Flashback!!!(only 1 though)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

🔑Lucy's P.O.V🔑

"Great Lucy! Just great! Why do you keep hurting the person who loves you?! Why can't you do anything right?! Why?!"

I was covered in blood. My blades were everywhere and I had broken glass everywhere on the floor.

"He loves you so much, yet you have to go and hurt him! You put you life trust on him, and you hurt him, so now he probably hates me! He'll never talk to me again and I'll be lonely again! Just like I always have been! Stupid idiot! Lucky Lucy Heartfilia! Lucky Lucy Heartfilia! Hurting all the people who have feelings for ya!"

I rolled in the glass, piercing into her body. The blades slicing through my skin, veins, and flesh until I felt my bone. Then I'd move to a new spot.

"I'm an idiot!"(Book 1, I WANT NATSU!!)

I shot up straight from my bed. I was sweaty and panting. Natsu looked startled in his seat next to me.

"I did that." I muttered.

"Did what? Lucy? Are you OK?" He asked, leaning over to me as I stared at my hands. I pulled up my sleeves and saw the scars I had left. Something was going on in my mind!

A color. An important color. I saw it all of the time, yet what was it?!

I looked around the room and my eyes locked on Natsu's hair.

"You're hair. It's-" I started. My mind trailed off into memories that I had forgotten. Everything pink, salmon, or a close shade of red was now colored in the black and white memory background. I could remember someone with salmon hair. It had to be Natsu, but I don't know him! But I do!

Dragneel. Salmon. Love. Remember. Forget.

Would you rather remember your love, but forget your moments together, or forget your love and remember everything you did with them?

Why can't I have both? Is it Natsu I love? But how?

How could I ever love someone I the first place?

And why do I love the color Salmon?

I thought I loved red, not Salmon