Jackson Overland

I return home, unemotional. Unable to think or reflect on the events that have just happened.

James emerges out of his room with a worried expression on. "Ay what happened?"

"Nothing." I respond.

"Bullshit. Tell me what happened." James says with his voice getting stronger.

"Nothing!" I yell at him.

"Elsa rushed out of the house and then you went out too! I am not just this useless third party! I am your brother!" He yells at me with a strong hoarse voice.

"... Elsa's house was on fire. And she left me." I muttered.

James gasps and tenses up looking shocked, "Was anyone hurt?" He asks me.

"No." I answer.

"... Are you hurt?" He questions.

I laugh wryly and force a smile at him, "Yeah."

"Why did she leave you in the first place?"

"Well, I guess that she realized that she doesn't love me." I say.

"And what did you do?" He asks.

"I guess I accepted it and left."

James suddenly grabs my collar and pulls me closer to him aggressively.

"Idiot! Is this what you do with the girl you love?!" He shouts at me.

"... Yes, maybe letting go of the girl I love should have been done earlier." I respond.

He lets go of my collar.

"You're a loser. Once you lose one thing that's important to you, you tumble down so easily. You don't bother to fight for something until you're given a push. It's pathetic." He snaps back with a pissed off look.

... I am pathetic.

Elsa Arendelle

I feel grotty. A monster. I am lying to myself again and again. I am pushing Jackson away ... it's because somehow I believe what Jackson was doing at the start, I believe that I shouldn't of have gotten close to him in the first place.

Because I could've been there at the house. And I could've died. If I die than Jackson dies a bit too. I shouldn't of tried to knock down the wall, because there was a good reason of why he had it. I thought that the cold, closed up Jackson's reasons behind things were stupid. But I am stupid. I have a lack of understanding.

The police report came in, and they have confirmed it was an intentionally lit fire and the corrupt ex colleagues were behind it, they were convicted, their fate is undecided but we all know it's a dark one. They caused our family so much pain, so they deserve everything that's coming to them.

"Where do we go now?" Anna asks, wiping her tears.

My mother pulls her into a hug and rubs her back, "We are going to our Aunts place."

I think of Jackson again knowing what I did was horrible. I was being unfair. But nothing in the world is fair. Before the accident my life was ideal and bright, but now I realize life isn't as simple as that.

We get picked up by our Aunty and driven to her apartment which was around 10 minutes away. My family still had their luggage from the ski trip and my father managed to keep some special photos. While my luggage is still at Jackson's house.

I sit on the couch beside Anna watching TV.

"Elsa ... I'm not so sad anymore." She tells me, "We lost lots of special things in our home. But we didn't lose each other."

"My sadness will go away once they spend a life sentence in jail." I say in distaste.

Anna looks at me with a concerned face.

It was night time and I slept the night in the couch. My sister slept on the floor in the guest room and my parents slept in the bed in the guest room.

I hear a knock on the door, I get up and open the lights and answer it.

"Elsa." ... James says and throws my luggage next to me.

"James? Why are you here?" I ask.

"Let's go outside." He suggests and I nod. I join him outside the apartment block.

"Anna responded to my texts and told me where you are." James explains, "... I have one question for you, why did you give him up?"

I stayed silent. I wanted to give James a truthful answer but how can I tell him the truth when I am lying to myself?

" ... Because knowing that I could've hurt him a lot more, scares me." I respond, "When I looked at the house slowly burning down I thought if I was still in there, I would've been gone. And Jackson, he would be in a really bad condition. So in fear and panic for Jackson's future I left him."

"... I heard the people that set fire to your house were taken away." James says and I nod.

James tightly grips my shoulders and shake me, "Listen Elsa ... they are gone! They are gone! You don't need to panic or fear for yourself because those bastards probably won't be in your life again."

"They won't. But I'm still here. I hold Jackson's feelings in the palm of my hands, I protect it with all my life. But I am still responsible for it, and if something happens I am responsible." I tell him.

"I may not have been in a relationship or love and blah, but I gained an understanding from a 3rd person perspective and I know that in a relationship your responsible for everything. Don't think that being in a relationship doesn't have consequences, risks and a bad side because a matter of fact it does. But you have to keep the relationship from flipping upside down with hard work. Because relationships aren't efortless." James explains with sincerity and passion.

"How can you understand this? I don't even understand relationships and love, I am naive ..." I mutter and looks down.

"Love doesn't need understanding though, right? Because you're body and head know that feeling that you can't even express it." James says.

Love is putting someone else's needs before yours ...

That I thought was love. But I was wrong. Love is a desire. Love is a impulse.

Love is wanting to hold someone and show your affection.

Love is unexplainable.

A/N

Chap. 50 is what I plan to finish the story + some bonus stories

Anyway I said this on TFA (The Fallen Angel). But I made a new mini story called 'Winter Wonderland' some of you have already read it. And I apologize for making you all cry and that, I am one sadistic author.

:P