Kinn's P.O.V:

I stopped in front of the bar.

"I want to order now" I said in the calmest voice I could manage.

"Get in line" Porsche said.

I didn't move away from the bar counter though.

The girls surrounding him were starting to give me looks.

"Sir...I think you should step aside and go back to your seat you're making the customers uncomfortable" Porsche said.

I sighed heavily and nodded then sat down next to the girl he just kissed.

The girl frowned at me and Porsche sighed heavily.

After some time the girls left and it was just me and Porsche at the counter.

"What do you want to drink?" He asked.

"Those girls...Are you close with them?" I asked.

"That's not a drink" He said.

"Porsche" I said.

He sighed heavily and nodded to himself.

"Yes...I'm close with them...I even slept with some of them" He said shrugging.

I chuckled in disbelief and shook my head.

"Are you for real?" I asked.

"Why would I lie?" He asked raising an eyebrow.

Then reached out to grab a glass.

"Anything else?" He asked.

I sighed heavily and nodded then told him my order.

"Go back Kinn I don't want to see you now" He said.

Then put the glass in front of me.

"You can have that and leave" He said.

"Can't I get another chance?" I asked.

He shook his head.

"You can't turn back time and I'm not stupid to trust you again" He said.

I left the bar after that and went back to the hotel where I was staying.

I showered and slumped on my bed then googled for instructions on how to mend a relationship.

Would it be called a relationship anyway? I mean the only time I told him my feelings was after I raped him...

Damn it...

I didn't find anything useful so I texted him.

"I really don't know how to make you forgive me but I really want to talk to you again...I want to apologise" I wrote down.

But I thought that was too long and sappy so I deleted it.

"Can we talk?" I texted.

Then clicked the send button.

He didn't reply even though the message was read.

PPK blocked your contact.

WHAT THE FUCK?

(A week later)

Porsche's P.O.V:

He came to the bar today too.

I sighed heavily and facepalmed.

I walked out of the bar to throw away the garbage.

And of course...

I closed my eyes and sighed heavily.

"Hey" Kinn said.

I turned and slapped him.

"You really don't know when to give up do you?" I asked angrily.

He pursed his lips into a thin line and nodded.

Then took a step closer to me causing me to take a step back.

"Don't be scared...I won't hurt you" He said.

I got defensive when he walked closer to me so I grabbed his collar and threw him to the ground then straddled his waist and raised my fist ready to punch him.

"Wait wait...I just want to apologise" He said.

I lowered my hand and opened my mouth to say something but he cut me off.

"Just hear me out ok?" He asked.

I didn't stand up but didn't do anything else either.

"The past two months...I really missed you...I missed you so much...I know what I did so I expected that you won't be there by the time I woke up...I didn't mind it though...The past two months I had a lot of time to think about how much I owe you and how much I was wrong" Kinn said.

Then he put his hand on my cheek causing me to flinch.

"I know I did wrong Porsche but I'm really sorry" He said.

I pushed his hand away and stood up.

"I don't know if it's still possible...I'm sorry but you'll have to give me more time...I'm still trying to get over what you did" I said.

"Can't I help at all?" He asked.

Then took both my hands.

"I just want to do better...This time...I promise I won't hurt you anymore" He said.

I shook my head and took a step back causing him to let go of my hands.

"I have to go back now...I still have to work" I said.

Then turned to leave but he put a hand on my shoulder.

I sighed heavily and turned to him again.

"When I was pretending to be blind I remember that I asked you about what you wanted from me...Do you remember?" I asked.

He sighed heavily and nodded.

"At that time you said that you didn't know what you wanted...But you also said that you wanted me to stay by your side" I said.

"Yes...I remember" He said.

"Was this really what you wanted?" I asked.

He shook his head.

"Do you know what you want with me now?" I asked.

"Yes" He said.

I raised an eyebrow.

"And what's that?" I asked.

"I want you to forgive me and give me another chance" He said.

Then put his hand on my shoulder.

"I still don't believe in unconditional kindness...But I really wish you'd show me kindness" He said.

"Why should I?" I asked.

Then pushed his hand away.

"You must be crazy Kinn...Give me one good reason for me to forgive you" I said.

He didn't say anything.

"I would have apologised if you gave me a chance...But you stabbed me and locked me up before I could even explain myself...And I don't want to be locked up anymore" I said.

Then walked past him and went back inside the bar.

(The next day)

Kinn's P.O.V:

I went to Hum bar again.

And waited until Porsche finished his shift.

"Damn it" He said when I stood in front of the bar counter again.

He rolled his eyes and turned to one of the girls.

"Oh...Miss Ying...Did you cut your hair?" He asked smiling.

The girl smiled.

"Attentive as always P'Porsche" She said chuckling.

I rolled my eyes.

"Oh well...I won't be the best tender here if I don't pay attention to the smallest details right?" Porsche asked.

"I want the one I ordered yesterday" I said in an attempt to get his attention.

"Yeah yeah...You can go wait at the table over there and some waiter will eventually notice you" He said brushing me off as he kept smiling at the girl.

I raised an eyebrow.

"So the usual order for miss Ying and to you miss Pan a shaken martini right?" Porsche asked.

They both smiled and nodded.

Porsche started making the drinks.

I decided that this is enough so I slammed my hand on the table.

He looked at me with a raised eyebrow and broke into a smile causing me to frown in confusion.

"Oh...Looks like we have a grumpy customer" He said to one of the two girls.

The girls looked at me waiting.

"Would you please excuse me for a while ladies? I'll be back in a minute" He said.

Then left the counter.

A minute later two bulky security guards pushed me out of the bar as Porsche waved his hand at me from behind them.

Then went back inside as he whistled a song.

I went back home after that and thought about what I should do next.

When I went back to the bar the next day Porsche was nowhere in sight.

"Oh...He took a week off...Why though?" The woman who owned the place asked.

I left without saying anything.

And went to his house.

He was walking over to the house with his brother when I arrived.

They were laughing at something and holding some grocery bags.

"AHHH SHIYA" He yelped in surprise when he saw me.

Porchay glared at me.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing here?" Porsche asked angrily.

I didn't think twice about it before going on my knees and put my head to the ground.

"I'm sorry for everything...I don't know what else I'm supposed to do but...I don't want to lose you so...Just tell me what else I should do" I said.

He didn't say anything so I thought he left but I didn't want to look up and check either.

Porsche's P.O.V:

I pursed my lips into a thin line and nodded.

Then knelt down by his side.

"I'm really sorry" Kinn said in a strained voice.

He dug his fingers in the mud and lowered his head even further.

"Stop...I never told you to do this" I said.

Then put my hands on his shoulders and pulled him up.

And saw that he was crying.

"I'm sorry...I'm really sorry" He said crying.

I opened my mouth to say something.

"I know that you see me as someone disgusting and I don't mind ok? I just want to..." He started.

I sighed heavily and started removing the mud off his forehead.

"Stop being so dramatic" I said.

"I just want you to give me another chance" He said.

"And I want to have more time...Aren't you going to give me that at least?" I asked.

He pursed his lips into a thin line and looked at the floor then shook his head causing me to frown.

"I don't want you to forget about me...I know most of the memories we made together were bad ones but...I want to make better ones...How am I going to do that if you stay away from me?" He asked.

Then leaned his forehead on my shoulder.

"When I said that I didn't want to be alone I really meant what I said...My father is gone...My brothers are both in their own world...If I let you go I really won't have anyone...I'll be all alone I don't want that...I know I was wrong but I didn't know how else to keep you with me" He said.

I felt my shoulder getting wet with his tears.

"You won't leave me too right?" He asked.

"You're not alone Kinn...You have your friends and your brothers and your bodyguards" I said.

Then pulled away from the hug.

"You should go back to your world and I'll go back to mine" I said.

Then stood up.

"This is it Kinn...I don't want to hate you...So just...Stop coming here and go back to who you used to be before we met" I said.

Then me and Porchay walked into the house.

Porchay looked at me waiting so I raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"Do you really mean what you said P'Porsche?" He asked.

I sighed heavily and nodded.

"Yes...It's better if we stay apart...I know now how difficult it is to live in his world...I want to live in peace...And...He's the opposite" I said.

His world is just too cold and now that I was finally out...Why would I ever want to go back?