Pairing : TY x Reader
Genre : Angst

Dedicated to btsloverAori

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“Tears come from the heart and not from the brain.”

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He was her sunshine. He was her star. He meant the world to her.

She was just like any other fan for him.

If life would've been just as simple then it wouldn't have ever happened...

(Taeyong's POV)

"You need to perfect the moves like its a part of you. And do it as smoothly as water." said the choreographer harshly. "It's what they want." They, SM.

"But can't he rest for a little while now–" Yuta was rudely cut off. "THEN ARE YOU READY TO DO IT!?"

He clenched his jaws but said nothing. "It's fine Yuta. You guys go. I'll do it." I said.

The rest of my members gave pitied glances at me. I know they want to help me out of this but they are bound. None of them can do anything. Slowly they all walked away without saying a word.

"Ready? 3 2 1 go!" said the choreographer as he went aside and started the music in full blast. It was 3x faster to improve my speed. I danced with all the energy left in my body. I was exhausted with all this practice. Every single day they make me do it. Less food, more energy tonics to keep me going but I feel like my body can't take it.

"No faster! Flex your limbs better! Come on!" he shouted at me and I flinched. I panted but I went on doing it. I have to do it. For my fans. For my group. They will hate me if I don't. I have to. These thoughts filled my head but little did I know that my body was too tired to cope up with this. Suddenly everything started looking dizzy. My head started hurting as everything went unclear. The choreographer's voice seemed so distant and maybe I had stopped dancing but I felt like my body was still moving.... On its own. Before I knew anything my head seemed to hit the cold floor and everything went black.

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(Y/N's POV)

NCT's Lee Taeyong admitted to the hospital. Health conditions appearing to be very poor. Reports say he was being given IV Drip. SM Manager declines to say anything else. Is his health in risk?

My eyes widened as I read the news and my heart beat sped up. I quickly search about IV Drip side effects.

Side effects –

1. High blood pressure

2. Heart failure

3. Kidney damage

Check more

My heart seemed to stop beating. What have they done to Taeyong? No it can't be true. Please it has to be a bad joke. Taeyong is such a fluff ball, he doesn't deserve this. God what did I ever do to you that you are punishing him like this?? The pictures disturbed me even further and I didn't even realize that I was crying.

Why him? I was beyond scared as I wished for his well being with all my heart. Regarding SM they can be monsters. After what happened with Jonghyun, this news disturbed me so badly.

(Time skip, after 2 days)

I had lost my appetite. All I did was think about Taeyong and how must be be. Funny right? How can I love someone so much when we don't even actually know each other...

Suddenly a new notification came in my phone. I opened it to see –

NCT Lee Taeyong reportedly not recovering well. He would need a heart transplant as soon as possible since his heart has gotten very weak to help him live further.

Anyone willing to donate contact **********
– SM Entertainment

I froze in my spot. Everything became numb. I could not hear or see anything anymore. It was just Taeyong's picture floating in front of me. His smile, his tears. Just him. And those bitter sweet memories of mine... When everyone, even my parents degraded me and I cried and cut myself in the washroom losing all the hope to live, his laughter and smiling face was my saviour. His videos saved my days. When I used to get all depressed, it was his thoughts which kept me going. He was my ray of light. He was my cloud's silver lining. Just to think that he might.... He might....  No. No. I won't let it be. I wipe away my tears as I call the number.

"SM Entertainment." said the other line.

"My name is L/N Y/N. I would like to donate my heart for Lee Taeyong." I said. My voice was shaky. There was a moment of silence on the other side and then the person spoke up again. "Thank you miss. We will save your contact number, please head to ***** hospital by evening. We will first check if everything matches."

I gulped and I kept the phone. Yes Taeyong, I'm doing this for you.

(Time Skip)

When I went to the hospital, I was taken to the ward for check up if I'm fit enough and if my everything matches with Taeyong's.

After a while when everything matched, just the surgery was left to be performed. Suddenly the doctor asked me something. "You don't even know him personally?"

I shook my head.

"Then why... No one else offered to do this..." she said.

I smiled slightly. "I guess I'm too whipped for Lee Taeyong haha." I try to laugh.

The doctor gave me a sad smile. "He is your bias?"

I nod as I look into the empty space. "Not just a bias... My escape."

"Do you want me to convey a message to him?" she said as I look up at her and after a few seconds, I slightly nod.

I was taken to the operation theatre after changing my clothes into the hospital ones. Beside me laid Taeyong – unconscious as I look intently at him. I had never seen him so close and yet it ached my heart to see him like this. Soon I started feeling unconscious as the surgeon injected something in my arm. Taeyong's sleeping face started becoming dizzy until I passed out.

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(Taeyong's POV)

I fluttered my eyes open as I heard a beeping sound beside me. I looked around and recognized that it was a hospital chamber.

"Taeyong hyung you're awake!" said Jungwoo. His voice was hoarse as I saw tear stains on his cheeks.

"How are you feeling? Oh my god we were so worried!" said Taeil hyung.

"But how am I alive?" I said softly. My voice seemed like a ghost as if I hadn't spoke for years. "My heart... How?"

The boys' face looked saddened.

"What tell me!?" I said.

"A girl gave her heart to you." said Jaehyun.

I turned numb for a while. Somebody gave up her heart, her life for me? "Who?" I asked.

Just then the doctor came in. "A girl named L/N Y/N."

I don't even know her... Yet I felt so sad.

"She left you a message." said the doctor and I immediately looked up. "What message?"

Then she played a recording on a tape.

Dear Taeyong,
By the time you will get this message, I would've been probably gone... But I'm very happy because that means, you're now awake with a healthy heart... With my heart. Take care of it hm?

There was a pause.

You are my precious bias and I am feeling so happy to give my heart to you. It always belonged to you. You were my saviour. When the world degraded me, it was your thoughts... Your videos and your pictures that cheered me up and inspired me to live. So it's my duty to make sure you live because perhaps you are many other girls' hope like me. So I gave my heart to you... Which rightfully belongs to you... You were my far fetched dream and I honestly never thought I'll ever get to see you... But I did. Maybe not in the likable ways but hey! You literally have my heart now. I am always with you now!

She chuckled but it broke my heart. How could she love me that much even after we never knew each other?

Taeyong get better soon okay? And please don't work so hard. NCTzens love you and all the boys just the way you are. I swear. So will you promise me to take care of yourself from now on?

The tape ended. Tears escaped my eyes as my left hand went up to my chest and I felt my heart beat. No... Her heart beat. I couldn't speak and even though I never saw her, I felt so much love, respect and gratefulness towards her. Thank you Y/N. Thank you for loving me so much. I sobbed as this heart ached. I sobbed feeling it beat. I will always keep you in my memories Y/N, thank you...

(Time Skip after 1 year)

I did not have to tell the management anything. Before I was about to say, they told me that they will manage our schedules more properly. They did not make me work that hard. And as a matter of fact my life... All the boys' life became much better... All thanks to Y/N.

I visited her grave every Sunday with a rose. Again today I walked to where her graveyard was and knelt down as I kept a rose on the stone slab. There was a beautiful picture of the girl who saved me. She was smiling so brightly. She was now my sunshine. "I love you... Thank you Y/N." I whispered as I felt her heart beat in me.

Y/N... Perhaps you were my far fetched dream too... I just did not know... But yes, now you are always gonna be with me. Always going to be there for me when I need someone.

A/N : I am so upset about Taeyong's health!! ( TДT)

Even though he is not bias but still, this is so not done. SM should be screwed for making him go through this. Just give him and NCT 127 some rest!

Prepare for Dream come back or EXO but just leave 127 alone! Let Taeyong be! I wish for his speedy recovery and I hope SM doesn't screw up any further :"((