"How is Kemankes?" I asked Nur while I was walking nervously in my chambers waiting for the news. He was shot while I was in my mother in Vakuf. I sent her to see how is he doing and I would never forgive myself if something bad happened to him because of me. I knew arrow was pointed to my mother but at that moment we switched the places and it would have shoot me, and if there was no Kemankes maybe I would be the one fighting for life today.

"Haci Agha didn't allow me to see what is happening. Doctors are still with him and no one can know anything yet," Nur said and I couldn't help myself but to blame myself for this. If something would happen to Kemankes I would never forgive myself and I didn't want him to be hurt. I just wanted for him to recover because I gained so much emotions towards this man and I would rather wish them to shoot me than to shot him.

"What will I do if he doesn't recover?" I asked myself but on loud as I couldn't hide my emotions anymore. For the first time in my life I've felt emotions for someone and just now I can't lose that person.

"He will recover, Sultana. I am sure everything will be fine," Nur said as she wanted to make me feel better, but nothing would feel better until I would see him standing strong on his legs again.

"Valide Sultan, I saw Nur Hatun going to check on Kemankes Pasha, but I didn't allow her to. Obviously Naime Sultan has sent her," Haci Agha informed Kosem who was very nervous about Kemankes. She walked around her chambers, and in that moment both mother and daughter were worried over the same man they knew he was shoot because he was going to save them.

"Why does Naime care so much about Kemankes? I don't get it," Kosem hissed at Haci as it was the easiest for her to let all of her anger on him or some of her maids.

"Sultanim, she would be shot if Kemankes Pasha wasn't there. Obviously she is very thankful for him for saving her-," Haci started to say but Kosem stopped him. He hasn't seen her so nervous in a very long time and he was concerned why would Valide Sultan be so nervous about Kemankes.

"Naime started involving too much into my business, I don't like what is she doing and she shouldn't pretend to be so nice towards him when she obviously has some plans towards him," Kosem said and Haci was more and more surprised with each her word.

"Sultanim, I don't want to be rude, but if anyone would hear you speaking like this they would think you are in love with Pasha," Haci barely could say of shame but he cared for Valide Sultan and didn't want to let her in trouble, because if Murad would find out about this he would banish her somewhere so far away and would never forget her.

"Enough, Haci! Leave my chambers and don't come here again until you stop thinking about those nonsenses! I am Valide Sultan and he is Grand Vizier and I care for people who serve me and are loyal to me," Kosem yelled on him and escorted him from her chambers staying all alone by herself.

"Naime, I came here when I heard what happened. I hope Kemankes will be fine," Gevherhan said as she entered my chambers and gave me warm hug. She was the only one who would understand my pain and she was the sister I loved the most.

"I am so afraid Gevherhan. What if he doesn't recover from this?" I asked her as my eyes were covered in tears and I didn't want to show my emotions to no one, but to her because in front of her I could be my true myself.

"He will be fine, I know it. Doctors left his chambers but they haven't said anything, but I saw my mother escorted Haci and was yelling on him. I don't know what happened to her," Gevherhan said and this was everything so suspicious to me, but in moments like those when only man I ever cared about was in this condition, I couldn't occupy my mind with other things.

"Sultanim! Kemankes Pasha is awake!" Amber said as he entered my chambers not knowing also Gevherhan is inside, but it didn't matter since she knew all of this. I stood up with excitement and immediately went to the chambers in ambulance where he was, not caring what would happen after this and if anyone would see me, because I cared for him.

Gevherhan has followed me and I saw Haci Agha being in front of the ambulance asking the doctors about Kemankes. He bowed to me, but haven't said a word and I entered the chambers.

I came inside and I saw Kemankes laying on the bed while he was covered with a blanket on a place where he was shoot. Doctors successfully made operation to take the arrow out so he could recover.

"Kemankes, are you fine now?" I asked him as I sat beside the bed where he was laying. He wanted to sit but I stopped him from that because he shouldn't exhaust himself in the moments like those.

"I am fine now that I see you, my Sultanim, it was easier for me to take the arrow than to see you being shot," he said and gave me a smile which was weak because he was also weak.

"I prayed for you and I couldn't allow myself for something to happen to you, I would always blame myself for that," I said as I took his hand into mine finally feeling relaxed because he was fine.

"You were in my mind, and that's why I am fine now. But I would even again take the arrow or the bullet just for you, because I wouldn't want you to be hurt," he said and smiled to me as he took my hand. At that moment someone entered the room and I turned around to see my mother entering and standing being shocked. She didn't seem happy to see me here.

"Naime, leave to your chambers I have to talk to Kemankes," Valide said seriously to me. I was honestly done with her orders since I wasn't a little child anymore.

"Valide-" I wanted to say something but she didn't allow me even to continue my sentence.

"I said it, we have to discuss something and you have to leave now," she said and I just sighed. I had no will to fight with her now especially not in front of Kemankes, I looked at him once again and he gave me smile which was most important to me, and then I left the chambers.

But I didn't close the door so I could see what my mother actually had to discuss because I had some suspicion on her. I continued to stand on the doors while no one else was around because Kosem didn't allow anyone to be close to the room where she was doing something important.

"I am glad you are fine now Kemankes, but I didn't know why would you risk yourself and putting yourself in front of Naime to save her. You are Grand Vizier and you must protect yourself, there were other men who could run and save her and someone would do it. What would we do if we lost you?" Kosem asked Kemankes as she sat on the bed on the place where Naime was sitting.

"It is my duty not only being Grand Vizier but protecting the Imperial Family. No one saw the arrow was going towards her and if something would happen to Sultana I couldn't live peacefully after that," Kemankes said and as I was listening I couldn't believe how my mother would wish more if I was hurt.

"I see you care too much of her in the last time. There is no need for that, you should focus on your duty because if you ignore your duty you could stay without it," Kosem said with a serious voice as she was kind of jealous of Kemankes behaved to Naime, and even though as Valide Sultana she could never again have any man, she didn't want Kemankes to have anyone else and to be her loyal puppet.

"Sultanim, I don't know why are you being so harsh on your daughter when she has done nothing to you," Kemankes said being actually worried why would Kosem behave like this towards her daughter.

"I am not harsh on her, I love her equally as all my children. All I say is that she is too much going around you and she should better focus on her engagement which will take place soon, and Murad still has to say who will be her husband. But I guess it will be Silahtar or Deli Huseyin," Kosem said on purpose as she wanted to see if Kemankes actually gained some emotions towards Naime.

But, as Kemankes was serious man and a warrior he would never say anything that he shouldn't in front of someone else. But, deep in his heart Kosem's words hurt him because he couldn't imagine Sultan Murad would actually do this to Naime and marry her for another man.

He didn't say even a word to Kosem as he didn't want to show what he feels in this moment. But Kosem did what was her purpose, she hurt him on purpose and thought this way maybe he would change his opinion towards Naime.

I left back to my chambers finally realising what my mother actually was like. I couldn't believe my mother would be so possessive over Kemankes and would do whatever is needed to stop him from marrying me, even if that would mean blame me on everything and tell dirty lies about me. I knew if she continued to do this, I would say everything to Murad. I didn't care if she was my mother, as Valide Sultan she can't have any kind of emotions towards none other man beside our late father Sultan Ahmed Khan.

"Sultanim, Sultan Murad has called for you," Haci Agha said as he entered my chambers and it was weird for me why would he tell that to me. But I guess since Murad also had respected him it didn't mind who he sends.

I started walking towards Murad's chambers, but Haci stopped me.

"He didn't call you to chambers but to Gardens, he is there and wants to meet you with someone," Haci said and at first moment that was weird to me, but I knew Murad's personality changes every quick and often so I thought he maybe decided to spend the time outside.

We came to the gardens and there was no one. Haci said to me Murad would come every second and I stayed there waiting for Murad, while Haci left because he had some businesses. At that moment I saw a young man walking towards me and very soon I recognised it was Deli Huseyin and I didn't know what is he doing here.

"Sultanim, you have called for me?" He said as he bowed to me and stood in front of me.

"I haven't called you, I was supposed to meet Murad here?" I said as I was confused with everything that happened.

"No, Sultanim, Haci Agha noticed me you want to see me emergently and I came here because I didn't know what is the word about," he said and now it all made sense to me how Murad didn't actually call for me but Haci obviously made some plan together with Valide.

"Look through your windows Kemankes," Kosem said to Kemankes' who's bed was positioned next to windows from where he could see the Imperial Gardens.

"Why?" He asked her confusedly as he had no idea what Kosem wanted to do and why should he look outside.

"Look at it, and see who my daughter really loves," Kosem said proudly as Kemankes looked through the window as he looked at Naime talking with Deli Huseyin as they were totally alone in the gardens. Kemankes felt so betrayed in this moment that he didn't know why was Naime telling him she loves him and cared for him, and then she was meeting with another man she claimed she didn't like and had none wish with him.

"They are talking about their wedding, because Naime expressed to our Sultan Murad she would wish to marry Deli Huseyin," Kosem said proudly hoping this would end all of Kemankes' wish for Naime and to stop that from beginning.

"Hunkarim, why don't we spend some time on terrace? It is beautiful day," Ayse said as she was in visit to Murad in his chambers. She wasn't so beloved by him anymore, but Kosem decided to help her if they would collaborate together.

Murad listened to her which was kinda weird because he didn't like spending time with Ayse in the last time. But Kosem's plan was very fell to make Farya jealous and to keep Kemankes to herself.

Murad and Ayse went to the terrace of Murad's chambers from where he could look at the Gardens. He wasn't pretty interested in anything that is happening because he didn't care about more harem drama.

"Oh look, Naime Sultan is there with Deli Huseyin Pasha, I guess she likes him at the end," Ayse said what she has been told to say. Murad was surprised and then immediately looked at them and he found this weird, because Naime expressed her love towards Kemankes and now she was there alone with Deli.

"Why are they alone there?" Murad said as nothing was anymore clear to him.

"Haven't you heard? Naime Sultan talked yesterday in harem how she actually likes something about Deli Huseyin, and that she could listen to her mother. She thinks he would make a great husband," Ayse said.