BAD FOR ME | part 2

「angst」「omegaverse」

top!jeno
bottom!jisung

[in which jisung can't take it anymore and jeno is more than ready to free him]

it had to have been sometime around three in the morning. the apartment complex was dead-silent and the nocturnal creatures were afoot outside. every second that ticked by on the clock was like a huge ringing in every home...and one place in particular had a resident who was very much awake.

jeno, sound asleep, was curled up in a cosy position. his bedroom was pitch-black, just how he liked it. sometimes it was hard to fall into a comfortable slumber when sounds of his soulmate next door suffering rang out...but there was nothing he could do. they had both agreed on that tragic fact.

or, so they had assumed.

on this particular night, jisung decided that enough was enough. every morning was like waking up to his own personal hell, everyday was a long, extended torture. the one breath of fresh air he could find was his real love; lee jeno. of all the situations in the world to be lumped with, an abusive boyfriend simply wasn't fair.

and now, after dizzily backing away from the bathroom sink with blood painting his fingers and his inner thighs, he realised that it was time to go. that evil man would not take the news of a miscarriage lightly...and jisung was terrified. he could feel himself losing the child in his sleep, and it woke him up with horrendous cramps and aches. in the first place, he hadn't even known he was pregnant. it's now or never, he decided.

without packing a bag or even cleaning up properly — only running a wet wipe over his legs — he dashed out of the apartment as quickly and quietly as he could. his nightwear was a basic, oversized shirt along with sweatpants that now had red stains he wasn't bothered to fix.

he knocked softly against the door next to his own at first, wringing his fingers together with anxiety while double checking his 'home' to make sure nobody would emerge. after having knocked on three separate occasions with no response, be nervously did the only thing he could think of.

he picked the lock.

jisung always carried a few hairpins around with him at all times to escape any situation he had concocted through paranoid sleeps and fearful daydreams. the knob finally twisted open and he rushed inside after clicking the door shut. since all the apartments looked relatively the same, he was able to navigate the space quite easily.

jeno was still very much out-cold in his bed when the omega arrived, muscles painful and heart racing. it felt as if he was dying on the inside, though perhaps those emotions came with losing a baby. he wasn't sure, and he hoped he would never have to feel this way again. jeno could fix that.

"mhm," the older yawned when he felt two trembling hands nudge his shoulders. the brunette couldn't help but flinch in case the bluette was mad at him. he knew his soulmate would never hit him...but his cautiousness came from trauma, and trauma wasn't easily solvable.

"j-jen?" he whimpered, only now realising how pathetically weak his own voice was now. hot tears broke free from their boundaries and ran down his cheeks in solemn rivers. the hopelessness he'd put up with for years was suddenly looking less permanent now that he was with someone incredibly special to him. his light in the darkness.

"fuck, jisung? baby, what are you doing here?" he gushed in a low whisper and sat up properly. it was clear he was exhausted, though that was to be expected at this hour.

"i-i want to run away with you....if you want to join me, that is."

"ji...."

"i can't go on like this. i'll die if i have to spend another second in there with him. please save me..."

jeno sucked in a short breath as he considered this whole thing. never once in his entire stay at this complex had he pictured his pretty neighbour running into his room in the dead of night to propose an escape. realistically, if they got caught, kwan would decapitate him and then suffocate jisung. but...if they could pull it off....

"jesus, i'm an idiot," he sighed with some determination before hiffing the sheets off his body and getting up to stand. "you're lucky i love you."

the younger's eyes glittered a bit with excitement now that he could finally enact a fantasy he'd always had. freedom. maybe the tears creating a glassy sheen over his orbs helped with the sparkly look, but he seemed too adorable in that moment to refuse. "should i grab anything?" he ended up asking.

"pull whatever you can from the fridge, love. i'll get some clothes for us and the access to money i have. make sure you don't bring your phone or any form of device that can track where and who you are."

"okay!" he nodded quickly, scampering out of the room in a rush of adrenaline and following the instructions. jeno had to take a moment to really iron this out in his head. he wasn't having second thoughts about saving jisung; he fucking adored his omega. he was more so petrified that he couldn't protect him in a world that was all too unforgiving. let's hope this works out, he gritted his teeth. maybe even his parents could hide them for a while until the storm would pass.

so, getting together a single suitcase of mixed clothes, money and important things like his passport and id for emergency cases, he felt it was now or never. the apartment was so extremely dark he was practically fumbling his way through it, but the adult made it to the door nonetheless. jisung was waiting patiently with his arms stuffed with snacks. "ready?"

"ready."

the bluette unlocked the door swiftly and dragged the case at first, letting his soulmate out and then locking up to seem as normal as possible. the taller went off ahead down the halls, leading them to the stairs where they hurried down and made it to the ground floor. the older's car was parked just outside as it usually was, and god was jeno happy to see it.

"in," he instructed, looking over at the building with concern as he pushed the suitcase into the boot and slammed it closed. then, sliding into the driver's seat, he glanced to the side to see jisung panic-breathing with short, laborious breaths. his cheeks were red now that he could see them, and his eyes were bloodshot from tears. "ji?"

"please get us out of here first. i'll explain later...."

nothing was said further as the shorter got the car into gear and twisted the key with a jerky movement. he looked pretty cool while reversing it and steering them out of the carpark while keeping his focus on the rearview mirror. the brunette found himself to be mesmerised by the alpha...permanently in awe of him.

"where should we go?" jeno enquired now that they had taken off away from the apartment complex and were heading down the main street at a speed a little above the limit. neither could shake the natural feeling of being followed and watched, even though they weren't.

"i-i'm really sorry, jen. i didn't think any of it through, i just....i just ran."

"what sparked this confidence, hm? i've been trying to convince you to leave for a long time...so why now?"

the younger merely looked down at his lap, tugging uselessly at the bloody stains around the thighs. at first the older leapt to the conclusion of self-harm, swerving slightly on the somewhat empty highway and panicking to regain control. the tires shrieked against the tarmac, but there was no harm done. "what the hell? did you do that?"

"huh? oh, no....it's a miscarriage. i didn't even know..."

jeno swallowed thickly at the clarity and couldn't stop staring at the road ahead. his brain was malfunctioning on him, not ready to compute with the fact that a bastard like kwan had gotten his omega pregnant in the first place, as well as caused him enough stress to kill the embryo in the process. it was mind-blowing how stupid and horrible one man could be. "i'm sorry, love..."

"hm? why are you sorry?"

"god, i should've been there. i should've stepped in and stopped it..."

"jeno, please. none of this is your fault. i wouldn't even let you help—"

"but you're my omega, and i'm your alpha! i should've protected you at any cost, but i....i was such a coward. i just watched, a-and listened as he fucking abused you—"

"lee jeno, that's enough! this isn't your fault and it will never be your fault." the tall male placed a comforting hand on his leg and gently gave it a squeeze for reassurance. "i wasn't brave either, okay? this is my life, and i didn't fight for it...not even once. i will now though. i have you in my life...and i can't let you go."

the older pursed his lips to prevent a sob from escaping that was rising in the back of his throat. on the outside he looked perfectly calm, if not a little frustrated. yet on the inside, there was nothing but turmoil eating him up. "i love you."

"i love you too, baby. don't beat yourself up anymore...we've made it. even if tomorrow will be the hardest challenge we'll face, and he comes looking for us....we have tonight. thank you."

the bluette blinked harshly and smiled a soft, forlorn smile. he couldn't believe he'd wound up here...like this. lives were strange things, though somehow he wouldn't change his. the thrill of it. "i'm going to stop by a pharmacy, okay? you need medicine."

"jen, i'll be fine."

"i don't care, i'm getting you some. we could be on the road for weeks...even months. and miscarriages are a big deal, since your emotions are probably all fucked up now. try to get some sleep."

jisung sighed and rested his head back to allow his eyes to flutter. "would you like me to take over the driving once we get to the pharmacy? take turns?"

"i'll be okay. i don't think i'll even be able to sleep, anyway..." jeno reached out and turned on the radio, changing the station a few times before finding a late night channel playing soft, slow music. "relax. i'll wake you."

"okay." jisung curled in on himself and massaged his hips, eyes scrunching tightly since he really hated how sore he was. it was like having a period on steroids. a singular question arose in his mind though, and he simply had to ask. "where are you taking us?"

the blue-haired boy smiled faintly, glancing over to him briefly before looking back at the road. "my parents' place. they're good people, and they'll help us. for now, anyway."

"alright....thank you."

"stop thanking me, love, it's the least i can do for you."

the trip to the twenty-four hour store had been brief and awkward. the pharmacist was dubious about handing heavy-duty painkillers to a young alpha over the counter. it was a bit iffy, but in the end he convinced her with his sob story about his lover and the loss of the baby. he also collected vitamins, iron tablets, and a bottle of body spray to get them through a potentially rough week ahead.

"thanks," jeno had said after receiving a dismissive wave and a 'good luck'.

the car was spacious enough for comfort. jisung was fast asleep in the passenger seat, head resting against the window and legs pulled up to his chest. the older had his hand resting on his omega's thigh while the other steered the wheel. everything seemed so surreal and strange, like he was going to wake up at any minute to an annoying alarm and realise that none of this had happened. that they were both still the same cowards who refused to stand up for themselves and their love.

the bluette didn't want to disturb his family so late in the night — well, early morning. it was getting closer to five now and the sun would eventually make its appearance. so, without needing to contemplate many ideas, he pulled into a small ditch that was out of the way of the country road and parked quietly. the headlights flickered off and left them in total darkness.

it was a little spooky and eery like this, with minimal noise and no way of seeing a thing. jisung stirred in his rest and yawned softly after almost thirty minutes of sleep. the sound of his arms popping when he stretched was actually quite cute, and jeno reached his hand out to feel about until he made it to the male's blacked-out face to cup his cheek. "sleep okay?"

"ngh, meh. i had a few nightmares....but i remembered you were here, so it was fine."

cute, the older thought with a melted heart. he could've listened to this adorable talk all night...but he too needed some sleep. leaning in, he planted a kiss to the boy's forehead since he didn't want to risk searching for his lips in the dark. however, jisung seemed more than adamant about a proper one, so he tilted his chin up and connected their mouths for them.

the alpha's chest tightened at the sensation. even though they'd done this many times before in secret while collecting the mail...this one was different. it was deeper, more heartfelt and passionate. the younger tentatively glided his tongue over jeno's lower lip in hopes of gaining more out of this moment. after all, they'd waited so long for this.

slowly guiding himself to hover over the omega, jeno softly started moving their kiss in such a rhythm that was both heated yet well-paced. their needy tongues clashed and intertwined just to unwrap and go again. the older was erasing all the bad tastes and memories of the past for jisung, replacing them with his own beautiful mark. he would be sure to claim the young adult when the time was right...but not yet. not when he was so disoriented and lost.

"one day," the omega whispered once he parted to breathe a little, "i do want to have a baby. with you though...a cute one that looks like you."

"or like you, love. imagine the squishy cheeks they'd inherit," he teased and pinched the other's face with utter adoration. "and i'd like that too, ji. a baby would be wonderful...when we're older."

"definitely," he agreed, and leaned back up to engage in another make-out. it was now more apparent he found jeno's lips ever so addictive. the alpha didn't mind at all though, and if it was kisses he wanted, then kisses he'd get.

he loved him, and jisung loved jeno back. with this driving them forward, surely fate would work her magic to aid them...even if only a little.

word count: [2560]

here's the part two i mentioned i'd do. jisung and jeno got away, which seems like a nice way to progress the story and leave a bit of thought. i hope you liked it, even if it's a bit angsty~

thanks for reading!
-lily