21 - Truth and Consequence


As you give him a smile, it feels as if something heavy had been lifted off your chest. For the first time today, this is you smiling at him. "I am sorry too for being angry at you."

"Why would you be sorry when you're only reacting to what I did?" He asks as he too smiles.

"Because I've thought and said bad things behind your back." You confess.

He shakes his head. "That's normal." His smile disappears as he touches the engagement ring on your finger. "You're happy with this new love of yours?"

Your eyes drop to the fingers that are touching your ring. Somehow, it felt uncomfortable but you answer honestly anyway. "I am."

"When are you getting married?" He asks you.

"We haven't talked about it yet. He left for a work assignment after he proposed, so we haven't gotten into any serious planning about our wedding." He's still playing with the ring on your finger so you clear your throat before deciding to pull your hand away. You still keep the distance you had from him though, you simply placed your hands on your lap.

"How about you? Is there anyone? You and Kitty, what's that?" You watch him avoid your eyes as he stares blankly at the pattern of the throw pillow on your couch.

"It's not serious. It'll probably pass after the promotion is over. Kate just like's to play." He answers.

You can't help but notice how he uses Kitty's real name. She is known for getting involved with most of the men she works with so perhaps he is right. "So does that mean you're wishing that she isn't just playing?" 

He shakes his head as he ruffles his hands through his hair. "Nah, nothing like that at all. I don't have the time for any serious relationship right now. All these years all I ever did was work. I always need to come up with new material. Even if I am taking a break, my mind still thinks of work."

"Maybe you should take a relaxing break after this tour. No work just total relaxation. Go somewhere you've always wanted to go." You suggest as you continue to watch him feeling more relaxed now. 

He looks at you briefly and your eyes meet. You can't really read what's in them, but they were almost sad. You can be wrong, he's achieved all his dreams so he can't be sad. 

"Maybe I will do that." He tells you as he looks away. 

"Anyway, I am happy you got what you wanted with your career. Look at you now Mr. Big Shot." You tease him.

He scrunches his nose as you complimented him. "It didn't come easy. I gained all these but I..." He paused before continuing. "...lost you."

You stiffen again at your chair and he smirks at your reaction. 

"It is the truth. I had this silly notion that when we come face to face again, you're still waiting for me. As I said, it's a silly thought because who will do that right?" 

You drop your gaze and it lands on your ring again. You find yourself thinking if you should've waited for him. How can you when he never even attempted to talk to you? No, you made the right decision because otherwise, you could've waited your whole life. You can't help feeling a stabbing pain in your heart over his words though.

Yoongi lifts your chin up so you'd face him. He is smiling as he looks at you. "I didn't say that to make you feel uncomfortable. I just wanted that off my chest because I am just letting everything I have in me out. I can only do that with you Y/N." 

"Well, what you said just made me feel uncomfortable. Like how the hell am I supposed to react to that? Now I am the one who feels guilty." You retort which made him laugh.

"You've always been so honest with me, Y/N, I don't see that a lot in this world I move in now. Guilty for what? For me having that thought in my mind? You're not the one responsible for that. Just to know you're not mad at me is more than enough. You are not mad at me anymore right?" Even if he said what he did, he's obviously in doubt.

"Well...no." You reply. 

"I am honestly glad to see you again and to finally clear things out between us." He sighs. "I thought you were going to quit the job after today."

"I wanted to, to tell you honestly." You chuckle. "But, I am not a quitter. I'd rather face the problem head-on. You won't get rid of me that easy Yoongi." You manage to tease.

He turns to you and gives the biggest smile. Gahd, how can he look this hot and not have a girlfriend? You ask yourself. He can have any woman he wants to now. Wait, what are you doing? You ask yourself. Damn it! 

"I hope you don't mind if we'd remain friends now that things are clearer between us. Aside from Namjoon and Hobi, I don't have a lot of real friends anymore." He catches your eye and just stares at you.

You suddenly find yourself holding your breath and feel conscious about your proximity to each other. Friends, not a problem, you tell yourself. If only you can get over having this reaction whenever your eyes lock like this. You're still finding it hard to look away from him. This is your first time seeing each other again, you're pretty sure you'll get over this soon. You unconsciously keep your fingers crossed.

"Sure, I can be your friend." You finally managed to reply.

"Thank you, I thought you were going to say no. So, I'll see you tomorrow?" He sighs. 

You nod at him. "Yes."

He stands up and you do the same thing. "I am glad things are better between us Y/N. By the way, I might ignore you and might be a bit aloof around you tomorrow. David had a talk with me. It's nothing to worry about, it's more of me being 'too close to you'. He's worried people might notice and make a big deal about it. He had to remind me that I get filmed most of the time and it gets caught easily. I didn't tell him about us. It's a part of my life I'd rather keep between ourselves. You don't have to be a part of this fanfare. Is that fine with you?" 

"Of course it is. I didn't tell him anything either when he asked me." You confess to him.

"Good." He surprises you when he suddenly reached out and hugged you. "Thank you for everything Y/N. I am so relieved that we were able to do this. It's been great seeing you." He whispers to you.

You hesitantly lifted your arms so you can put them around him. His perfume and his familiar scent fill your senses and you try not to be affected by it. The feel of his warm body against yours sends you pictures of your past which you try to push away from your mind. Again, you remind yourself you are already engaged and you love Dylan. You pat a hand on his back to reassure and comfort him. You are just as relieved too.  

"I am glad to hear your side of the story Yoongi. To tell you honestly, the pain's memory is still there but I guess it's nothing but a scar now."

"You should be cowriting songs with me. You have a way with words." He jokes.

Your sister walks in with the two of you smiling as your arms were still around each other. She clears her throat. 

"Ok," She says as she walks passed. "Ignore me. I didn't see anything. I am just going to my room."

You step back from Yoongi and you chuckle. "You're being silly. Yoongi's about to leave."

"Yes, that's right. By the way, thank you for working so hard tonight and the days since we arrived." Yoongi tells your sister.

She slightly bows her head. "It's my job. It's good to hear that you appreciate my effort."

Yoongi smiles. "Of course. No need to be formal with me by the way, we are friends now too."

Kylee blinks a few times. "We are?" She turns to you and then looks back at Yoongi. "Ok then, friend." She grins at him. "I am leaving you two here, excuse me. See you tomorrow if I see you." She tells Yoongi before turning towards the stairs.

"It must've been fun being around the two of you as you were growing." Yoongi comments as soon as Kylee was out of sight.

You chuckle. "My poor Aunt Beth had to deal with that challenging task."

Yoongi smiles. "Well, goodnight Y/N, thank you for feeding me dinner." He tells you as soon as he opens the door.

You roll your eyes. "It's nothing, I fed you leftovers." Both of you laugh at that. "Goodnight. Sleep early. You've got a big concert coming, you need to rest." You remind him.

"I know and I will get as much sleep as I can starting tomorrow." He gives you one more wave before walking towards the car where Sungha was still waiting. You give the other man a wave too and he does the same. You watch as the car leaves before closing the front door.

You find Kylee standing at the bottom of the stairs still wearing her clothes from work. Obviously, she went upstairs but waited for Yoongi to leave before she  backcame down again.

"I guess you can share what happened here this time. What's that hug about? Weren't you just simmering with anger earlier?" 

You sigh as you walk towards the kitchen to get a glass of water. "I realized I have to let go of my anger over what he did after he explained his side of the story."

"And?" Kylee asks again.

"And so I've accepted his apologies."

"And?"

"We've decided to be friends."

"And?"

"And it appears that our Aunt Eun-Sil played a major part of his not seeing me again. He came to see me at the airport that day I left Kylee. But Aunt Eun-Sil told him not to bother going inside anymore because I already left. I am not sure if what she told him was even true." You tell your sister. You feel that same kick in the gut as you retold the story again.

"Unbelievable. Our wicked stepmother had played a part again to make our lives miserable. Why does she do that? Nope, don't bother answer that, I'd rather you answer the most significant question right now. Does Yoongi want to get back with you?"

You scowl at your sister. "Of course not. I am already engaged remember?"

"I know that, just double checking." Your sister chuckles before asking another question. "So has your feelings for Dylan changed at all after seeing Yoongi again? Do you still want to marry him?"

"I can't believe you're even asking that question. Of course, I'll still marry him. Yoongi and I have agreed to just be friends from now on like what I just told you. I think that'll lighten up the atmosphere between us." You reply with a smile.

Kylee continues to watch you. "You look different now compared to the way you were earlier. You seem happier."

"I am." You reply with a smile at your sister. You jump up when your twin suddenly shrieks.

"It just dawned on me, we had Agust D in our house, like someone famous. I only get to see them at work but never at our house."

You laugh at your sister's delayed reaction. "Sis, you're like 15 minutes too late with your reaction. He is Agust D to you but he is Yoongi to me. I don't even have to explain what I mean by that. Just go to bed, you had a long day at work."

You later on went back to your room with Yoongi's scent lingering on your shirt. You've never been this relaxed for the past eight years.





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