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When I finally got myself ready to continue reading the note, I was tearing up.

"I knew you had this same illness, heart cancer, because we have already fought it when you were young. Please just forgive me...I am a terrible mother...I love you Rogue..." My stomach dropped. No...you weren't a terrible mother. I just wish I could have known this sooner. Then I grasped my chest, it burned. It felt like fire was inside my throat, my chest was stinging. I fell to my knees; it finally dissipated after a moment. I needed to talk to Lady...but I couldn't move. I was lacking oxygen, like my throat was closing up and my heart was working twice as hard. The room started to spin; I could feel myself falling to the floor. It seemed like it was in slow motion.

I may be too late...to stop this...

I blacked out.

"When did this happen?"

"I don't know, Lady. I found her in our room on the floor,"

"We need to get her to the doctor right away...I knew we should have done something sooner,"

I opened my eyes. It was dark. I felt like I was moving. My vision started to clear up and I saw Crystal next to me. I was in the back seat of a car, on my back with my head resting on Crystal's lap.

"Lady! She's waking up!" I sat up. My chest felt fine now, but I had a slight headache, maybe from the fall? I'm not really sure. "How are you feeling, Rogue?"

I would've answered her, but I was groggy. I felt a slight pain in my chest so I laid my head back down. I felt Crystal's hand on my shoulder; it was cold. Crystal leaned down in front of me.

"What happened?" I coughed from my voice sounding so weak and scraychy.

"I found you on the floor in our bedroom," That's what I thought. That's the last thing I remember.

I said very softly, "My chest hurts..." I looked up at Crystal. She looked hurt, like she was upset.

"Does my brother know?" She shook her head.

I closed my eyes for a minute. Then I opened them again. The rocking of the car reminded me of the ride in the car when I was little...when we were rushing to get away from the house when it was up in flames.

"Rogue," I looked up at her, tears started to fall. "Yea," I said weakly. "I'm worried about you," The pain in my chest came back a little worse. "Ow...make it stop...please make it stop..." I could hardly hear what I was saying. I could tell Crystal heard it. "Lady, her pain is getting worse...I'm worried,"

"We'll be there in five minutes, Rogue. We will get you through this..."

I'm not convinced I'm going to make it though...

"Wait...Crystal, is she pale?" My stomach dropped...pale? Crystal looked at me then looked back up. "Yes, she is,"

So it's true...I really am going to die...

I started to cry, a lot.

"What's wrong, Rogue? Do you have pain still?" I didn't want to tell her. But I was planning on it.

"My...my mother...I have what my mother had...I don't want to die, Crystal," I couldn't stop the tears. I slowly pulled out the note I found. I handed it to Crystal; my hand was shaking. When she took it, my hand just fell, like it had no energy. I couldn't stay conscious any longer. I blacked out.

"You are daddy's little girl, right?" His voice was soft...and weak. I smiled and nodded. "Be strong for me, ok?" I nodded once more. I felt his strength start to disappear from the grip he had on my hand. A few tears started falling and when I looked at my momma, she was crying some too. "I love you, daddy," He smiled at me once more. Then his smile faded...his hand fell limp...and his eyes never opened again.

"No, no dear, please don't cry," Her voice was fading, like the color of her face. "You are a strong girl. I believe you can make me proud," She kissed my forehead. She smiled. "I wish to tell you this. Just remember to give it a hundred and ten percent for me...can you do that for me? And your father?" I smiled, glad that she reassured me with what she knew my daddy used to always tell me. I nodded and smiled at her. "Yes, mommy, I will do that for you...and daddy,"

I kept looking at her. "Don't worry momma...I love you...and I will watch over Ron...we will be okay..." I whispered to her. She smiled...then her hand fell from mine...her smile faded...and her eyes never opened again.

I woke up inside this dark room.

The ER, I guessed.

It felt like a cot, like the one momma was lying on. I felt worse, worse then ever before. I said very softly to myself, "Daddy...if you can hear me...please listen...if I die today...can I see you again?" I started to cry again. I was so hot I was sweating. Then I started to hear voices from outside the room.

"Her blood pressure is very weak, her body temperature is very high...I believe there's not much with what we have that there is to do for her,"

"Her mother just recently passed away, she gave this to us...it's from her mother. Could you find her records?"

It was silent for a moment.

"Yes, I believe we can. Please hold on for a minute. She's right here, inside this room. If anything happens, let me know,"

Another moment of silence till I heard the doors open slowly. I heard faint walking, slowly getting louder with every step. Before long, I felt a hand grab mine. I slowly opened my eyes. I saw Crystal and Lady standing close to me. Crystal had my hand. Faintly in the background, I heard what was monitoring my heartbeat.

Beep...beep...beep...

It was probably louder, it just seemed like it was so very far away. It was getting slightly slower. When it's the only thing you hear for awhile, you notice when the speed changes. I didn't have anything to say, but there was so much I wanted to know. Crystal found my eyes, so I looked back. I must've been crying because she was too. Then the doctors came back, the doors opened wide and two doctors in white robes walked in.

Beep...beep...beep...

"We've found her mother's records. It looks like she has the same symptoms her mother had. It says here she died from a heart attack caused by cancer. Chest pains were frequent and blood loss was present, for this reason the paleness," The other was holding my test results. "The options we have are very few. She needs this medicine, but it's not guaranteed it will work since it's almost too late. It needs at least two weeks to get working good, but her results don't agree with it..."

That means I'm not expected to live longer than two weeks...I'm going to die...

Beep......beep.........beep...

My heartbeat is slowing down. I'm never going to see my brother again. I'm never going to see the sunshine again. Just the inside of this room...that beeping of my slowing heartbeat...that's now my life. Crystal must've noticed that I was giving up, because she was now looking at me. "Please, Rogue...don't leave me..." I shook my head no. "No...no Rogue, you will make it...I will make sure you will...please..." I shook my head once more.

"No, Crystal...I don't want to die...but...but I see daddy..." She gasped. "You...you see your dad?" She turned to Lady and the doctors. "Please help her! I can't loose someone else!" Tears were falling rapidly down her face. The doctors looked like there was nothing they could do.

"I'm sorry, we've tried everything we could, her illness is past the point of helping her," Crystal turned back to me. I was closing my eyes.

"No! Rogue...please, can you hear me?" I said nothing. I couldn't do anything but listen to Crystal talk to me. I had no energy, I felt weaker and weaker. The pains in my chest kept getting worse and worse. I fear that one of these times, I may feel a heart attack...it may be the last thing I feel...

"Rogue! Please...please don't go yet...I...I can't loose you too..." She fell silent.

Beep............beep...............beep...

Pain in my chest just kept coming; the feeling of dizziness was always there. I felt Crystal's hand slip away. I heard nothing.

"Good...bye...Crys. Good...bye...Lady," I was crying again. "Please tell my brother...I love him..."

They must've left, because I heard nothing after that.

The next few days, I felt weaker and weaker. My chest pains came about every ten minutes. That's how I began to count the hours. I had a least one really painful chest pain a day. Each day felt longer than the one before.

Beep........................beep...........................beep...

"Rogue!" I heard my brother calling me. I opened my eyes slowly and saw him standing over me.

"Ron..." He was very upset. He grabbed my hand. "Rogue...I don't want you leave..." I closed my eyes again. My hand fell limp in his.

"Please Rogue! Please...I love you..." I managed to smile slightly. No matter the situation, Ron makes me smile. I just wish this wouldn't be the last.

"I...I love you too...Ron...good...bye..."

"No! Rogue...please..." I knew he was crying, his voice was in between sobbing.

"Please...please be strong for me...I'm ready Ron...I'm ready...to go see...daddy...to go home...where I belong..."

Beep.......................................beep...

I felt a strong pain in my chest. I felt like I couldn't breathe. It seemed like that lasted for a lifetime. I saw nothing but darkness...I heard nothing but silence...I felt nothing. My last thought was 'So this is a heart attack...everything happens quick...but it feels like it will never end...' Once my eyes closed, they never opened again.

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