Your heavy eyelids open slowly at the sound of your entrance door open. You begin to gasp for breath, pulling your arm up to your neck in scarce. But as you did so, a sharp pain strikes you. Struggling to breathe fresh air, you then look around and see your room. Your heartbeat was unsteady as you look down at your body slowly. You were on your bed, bare naked. Red marks of hands were completely around your body. Your thighs, hips, belly, arms. The worse you could see was your breasts. Your nipples were almost purple with almost wine red marks around it. Which you knew well that were going to become bruises.

     Tears begin to fall down as you felt your entire body ache. Your eyes twitch as you once again look down at your legs, tracing everything and making it hurt even more.

     "You should take care of your coat hanger more." You hear Kakashi's voice in a distance, making you jump instantly. Your mouth quivers as you begin to remember what was just happening, feeling like minutes ago. Flashes of the memories hit you so hard your head hurts.

     Your sight was blurry during the whole chaos, but you could still see the man thrusting his hips against you. But there was nothing you could have done. You were in another world, very far which you couldn't come back from in that instant. How much he was hurting you was terrible. Tears were streaming down your cheeks during the whole thing, even though your face was completely steady and dull. As if he were doing a dead body. You couldn't move at all either. But how he was enjoying himself.

     "Oh you feel so damn good, just as I expected!" You heard him say, but couldn't respond. As you remember it, you just wish to spit on his face more than anything. You wanted to help him! How could he do such a thing? You also remember his hand around your neck in a moment as well. With each thrust, he'd hit it against the wall.

     You shut your eyes tight, leaving salty liquid to stain your cheeks. Using a small bit of force, you now feel your neck hurt. Your hand moves up slowly to the back of your head, trembling intensely, and you feel the big bump on it.

     Kakashi was speaking in the distance, but you could barely hear him. "That food looks amazing." He says before you spot him in front of your room's door. His head was on the bag, opening it and searching through it. "It's 1:00 in the morning, I'm sorry (Y/N). You didn't respond my messages or calls-" his voice stops once he lifted his head and saw you completely. You then notice the pain in your eye, which was swollen purple. His voice looks caught in his throat before he walks to you slowly. His arms stretch themselves towards you and your lip quivers as you cried loudly. Your throat feeling dry as you wail. "Sweetheart, can I touch you?" He asks you but the image of it scares you terribly. Even his breathing is giving you chills down your spine. You shake your head as you sit up, no matter the pain.

     "Kakashi...it was terrible... I-I-I offered him help and this is what I get! I just... I just wanted to help... I was even going to let him take some of my tape for his windows for this fucking typhoon but..." your voice stays stuck in your throat. The words just can't come out of your lips.

     I was raped.

     It was too difficult. It sounds underrated, but it was not. The experience would scarce you for life. And now because of it, would you ever be able to touch Kakashi? Like that or normally?

     "Who?" He growls, already knowing exactly what happened. You could tell he wanted to embrace you more than anything right now, but you knew that if you let him, you would scream. And it would hurt very much with your dry throat and soon-to-be bruised neck.

     "I-I-I, I don't... I don't want to say his name." You breathe out as you whimper. Even your scalp was hurting, due to the hair pulling. You couldn't bare to say the name of that man. "Everything hurts Kakashi..."

     "I bet baby. Let's use the full bath. I'm gonna put ice in it and you're gonna sweep in. Stay here while I prepare it." He says before he struggles with his actions. He was just about to kiss your forehead, forgetting that he couldn't touch you. And you instantly nudge back with your eyes wide terrified. He looks down and shake his head, disappointed in himself, before he left the room for just a moment. You stand up and wince at your body. Once you do, you notice your fingers bleeding, at the end of your nails. Most of the bruises that were all over you was due to the fighting.

     When Kit was climaxing on you, you were regaining consciousness slowly, beginning to pull away from him weakly at first but then with more force. Stabbing your nails down on him. "Stop it you stupid girl!" And that was where you got your black eye, causing you to pass out completely once again.

     You arrive at the bathroom, and step in the tub, taking a deep breath at the already cold water, that didn't have the ice. Grabbing on it's sides, you move your body down slowly until your body soon was fully covered. You could see the water working it's magic with the blood on your fingers, pulling away at it slowly. Soon after, your lover enters with a towel on his shoulder and a bucket full of ice. He hovers over you and your teeth shake at the distance he was at. He bends down slowly and puts the bucket in place, ready to pour it.

     "I'm going to count to three and pour. Are you ready?" He asks, his voice unsteady against his words. You nod. As he did so, you then begin to think how this must have been driving him crazy. Taking care of you first before feeding the bastard a mouthful of punches. But he knew he had to work with you first. Yet also knew that the idiot would flee most likely by the time he heads to his door.

     "Do you think he's gonna run away?" You ask as he pours the ice in after counting.

     "I do. But he couldn't go far with this typhoon entering at 4:00 am."

     "I don't know how long I've been out... When did I send you the last text message?" You ask him, not sure if you really wanted to know the answer.

     "9:42 pm. And it was 1:00 am when I arrived," he says, his throat tensing as he went to sit on the floor next to the tub. "And I arrived too late." Kakashi whispers, but you could hear it clearly. The water begins to take effect from the ice, causing your body to shiver soon. But you knew it was necessary for all of your bruises and cuts and marks.

     "I had just awoken when you arrived. About three hours or so." Slips out of your lips as you hear Kakashi's impatient foot, tapping the floor. "I have no one to share this burden with except you." You say slowly, having another tear fall. All you wanted right now was your mother's embrace. Her touch would startle you at first, but you knew that you could bare it. A hug from her would take away all anxieties. Sadly, you probably wouldn't have tolerated your father's touch, for being a man just like your rapist.

     "And I will take this burden as if it were my own, whether I or you like it or not. I'm here, my love." He says but sadly, it wasn't going to be enough for you. You couldn't see yourself sharing this with your only trustworthy female friend Hinata. Feeling as if she'd look at you different. Right now, your only friend has become insecurity.

     With all the pain coursing through your heart, the bitter coldness didn't matter at all for you. Not even shivering were you. "I would take this cold any day before what that man just did. It was utterly horrible." You turn to Kakashi, showing him the aching truth with your eyes. Or more like eye. You could barely open the purple one.

     Could this be the end of your world? Was going through your head. Things were just beginning in your life. You were going to be free on the streets with your lover, soon to graduate and go to college and be a fantastic writer. But now it is all ruined.

     "Can I hold your hand?" Kakashi asks you. But all you could do was stare at his now open palm. The trust between you two needs to be repaired, and it was the first step towards your healing.

     But to you, healing didn't exist in your vocabulary anymore. And it possibly never will again.

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RED QUEEN IS A REAL BOOK GUYS, you should read it. Absolutely amazing 💗💗💗. Along with Three Dark Crowns. Ugh I'm such a geek. Bye bye.

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