Requested by MiaHyuuga

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(Y/n)'s POV

I have experienced a lot in my whole life.

I have seen a lot of things.

I have felt everything.

My dream from a young age was to become a strong ninja. Someone that everyone would respect and admire. Someone strong that would fight for everyone and everything. Someone that would be remembered by everyone.

Through the years I trained hard, I studied hard and I fought hard. Before I knew it I was strong. Strong enough to go out and carry out some difficult missions or even go to the war. I was an excellent fighter. The best among thousands.

At the beginning I was fighting beside my teacher and teammates, but I lost them too early. They died fighting and protecting each other. I wasn't able to save them. I wasn't, because I was with another team away at that time. I was too far away to even try and do something. They died as heroes. They died happy, knowing that I was left behind to carry out their dreams, to carry their will.

Through the years I changed a lot of teams and teammates. No one was strong enough to bear my plans and ideas. I needed strong teammates. Teammates that wouldn't let me down. And I got what I was searching for when I entered the Ambu. Hiruzen, the Third Hokage, put me there when I turned 18 thinking that it was time for me to settle somewhere. My teammates there where very strong, almost at my level. I immediately found myself liking that team. I felt that I belonged there.

The team's leader was Kakashi Hatake. He was the strongest and the most experienced one, since he was longer in the Ambu from the rest of the team. Most of the time he was quiet, but when we were out at the battlefield he showed everyone that fear wasn't an option. I admired him a lot about that. He was something like my idol. A person that I looked up for his courage and braveness.

He had passed through so many situations and yet, he didn't quit from protecting the village. He didn't quit his dreams nor turned to the darkness. Kakashi was the only person that despite the hate and the unfairness he was getting from everyone and everything, he didn't think once to take revenge. He didn't think once to turn his back on his home. He didn't, because this was the place he belonged to.

I have caught many times myself staring at him or admiring how wise he talks. I enjoyed every conversation I had with him. I can talk with him about everything. Explain the most unexplained things. He just knows what conversation to start and when. I never understood how he does it, but I don't think I need to learn either.

"There is no time like the present. I guess."

I think those were the most wise words I have ever heard from him. This phrase taught me that you need to treasure the present more than anything. You need to, because in the world we live in, with the dangerous missions we are dealing with every day, we don't know if we will be alive the next day.

However, I never did really treasure my days. Not those that I passed with him at least. I regret that so much. I regret it so much that I didn't pay more attention to him, to us. I hate myself for being a coward.

"To know what's is right and choose to ignore it is the act of a coward."

Wise words like always. Words with so much meaning. Yet, I was so stupid to understand them entirely when I had the chance. I was such a coward.

I always knew what I should do. I always knew that I had to act before it was too late, before I ended up where I am now. Yet, I never had the courage. I never was brave enough to say what I really wanted to. I never spoke the truth.

So here I am now. Standing in the middle of the battlefield, in the middle of a bloody hell. Dead bodies everywhere from the fight that ended. Dead bodies from both sides in an attempt to take and protect. Dead bodies everywhere including my team's.

It wasn't supposed to turn out like this. It wasn't supposed to be dangerous. We were supposed to give a scroll to Suna. We were supposed to go there safe and sound. We were supposed to be alive. So why did things have to turn out like this? Why?

-"(Y/n)... Stop crying."

A soft, yet weak voice said to me. I lift my head from his chest looking in his black and red eyes that I have come to love. Tears were running on my cheeks as I couldn't hold them back anymore. My hands pressing with all the power I had on his wound that was on his stomach, in an attempt to stop the blood that was coming out of it.

-"It wasn't supposed to be like this." I managed to say through my tears and fast breaths.

A soft smile was visible under his mask as his eyes looked at me lovingly. I hated that I was crying in front of the man that I respected and loved more than anyone. Yet, I couldn't bring myself to stop. I couldn't hold back my feelings.

-"Life is unexpected (Y/n)."

-"But.... But..."

He lift his hand bringing it to my cheek. He gently wiped off my tears as I closed my eyes enjoying his touch. I was enjoying the last moments we were passing together. I was feeling everything I have felt for him all those years.

-"Kakashi don't die." I begged him trying not to cry again.

-"Don't be a coward (Y/n)... Accept things as they are."

I hated myself so much for not being a medical ninja. I hated myself so much for not being able to protect him. I hated myself for letting the man of my life to die.

-"I don't want to lose you Kakashi. I love you." I said as tears started falling again from my eyes.

-"I know... I do the same." he said with a soft smile.
-"Sorry for not telling you earlier... I though I had time."

I was looking at him shocked as the tears continued falling. I was looking at him speechless. I was afraid all those years that he may reject my feelings, that he won't like me back. And here we are now. Both confessing to each other our feelings, but with no road to start on. We confessed, but that was already the end of everything we had.

-"No no no! It wasn't supposed to be like that!" I shout as I cried more and more.

-"Forgive me... (Y/n)."

Suddenly his hand fell from my cheek. My eyes widen scared as I put my head on his chest trying to find a heart beat, but I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't feel his body warm nor feel his soft touch on me.

He was dead.

-"Kakashi!"

Things wasn't supposed to turn like this. No, they weren't. But I couldn't do anything to change them. I couldn't accept them. Not without him missing from my side.

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The end.