shorter's head as chenle took it with both his small hands and held it tight.

that sight honestly made him coo, holding back the urge to just tackle him and cuddle with the omega.

the stare that the pure blooded was giving him made chenle embarrassed, remembering how he cried back at the aisle they were in a while ago. he then decided to bring up a subject for them to talk about, ❝after this, where are we going?❞

there were a lot of places that jisung wanted to go and bring his boyfriend with but he knew that the older male had different plans and for now, he wanted to do what the omega wanted to do. ❝it's not yet late enough to go back to the dorms.❞ he told him, making the other hum in response. ❝would you want to visit renjun hyung?❞

the mention of his friend's name made chenle widen his eyes. he had always wanted to go to his house and talk things out with him but he couldn't find the right time to do so. also, he didn't want to go alone so having jisung come with him would probably encourage him to talk to renjun.

nodding his head, chenle tightened his grip on the pure blooded's hand with a small smile. ❝let's do that.❞

he was nervous as heck but if he wouldn't do it now, then when?

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actually, it's even nerve-racking now that they were already standing in front of the door with them waiting.

jisung had already rang the doorbell and chenle was sticking to him like glue, sweating buckets as he didn't know what to say first the moment he meets renjun. he was biting his lips, fumbling with his fingers, tiptoeing and going back to his stance again and again, and he was obviously looking nervous.

the pure blooded alpha could see it, and even smell how nervous he is, but all he could do was rub comforting circles behind the omega's back. at least that calmed him down a tad bit, making him take deep breaths and exhaling afterwards.

but the moment the door was opened, chenle had almost zoomed away if it weren't for jisung's hand staying behind his back.

the woman then eyed the two for a while before finally recognizing one of them, having that smile of hers that greeted them warmly. ❝chenle, what brought you here?❞

the omega first composed his breathing for a couple of seconds before answering his friend's mother with a question. ❝is renjun inside?❞

with her son being mentioned, her smile slowly dropped into a frown. ❝i'm sorry, but he doesn't want—❞

being desperate as he looked, chenle held on to the door as the woman was about to close it. ❝i won't force h-him to see me. i just w-want to talk to him.❞

the woman had no idea what was happening to her son but she was waiting patiently for him to open up, hoping that it would be soon enough. couple of her son's friends even came to pay a visit and asked if they can see him but respecting her son, she politely told them that he wasn't ready yet. there were even two alphas, one being a pure blooded, that came. she found the pure blooded one unfamiliar but that wasn't the point, the two of them also wanted to see her son. sadly, she had to let them leave.

❝please, mrs. huang.❞ chenle looked straight to the woman's eyes, hoping that she could see his sincerity in his words.

still hesitant, she let the two of them in nonetheless. the omega has been her son's friend and he looked like he would do no harm. she just hopes he won't force her son to go out when he doesn't want to. ❝by the way, lele, who is this?❞

as they were being guided upstairs, chenle didn't know why he was stuttering in answering that question. ❝h-he's m-my—❞

❝boyfriend, ma'am.❞ jisung gestured his hand out for a handshake, getting nervous introducing himself at his omega's friend's mother. ❝i'm park jisung.❞

not wanting to look rude, she took his hand and gave him a smile. she then let out a chuckle when she felt him shaking the moment she took his hand. now staying silent, the woman then left the two alone upstairs but of course, that's after she told chenle not to pressure her son in anything. the omega reassured him that he won't do anything reckless and that's when they were left alone.

jisung knew that chenle would like some time to be just with renjun and he understood that, making him give a kiss on top of his forehead and muttering countless of comforting words before he went down to the living room to wait for him.

now standing there in front of a door specifically to the omega's room, chenle lifted his fist up but hesitated to knock on to the door. shaking his head, he decided not to and dropped his hand down. ❝g-ge?❞

being engulfed in silence for hours already, the male sitting down on his bed and hugging his knees then flinched when he heard a voice from outside. what got him to panic was finding it familiar aside from his father's and mother's.

it was chenle's voice, he was standing outside.

chenle then leaned forward with his forehead gluing to the door and hand also being placed on it. ❝i don't know if you're in there listening to me, but if you are then i just wanted to say,❞ he first took a deep breath before taking a long pause. he then muttered out after a good minute, ❝i'm sorry.❞

oh, he's listening alright.

listening attentively with tears falling down from his already puffed eyes.

❝i know i was wrong to suddenly bring it up, i shouldn't have done that.❞ the younger chinese bit his bottom lip as he felt his breathing hitch. his nose was itching and he was also this near to breaking down. ❝you were just too much on jisung that i couldn't hold it in. i'm sorry, ge.❞

he was also at fault. chenle was right, he was just too much on jisung. even though he was just worried for his friend, he shouldn't have treated him like that.

the thought of chenle going the same path as him just frightened him badly.

❝i also apologize for coming here without telling you.❞ a bitter chuckle was heard outside, also a sniffle from the person. ❝but not like you read my messages and answer my calls, right?❞

it then reminded him that he had locked his phones at one of the cabinets, which he still had to find out which one.

❝i don't want us to fight like this. donghyuck hyung is also acting strange and it's worrying me.❞ chenle couldn't hold it in and started to sob, ❝both of you are worrying me.❞

he didn't want to hear it, renjun didn't want to hear him cry. he knew he'd easily give in the moment he hears him cry. he might even rush to the door, open it, and pull the younger to a tight embrace.

❝i guess that's all?❞ but chenle wanted to do more. he wanted to open the door, get inside the room, and pounce on to the older chinese. he wanted to hug him tight like there's no tomorrow. he wanted to comfort him all night.

he wanted to be there for him but he didn't want to force the older male if he didn't want to.

closing his eyes to get a grip of himself, the younger chinese now showed a small smile despite of the door blocking him from being seen. ❝ge, if it's getting hard, donghyuck hyung and i are always a call away.❞ he told him. ❝especially me, ge. i'm always waiting for you to call back.❞

chenle first waited if there would be a sound being made inside but after a few more minutes, he then decided to just leave him alone. he might need space. and plus, he would still come back if ever this won't be fixed. for now, he just have to deal with this. at least he got to finally apologize.

moving away from the door, another sigh escaped from his lips before turning to the side and start walking away. he had a frown on his face as he got down to the living room but he was greeted by a tight hug from the pure blooded alpha, holding him tight and hushing him down when he immediately cried on his shoulder.

❝it's alright.. it's fine..❞ jisung mumbled, placing a gentle kiss on top of his head while rubbing his back. ❝you did well.❞

renjun lifted his head up from burying it down on to his knees and he could see how messed up he was looking by the full length mirror right next to his closet. sniffles were still heard from him but even though he was crying, he still stood up from his bed and went to find the cabinet where he hid his phone.

it took him a while to wait because of it lagging from countless of messages and the first thing he did was check on the younger's messages that were filled with apologies, some were simply asking him if he was doing fine for the day.

it made renjun cry even harder.

"fuck—"

but his sobs were being halted when he heard a loud thud coming by window that he just realized it was opened. with eyes widened, renjun took what was near to him, a spoon coming from the plate that was being placed down on his desk, and took small steps around his bed.

only to freeze at what, or who, was laying down there and groaning in pain.

❝i shouldn't have taken chenle's advice in going through the window.❞ the person grumbled, rubbing his bottoms that hurt from the fall.

not noticing the presence that now caught him.

❝j-jaemin?❞

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