(The video above isn't mine, and it kinda reminds me of Tainted Rainbow)

(Also the next bit is reeeaaalllyy long sooo-)

The year that the last part showed was nooott my year at alll. I still dread those awful days today to be honest. But in [insert grade here] I actually had a whole new group of friends! They were all crackheads like me, and I was glad for that. I mostly became.. let's call her Ewile (A mixture between EwE and Emily, but Emily isn't her name-), and Puppet (Why I call him that is because he's afraid of Puppets).

But, I still had other friends, but I mostly thought of them as acquaintances. (Ewile kinda introduced me to the group of my new acquaintances, though.) Anyways, me and Ewile were quite known for the fact we liked Creepypasta, and someone from the crackhead group (let's call her Tainted Rainbow because she's up and down with her emotions, incredibly rude but still kind, and is quite open with her sexuality: Lesbian.), came up to me, basically asked me things about Creepypasta and whatnot.

Me and Tainted Rainbow became friends, but not that close. Now, in the group: Kay was also in it, though I kept a huge distance. (This is important for later). Tainted Rainbow was also known to have a girlfriend, which I knew from my church that I'm being forced to go to. (Also important for later). During a break, I noticed that some friends of Tainted Rainbow's and Kay kinda gathered around and shit. Me being nosey, decided to see what was going on.

What I had heard, apparently Tainted Rainbow's girlfriend had given her a hickey, and all the others wanted to see if it was true. I thought that was weird as fuck and was about to leave: Until Tainted Rainbow said something about me giving a hickey to Kay. (To let you know, Kay didn't just send photos, but also pressured me to give her hickeys as well.) I immediately knew that Kay must've told Tainted Rainbow: which she wasn't aloud to do, and the thing was I kept my word and didn't say anything, but Kay did.... I got angry, chasing Tainted Rainbow around, not hurting her, but showing that was something that could get me pissed off.

After that, I suddenly became the scary weirdo, and I usually said something creepy in response, because I wanted them to know that I was the scary weirdo they thought of me to be. Tainted Rainbow tested her luck with me, so she became one of the people I would usually scare. One fateful day though, dreaded news was told to me. Ewile and Kay told me that she actually apparently liked me. "No. That can't be true-"

But it was.... And it was confirmed when Tainted Rainbow gave me her number at the end of a school day, and I texted her. She told me that she had even broken up with her girlfriend because of her crush on me. This guilt tripped me to the mmaaaaxxx, even though she was quite rude, it still made me feel huge guilt. I think you know by now what I did.

Though, I actually knew that I didn't like her: especially when she spent the night with me. That made me realize how rude she was,  and how up and down her emotions were. Plus she was also making me quite uncomfortable, being touchy, like Kay, but when I froze up she would always say something along the lines of: 'See? You didn't like it. You don't love me'. And I would always have to tell her the opposite, even though I was feeding her fat ass lies. After even one night and a day and a half, I told her to leave, but I didn't tell her why, nor did I tell her we were breaking up.

For months I was trapped with her in the relationship, and it tortured me. She made me open my eyes to show that I wasn't the one that wanted a relationship: it was too much for me. She was too much for me. Romantic love was too much for me... We were still dating, and at this point I really wanted to know why I felt this way.

That's where I learned that I was asexual. I didn't wanna tell her though, I didn't wanna break her heart. She was already quite broken, I didn't wanna break her more. I was afraid she would hate me afterwords: I was afraid of so many things to do with breaking up with her. So instead of breaking up with her, I ignored her, trying to block out the love she was giving me and trying to block out the fact I wasn't doing the same.

Call me guilty, because I already knew I was at the time. Infact, I thought I was a monster to not even respond to a single text. But I pushed back my responsibilities with her, until one day I couldn't take it anymore. She called me, I finally answered. I told her that I was ace, she asked me what it meant.

I didn't tell her. Instead I hung up. Yeah, once again, I was a monster. But I decided that she would probably search it later. She did, and a few days later, she texted me.

I responded, of course. I told her that it wasn't her, and that it was me. She asked me if that means we can't be girlfriend and girlfriend anymore-...... Sure, there are relationships between Asexuals and others, but I just couldn't do it. I told her yes.

Tainted Rainbow told me that she still was crushing on me, but we became only friends again, and it seemed that she actually understood. I was relieved, I had gotten so many things off my chest at that moment.

Thankfully, we're still friends :3

And that's it so far, unless if cupid wants to be an asshole again. :P