YOUR POV~

"Welcome back, Shiota-sama.." Eik... I quickly turn around and see maid and butler. "W-who are you?!" Last time I check, Tadaomi have no body in his mansion!! Or I should say house in my and his term. "Karasuma-sama told us to help you with the house chores starting today. He won't be back for a few day." Uh.. Must be a meeting with government. They can be an ass sometimes but.. I smirk. They never be one when I was around. If they does.. I lick my lips as my eyes flash red.

The herbivores will not alive to see another minutes of sunlight. "Would you like us to do something, Shiota-sama?" I snap out and sweatdrop. "Please, do call me (Y/N)." They bow their heads."(Y/N)-sama.." The hell? "Please again.. No 'Sama'.." I sweated. "Yes, (Y/N)-hime.." I almost anime fell on the floor. "No.. Please, not that.." I sigh. "(Y/N)-san?" One of them ask, I facepalm. "At least, it's better than 'Hime' and 'Sama'." I mutter and sigh. "You guys can do whatever you want.."

I fix my postures. "I will be in my room.." They bow as I walk away and towards my room. I lie on my bed. "Miss this bed really bad!!" I hug my pillow and stare on the ceiling. Last time I've been here when I was 4. Yes, I have know Tadaomi for a long time. My mom never knew about this. How does she not know? Well, actually.. Mom always favor Nagisa more than me. She want Nagisa look like a girl even she does have a daughter. It's like I was never there with them.

I close my eyes. I still remember. She didn't give me breakfast one day.. As if I never exist in front her.. Invisible.. At the end, Nagisa give me some of his food. That's why I love Nagisa more than Mom. I rolling on the bed and.. "Ouch!!" I fell from the bed. =_=" So much for some fun.. I sigh but notices something under the bed. I pull it out and see a box. "The hell is this?" I open the top of the box and see a blue cat headphone, a blue rose key necklace and a flowers covered book.

I take out the headphones. It seem similar but why? I take the necklace and last the book. Both of this thing have a really a pretty design. Whoever the owner of this stuff.. They're really have a good taste in this kind of things. I take another look on the book and see a keyhole. I wonder what inside the book. "Maybe... This key.. Use to open this book?" I look at the key. It has a few tiny gears. "Unique..." I say and put the key in the keyhole and the book lock open. Huh... I take a look.

XXXX Nov,5 ... 7:06 a.m

This is my first time writing this after 6 years I try to not show my other side self. But now, I don't think I manage to keep hold myself to continue my life in this world. The voice inside my head always come and go. That's also not helping me at all. My relationship with my friend and family are also getting distance by every minute.. Maybe I don't deserve to have anyone to be at my side.. I am not good enough to be their friend, daughter and granddaughter.. I am no good for everyone....

XXXX Nov, 18 ... 1:30 p.m

I hate my life. Why is it always happen to me? Why did he do something stupid as that? Quit from his work and want to do his own business? You just thinking about yourself, don't you? Not thinking about the other. Do you understand what the hell you just do? You make me hold all your responsibility as a leader of this family. I'm still 17 years old. Still in exam. I don't know I will pass or fail and she tell me that I should search for a job after you quit!! Do you ever think that I will fail the exam? I hate you, father...

XXXX Nov, 22 ... 4:07 p.m

Why..? That's only I want to say. When you in deep shit. You search for me to let out your hates to your so called friends. I comforts you but at the end? You go back to them and leave me behind. I'm so sick of this. Am I someone that you need when you have a hard time? I feel betrayed by all of you. Your eyes when you look at me.. I hate it. The look I see is annoying. If you don't like me to be your friend.. Then leave me fucking alone!! I don't like people act friend with me. Yes, I always put smile mask act on my face because I don't want people bother with my pain. But if someone like you even my family can't see through me. That means.. You never knew the real me.

XXXX Jan, 2 ... 11:04 a.m

Now, she compared me with my so called friend. Yes, they have job right now while I have not. If she really hate me that much, then kill me. I'm sick. I'm hurt. Where? On my heart.. There's no cure for me if I'm still staying in this family. Do you know that? No.. You're not. I really feel want to stab myself on the heart right now. I don't care where my soul will be.. Heaven.. hell.. Abyss.. I don't care. I just want go away from this world. It's not like someone will miss me if I'm gone. I am nothing to them. All in my life.. I only can feel betrayed and unloved. Who will help me to get over this? No one..

XXXX July 20 ... 13:09 p.m

It's been a long month I didn't write on here. 6 month, huh? As you see, my life gone noway better. It's still the same. They only care them.. Them that I called as my siblings. I'm really nothing to this world, am I not? It's funny that I write this at the first place. But this is the only stuff that I can do to let my feeling go. There's no one for me to care, love and wish me happy birthday. Yeah.. Happy birthday me. But I am still alone. Nothing new. I'm so fuck up with with my life. I want to end this life forever. If I get reborn. I want to be in Assassination Classroom as Nagisa's twin sister because I want make him happy. But it will never happen, right? Huh... Goodbye, World.. I hope you be more better without me....

My eyes widen. It's only five entry but the last entry, there a blood on the page. Did... Did she end her life? And what kind of parents do that to their child?!! Wait.. Oh.. My mom neglect me all those years before I went and back from US. My father are not with us.. Me with my illness.. But at the end.. "...." I look to my palm. This hands... Have tainted... With Blood.. I shake my head and continue flip open the pages.. Looking at all the empty pages until... I stop at a picture of girl.

She has long brown hair and a pair of hazel eyes. She looks around 17 or 18 years old. I take the picture and look behind it, if there any words write on it. Who wouldn't do that? Maybe I will found love letter or something? :3 At the bottom of the picture, that's a word. It wrote, Only Me and Myself, (Y/N)(L/N). My eyes widen. (Y/N)? M-me?! Suddenly, I feels like a tons of bricks hit my head. A lot of memories flashing through my eyes. When it stop, I start crying. Now I remember.. And I passed out.