After two weeks of confinement, I'm glad to announce that I've fully recovered. Being bed ridden was no joke. If I were to go another week staying in bed all day, I would have been paralyzed. Yeah sure it's nice to be a sloth or a koala and stick to one spot barely moving but no, it is better to be up and about like a cheetah.

It was my last day free before heading back to work tomorrow. Taehyung is aware of it but hey it doesn't hurt to maybe stop by during lunchtime and give him a surprise. My plan for today was to spend time with the twins since I haven't got the chance to do so or even give them a proper thank you lunch for saving us. My gratitude towards them will never change till infinity. If they hadn't saved our asses, things would have been totally different.

Let me clear things up on a couple of things as I make my way to the twins apartment.

Recently, it hit me. The topic about my dad. I haven't been thinking about it for long. No. Years actually. Ever since mum's death, never once did he stumble upon my mind. I respected my mum when she mentioned it's better not knowing anything about my dad. However, the same question kept lingering in my head the moment Tae popped the question about my dad.

What has he done? What is it that mum doesn't want me to know? What does she mean by 'It's better not knowing'?

It's not as though I was a little kid. I was at in adolescence years. I'm mature enough to accept the truth. Whatever it may be. Good or bad. He is my dad and as his son, I've the right to know. Growing up with a dad felt different. When I was little and they have a parent-teacher conference, everyone would bring both their parents whilst I only went with mum. Not that I don't appreciate it, I do of course. Guess it would've been cooler if I were to have dad there as well.

Once there was a 'Bring your Dad to school' day but I couldn't bring mine. So I substituted him with my uncle instead. I felt upset and slightly embarrassed but what was I supposed to do, huh? I was only 11 back then. Everyone showing off how proud they are to have their daddies by their side, some dads even dressed up as their kid's favorite superhero. I find it heartwarming but mum taught me to appreciate what we have and to let go of what we don't. Thus, that's what I did.

I accept the things I've no control of and I took the courage to change the things I can. To have the wisdom to know the difference. You can say I'm a pretty spiritual person. Reason why I hated it when Tae was sexual thirsty in the beginning. I know I am too when I'm joking with him but to be frank, that's all there is to it.

If you were to ask me what are my relationship goals? Sex would definitely be at the bottom of the list. You might think I'm lying but no. First, I admire how strong Taehyung is even after what happened to him before. Sexual abuse is no joke. Worst case scenario, it was someone related. Second, don't you think people treat sex very lightly nowadays? Teen girls losing their virginity. They are so proud, people even created a tv show on MTV called 16 and pregnant. Why not make a reality tv show saying 16 and successful? 16 and beautiful? 16 and a genius?

Tell me I'm wrong. Titles like 16 and pregnant attracted your attention doesn't it? And then you'll go like 'What a whore' '16 and pregnant? Eww' it got your attention only to criticize the person? This is how sick the world has become. Taehyung taught me that in the media world. The title plays a part too. Take this book for example. Naughty. I bet you expect lots of kinky stuff to happen yeah?

Admit it. A good titled intrigues you doesn't it? It piqued your attention especially if it has an interesting cover and a good summary. Yet when you explored the content and you noticed how it's different than the title or it doesn't meet your expectations, you'll stop reading it don't you?

Yes titles can be misleading but let me ask you, do you continue to read or watch something only cause you expect sex to be in it or do you read because you wish to know the deeper depths of the story and what morals it can teach you? They say every story has a moral. Are you in it for that or do you get bored the moment you see the story doesn't meet your expectation? Which arises the next question, if you already read it halfway then why stop? The middle is where every story climaxes. Be it in any genre.

The only difference is for each author or director, they personally have their own approach of things. How the story would flow, where the plot twist should occur so on so fourth. It's amazing how at the end of it all, the story unfolds perfectly.

Please excuse naggy me today. The trip to the twins apartment is long and I decided to take a bus because I miss it. I love long bus rides. Muffle my ears with music and admire the scenery. As I was saying, I wish people don't regard sex lightly. Ladies especially. Sadly in this era, the ladies are asking for it.

Trust me you'll be surprised at how desperate some can be especially if their well.. Their locks are loose. Or more inappropriately, their holes. Once it's loose, it's easier to slide in. Thus less pain is inflicted, pleasure arises causing the man to be exhausted while the woman gain the best orgasm they can ever experience. To those who still haven't got it broken, please place a RESERVED sign on your vagina and save it for your husband, yeah? It's worth it.

Let me trace back to my main question.

What are my relationship goals?

Trust, communication and loyalty.

Those three are the major qualities. Honestly, I don't have such high expectations. Put on Netflix, pizza and a tub of ice cream with the person I love. That's enough. That's what Tae and I usually do. Reason why we are always at his apartment. And of course in the middle we will have our snuggly-cuddly session, our heart to heart talks.

Simple.

That's how I like it.

We seldom meet outside as we will attract the paparazzi who is trying to get their latest gossip scoop. I see them as irritating flies that needs to be swat away. Being a partner of a celebrity is hard. Gossips, rumors spread like wildfire. This is why Tae mentioned being with him may be difficult. But I believe we will overcome every obstacle through thick and thin. Nothing is impossible.

Like Nike said: Just do it

***

"I brought pizzaaaaaa" I exclaimed the moment I went in the apartment of my two precious best friends, Danna and Alana. Their apartment is a pastel shade of yellow and blue. Pastel yellow to represent the soft sand while baby blue represent the clear blue sea. Yes they love beaches. Not bitches. Painting it this shade of color make them feel serenity. Like their personal sanctuary.

"You're finally here!" Both of them attacked me. Messing up my hair and stretching my cheeks as though it is flour. "Okay okay I know you miss me. I miss you guys too!"

The three of us each plopped down on a bean bag chair and started munching on pizza. "Sooo how are things between Tae and you?"

"It's been great! He's lovely as ever. I wish we could stay together for as long as possible"

"Hey don't say that" Alana lightly punched his shoulder. "You should be confident you two would be together forever! Right, Danna?"

"Yes together forever!" She stood up to do a star jump like a cheerleader and clumsily dropped down to the bean bag chair.

We catch up on various of things. Life, the society, family, friends, work. We talked so much I didn't even realize it's been four hours since I've been here. My phone vibrated. It was a call from Taehyung.

"Excuse me, guys. Got a call from him"

"Say hi to him for us!"

I nodded and headed to the corner to answer his call with a wide smile on my face.

Hey babe!

Hey, love!

I just wanna say thank you for the lunch you sent me earlier on. It was delicious!

Huh? But it's my last day off remember?

Yeah I know. You're so thoughtful to come down to my workplace

But Tae-

And that kiss, damn was it nice

Whaa- Tae listen..

Sorry babe I got a meeting to attend. Just wanna say thank you for being such a sweetheart. I love you!

- Call Ended -

"I love you too" I mumbled as I stared blankly at my phone screen.

"You didn't say hi to him for us"

My hearing was blurred.

Lunch? Tae's workplace? Kiss?

"Dude, you okay? What did he say?"

"He said thanks for lunch and the kiss was hot"

"But you're with us the whole time"

"Exactly" I sighed.

Being the analytic one, Alana had a thought in mind. "Jungkook, do you by chance have a twin?"

"That's impossible. I only have an older sister"

"Nothing is impossible"

"So you're saying I've a twin?"

Assuming she's right, she nodded.

"Now I know what Tae meant when he said this might be worse than Eric"

"Whys that?"

"Because the enemy looks like the man he loves and he doesn't have the slightest clue"

"You should tell him" they suggested.

"I can't if I can't prove it" I ruffled my hair, frustrated. "He even managed to kiss him without any suspicions! Ah fuck this. He kissed the man I love. He kissed him!" I started to prance frantically back and fourth.

"Hey calm down so you can think straight"

"I'm sorry" I breathe out as calmly as I can.

Just then I received a text from Taehyung.

From: Scrumdiddlyumptious<3
You're really such a sweetheart, aren't cha? My secretary said you went back again only to leave a box of my favorite chocolates!<3
17:05pm

I showed the text to the twins who had a look of sympathy towards me. 

"How do you convince someone you love that the person he sees isn't you but to him it is you..."