I'm really going to fucking write a lemon

***

 You stared at your crush's empty seat in front of you. You sighed for the nth time, before turning your attention to your droning professor. 

 'He didn't show up today, either. I swear if he keeps this up he will freakin' fail.'you thought to yourself.'What is he even planning to do with his life!?'

  At this, you blushed. You were thinking of Yoosung's well-being again! Pathetic you. Sometimes, you wish Yoosung would care for you as much as you do, but he rarely interacts with you. Does he even know your name?

***  

  The next day, Yoosung was walking around the campus like a zombie. 

 "Why did it have to be today?" He mumbled to himself, talking about the exam."I only slept for 2 hours."   

  "Because you played LOLOL again." 

 Hearing the voice, he widened his eyes and turned to look behind him. But because he wasn't paying attention, he tripped on a rock.   

  "Oh my god! Yoosung!" 

 *THUD* 

 "Ouch..."he groaned, face planted on the ground.    

  He heard footsteps, and he was sure it was from his classmate's. 

 "Are you alright?" He heard her gasp. He looked up and saw a girl with ___ hair and ___ irises, worry etched on her face.    

  "(Y-Y/n)...?" 

 You widened your eyes as your name was uttered by him. So he knew you? 

 "You are such a klutz." You shook your head and helped him stand up."Here,"   

  "T-Thank you..."he winced at his minor bleeding scratch, which made you frown in worry. 

 "You need to go the clinic." You suggested. 

 "What's the point of going to the clinic if the nurse is always absent?"   

  You thought for a moment. Yeah, he's kinda right. For some reason, no one actually knew what the school's nurse looked like because she wasn't always around. Wait, Yoosung knew? But he's always absent too. 

 "You're so stubborn." You sighed and opened your shoulder bag. You pulled out a small medicine kit, and grabbed the needed items. 

 "Wow," Yoosung raised his brows in astonishment. "You're quite a girl scout," 

"Always ready," you smiled at him then kneeled to reach his scraped knee. 

 Of course, he couldn't just ignore you. Sure, he doesn't really care much about everyone else, but you were his classmate who always show utmost care to him since from the very start...like Rika. He sometimes wonder why do you even bother, but he wouldn't dare himself ask because if he did, you might stop your ministrations. And for some unknown reason, just thinking about it makes him dead on the inside.

  "Does it hurt?" You asked as you put a band-aid over his wound. Because of his thoughts, he didn't notice that you're already finished putting medicine on his skin.

 You stared right into his eyes, and he couldn't help but stare back. He never knew that he would appreciate a pair of eyes this much.  

 "I-It doesn't..." He stuttered, and watched you stand up. Wait, why is he nervous now? 

 "I'm glad you're now okay. So shall we go to class together?" 

 "Y-Yeah...sure."and he finally looked away. 

 ***

  After examination time, you went straight to your dorm room. To celebrate, you treated yourself with a homemade chocolate cereal with strawberry milk and floating sprinkles and marshmallows--and while you're at it, you downloaded a messenger app to ease your boredom. 

 "This is life." You sighed dreamily and sat on your bed.

 ...*Nom*...*Nom*...*Mmm*...    

  "Oh, it's already finished downloading?" You said as you tapped on the new application you installed. 

 You were shocked when an unknown person chatted you. He told you he wanted to return the lost phone he just found, and he was asking you a favor since he was at another country. "Go to this address and help me return this,"he said. At first you didn't trust him, but after seeing the picture of himself that he sent, you realized he was pretty cute to be a murderer or some sort. 

 So you finished your cereal as fast as you could then grabbed your shoulderbag with all the things you needed.   

  "By helping a person, I'll surely go to heaven." You joked."I'm helping him because I'm nice, and not because he was cute. Besides, I have Yoosung." 

 After that, nobody saw you around the campus again. 

 *** 

 The next passed week, Yoosung surprisingly attends classes, but only for one reason.   

  On Monday, he vowed to himself it was the last day he'll show up in class but he didn't see you sitting behind him patiently, like you usually do. Days passed and you still aren't present. Everyone was wondering where the heck where you, and Yoosung is even worried sick to the point he abandoned electronic devices for four days and neglected eating three times a day.

 He wanted to know where are you now, and if you're still alive. You were driving him nuts! 

 "Not here again..." He frowned as he glanced at your empty chair behind him.   

  The professor started handing out the results of the exam you had last Friday, and Yoosung widened his eyes.

 "I FAILED?NO!" 

 "'S your fault, Mr.Kim, so don't be too surprised."The prof glared at him, making him shut up.

 ***  

  When he went home, he opened his phone and logged in the RFA messenger app. 

Yoosung *: Failed my midterms fml T^T

Yoosung *: [Le insert crying emoji]

  Eventually, all the RFA members conversed as usual, but that is until one of them noticed that there was someone who joined the chat box. After all the questioning, all of them introduced themselves to the unknown female.


You widened your eyes. Yes, obviously you were that stranger.

'Yoosung uses this messenger app too!?!??!? Oh my god,'

You decided to stay anonymous, because it'll make everything fun...well...except...

...You can't leave the apartment now because the bomb happened.(((Many Days Later))) 

***  

  Should he call the cops now? It's very unusual for you, the most punctual student he had ever known, to be absent for a two weeks consecutively!

Yoosung ran around the campus, and stumbled upon your friend, (F/n).

"Excuse me. You're ___'s roommate, correct?"

"Uh yes?" The puzzled (F/n) frowned. "Why?"

"Have you seen ___?"

"Unfortunately, no."

Yoosung bit his lip and looked around, sweating.

"I-Is that so? Thank you. I've got to...go now."

'WHERE ARE YOU,___?!'

So many things happened and is happening, but still, you didn't leave a trace on where you are right now. Did you transfer schools or what?

  ...but why would you leave him like this?

***

***Yoosung has entered the chatroom***

Yoosung *: Help me guys T^T

Yoosung *: I'm desperate

  Jaehee: What's the problem? 

Yoosung *: There's this girl I'm looking for.

 Zen: A girl?

Zen: Lol I thought you're interested to (N/n)?

[N/n]: Ouch Yoosung ;-;

Yoosung frowned. Yes, he noticed that (N/n) is interested in him because she flirts with him and rejects everyone else in the RFA chatroom, but he wasn't sure of his feelings yet. Sure, he compared (N/n) to Rika at first, but then he soon realized that they're not really meant to be alike. (N/n) is a great person, but so is ___. Now he's comparing the two.

But he hasn't met this (N/n) yet personally, so of course, he will always go for ___.

Yoosung *:   I'm sorry (N/n). If you came earlier, I would choose you, but...

Yoosung *:This girl that I'm looking for cared for me ever since. 

  Your heart started to beat faster. 

Yoosung *: Her name is _____ _____.

  Your world almost stopped. You reread his message again and again, until he typed once again. 

Yoosung *: I want to find her to show her that I truly care for her too. I wanna make up to her. I'm really sorry.

707: Now that's love.

707: So (N/n) are you mine now?

[N/n]:...no. Sorry Seven, Yoosung is still my choice.

707: ;-;

Zen: ;-;

Jumin: [Le rolling-eyes emoji here]

Jaehee: That's sweet.  

Yoosung *: (N/n)... You're making it hard for me.

[N/n]: Damn Yoosung. Are you worried that much for her?  

Yoosung *: Yes.

You were smiling so much at this point, and your stomach was full of butterflies, you swear. 

***

It was chaos. You inside the apartment is dangerous because of the bomb, and everyone in the RFA went ballistic on your safety. Even Yoosung, who was also nuts on finding the you that he knows.

You just went missing like a popped bubble. And the worst part is, the only person who actually wanted to find you is him. He tried contacting you and your family, but to no avail.

It has been months already. He's worrying for ___'s safety. He misses you already.

***

Everything ended today. Rika's lies were discovered, and V gone.

Unknown, or Saeran, as you preferred to call him, made up with Saeyoung and everybody was happy. You are now safe, thanks to Saeyoung. Yoosung also made up with V, and Jaehee got to open her own coffee shop. Zen is still successful in his career, and Jumin eventually found himself a new secretary(which is your friend btw)

You made it clear to everyone that Yoosung is your significant other, and they just accepted it because you are obviously obsessed with him...and they couldn't do anything about it.

And since everything is at peace now, you went out of your apartment and headed to your university. Oh how you missed it. But too bad you failed at every subject--either way, you could still continue college right?

(N/n): Hey Yoosung. Mind telling me your dorm room number?

You entered the building of the male's dorms.

Yoosung*:Huh? Why?

Yoosung *: And why don't you give up on me already. You'll just end up getting hurt. 

  Yoosung *: My heart already belongs to ___. I told you so many times

 Yoosung *: Just go out with Zen or Jumin or Saeyoung. I'm sorry, but get a life

(N/n): I know >:)  

  Yoosung *:W-What is up with that emoticon O_o

(N/n): Knock knock.

  Yoosung *: ... Who's there?

(N/n):... No, I mean there's a knock on your door. 

Yoosung frowned at your message, but then he heard someone knock. His blood ran cold.  

  Yoosung *:...is that you?

(N/n): Hmm. Who knows.

It definitely is you. He sweatdropped. How the hell did you find him here without him telling details? Now this is getting wierder--he's got himself a stalker.

He proceeded to the door, and was about to open it as he pocketed his phone, but he then paused.

It was about time he see (N/n) in person. Don't get him wrong, he's loyal to ___ but he couldn't avoid wondering on how (N/n)'s like.

Gulping, he then took a deep breath before turning the knob and opened the door.

Light flooded in his dorm room from the outside, and he saw a familiar woman standing before him, dressed in a style just like how he remembered, and she was smiling at him.

It wasn't (N/n). It was ___.

"_-___? What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to pay you a visit. I was wondering if you were ever going to open the door or not," you joked, but he didn't laugh. In fact, he was on the verge of crying!

"Y-Yoosung..."  

  Scratch that. He's CRYING.

"___... Where have you been? I...."

You felt bad for him-- as if he was making you guilty of something you did wrong. Biting your lip, you thought of a way to calm him down.

You hugged him, and he surprisingly hugged back.

"Why are you crying?" You laughed lightly while stroking his hair.

"I missed you."

You couldn't help but grin at his newfound straightforwardness.

"I didn't know that I was special to you."

'It's now or never', he thought. He has to confess his feelings for her. Even if the feelings aren't mutual, at least he had been true to himself. While she's still here, he'll say it.

"___, I--"

"Let's go inside. We're causing a ruckus here at the hall."

He pouted because of the cliffhanger, wiping the tears off his face. But you're right.

*

You both are sitting across each other on the floor, a table seperating you both.

"Umm. So as you can see," He started."I love you!"

Your eyes widened at the loudness of his voice. You both turned red, and you felt hot. Like, literally.

He then covered his face in shame.'Kill me now.'

"Since when?"

"I don't know," he said, still covering his face."It's just that I realized it one day. You were so nice... And caring..."

"Are you sure you aren't mom-zoning me?" You frowned, to which he shook his head vigorously, removing his hands from his face revealing an offended expression.

"A-And it's okay if you don't love me back. I..."

He trailed off once he saw you bring out your phone and started to use it. In front of him and his confession. It was as if he was slapped in a face. Clearly, she doesn't have feelings for him.

He watched her like an idiot. Until his phone rang.

"S-Sorry ___. I've got to..." He trailed off once again. Why is he asking permission on texting when she herself doesn't give a damn?

Sighing sadly, he opened the lock screen and checked (N/n)'s new message.

(N/n): How many times do I have to tell you that I love you sooo much for you to believe me?  

 Yoosung *: [ Le sighing emoji ]

  Yoosung *: Not now, (N/n). I'm in front of the girl I love right now. I'm sorry, but I think you really should stop.

(N/n): Ehhh.

(N/n): :">

(N/n): I know you don't want me to.

Yoousung frowned in frustration. What is up with this girl? He expected her to give up by now, but why is she..?

 Yoosung *:  (N/n).

(N/n): I'll send a selfie of my cute OOTD~

Yoosung *: =_=

 He glanced at you across him. You were still using your phone with a smile. Oh how he wished he was the one responsible for that. His heart throbbed.

He decided to just look at his phone.

(N/n) had sent a selfie.

His blood ran cold and he widened his eyes.

(N/n) was smiling, and she was wearing the same clothes as the woman across him. Heck, she even has the same face!

He looked back at ___ in shock, and she was smirking at him.

His phone vibrated in his hand.

(N/n): Told 'ya I'm pretty in person.

He couldn't believe it. All this time, (N/n) is ___!?

"(N/N)!?"

"You betcha."

And he was blown away many times. :">

***

...next. huehue