Lucy-
I kept my head in my notes as our teacher gave us information and techniques on how to sharpen our skills. I flipped over the page and glanced over at Natsu who was taking a nap in the desk beside me. I rolled my eyes and went back to taking notes.
"If you ever are taken hostage you need to remain calm and remember these three rules," Mrs Bisca said writing on the whiteboard.
After we had lunch we were dismissed into our assignments with our partners.
I read our assignment over and over, the school had a system of teaching for two weeks and then they sent us on a mission with different amounts of time.
Our next one would be at an underground fight club.
So not only did we need to learn how to act and what to expect from the people watching the fight. We needed to also figure out how to get to the ring.
"So our target is a fighter, how are we going to get to her?" Natsu asked reading the files they gave us.
"Well I could join the fight club and go up against her," I offered.
"Isn't that dangerous?" Natsu looked up at me.
"You're asking someone who's life has been devoted to fighting and killing people if fighting a few people to get to a target is dangerous? I think I can handle myself" I snorted.
"Yeah, you're right about that, but that doesn't mean I won't worry about you," Natsu winked at me and I had to duck my head into the file to stop myself from blushing.
"Yeah whatever," I mumbled into the book.
"With all seriousness, how would we get you into the boxing match?" He asked raising an eyebrow.
"Don't worry about that, that's for the school to figure out ," I said composing myself before I placed the folder down.
"Okay, so what will I do?" Natsu asked.
"I mean, you can try to get close to the fighters team, get as much intel as we can out of them." I advised.
"So... you want to fight and I'll be what? The poster boyfriend looking around?" Natsu asked leaning towards me to read over my shoulder he touched my shoulder while looking at the file.
He's getting too close I can smell his calone, I should close the file and hit him in his sternum to stop him from breathing and then I can use the calone to make it look like he had a bad reaction to it, or I could pull out my knife on him and-
I slammed the file on the table, I shot up and squeezed my eyes shut,"stop stop stop stop, he's good, stop," I repeated staring at the file shaking.
"Not like him not like him,"
"Lucy are you okay?!" Natsu stood up and I shoved him away.
I kept my arm extended from pushing him and calmed my breathing and my pulse.
"Water, I need soap and water," I said still staring at the file.
"Okay..." Natsu sounded hesitant and I heard him shuffle away.
I squeezed my eyes shut, I didn't need this, I'm strong, I don't need to be going through this right now. I don't want to feel this rn.
"Lucy," Natsu whispered.
I looked up and grabbed the bowl of water I set it down and washed my hands, I washed my palms then the backs of my hands, my fingers, and my nails. I did it five times until I let myself look up at Natsu.
"I'm mentally unstable." I looked at my hands. "My father used to squirt the calone as a sent for me to know when I needed to kill someone, he used it because my mother didn't want me to be an assassin, so by using it, mom wouldn't know... he loved her so much, but me? He used me as a tool... I thought I had gotten over this...," I tremmbled sitting down hiding my face with my hands.
"It's true, I am heartless,"
Natsu shuffled and I caught a smell of my perfume, I looked up and he was putting on the sweatshirt I had placed on the table. He crouched down and pulled me into him.
"That is far from the truth Lucy." He said running his hands through my hair.
"Do you really think you're heartless?" Natsu asked me.
I let the silence answer me.
He sighed," you're not,"
"I-iii- I started playing how I would kill you before I knew what was happening, I was going to use the file to knock the wind out of you... Natsu I couldn't stop the thoughts," I said breathing shakily.
I expected him to pull me off of him, to leave, but he didn't, he stayed comforting me.
"But you didn't," he responded, I could hear the smile in his voice.
"But I could have," I responded.
He pulled me in closer," I would prefer you over anyone else Lucy,"
I paused and wiped my tears, I looked around and was relieved that even though we were in a public space no one was around.
I pulled my legs in closer and I let my body relax onto Natsu.
He kissed my head and I stiffened up again.
"No pda,"
I glanced up to see Lisanna bright pink.
"Buzz off Lisanna, I don't feel like beating you up right now," I switched back into my heartless persona.
"I'm just telling you what every one was thinking," Lisanna muttered.
"What do you mean? We're the only ones here." Natsu scowled.
"Yeah but that's what others would think," Lisanna softened when Natsu talked.
"Lisanna, we used to be friends but if you keep this whole annoying kid act then I am not going to talk to you.," he snapped.
"Oh I didn't know I came off that way," Lisanna turned redder.
"Will you leave us alone now?" He asked sounding exhausted.
"Yeah I'm sorry, " she whispered.
Once she was gone Natsu and I sat in silence. It was a peaceful silence that made you feel safe and calm. If my brain was this quiet all the time, I would be much happier. A few minutes drifted into an hour and I fell asleep.