You walk towards Yoongi gesturing for him to take the couch while you've chosen the loveseat across from him. 

"Ok, what is this talk going to be about? You never stopped mentioning it the whole day today." You ask him. You're surprised to see  how serious his expression was  as he watched you from his spot.

He starts talking. "I heard from your cousin about what you went through eight years ago. She was very upset with me when she told me and I can't blame her. I am an asshole for doing what I did to you. I didn't explain to her why I had to do what I did, because I'd rather tell you first and I hope that you'd listen and understand my side of the story."  

Elin, you can't imagine her confronting someone since she is such a gentle soul. But then, because of everything you had to go through, you've stopped communicating with her. She tried so many times to reach out to you, to no avail. You've always been close to her. Even you had a hard time when you had to come up with this decision.

As much as possible, you don't want to go back and talk about that part of your life with other people. But, this is Yoongi, the reason you went through all that pain and heartache. Even if you don't want to, maybe in order for you to completely heal is to face the culprit behind everything. An internal battle begins as your sense of reasoning starts protesting.  

"You are eight years too late in explaining but ok let's do this. This talk will not change the past but maybe it's the best way to close that chapter of our lives." You reply. You echo the contradictions that are going on in your head.

"No, it'll not change the past but I am hoping it'll change the anger you have for me." He answers.

"Do you feel guilty?" You remarked sarcastically. You can't help it, that just came out of your mouth.

"There you go again trying to pick a fight." Yoongi tells you. "I didn't come here to argue. It's the complete opposite of what I want."

"I am not trying to pick a fight, I am just asking you a question." You reason out to him although you must admit, it's your anger getting ahead of you which caused you to react this way.

"Well, your question is trying to ignite a flame. But to answer your question just so you'd hear it, I am guilty, yes. I know what I did to you is wrong and that is exactly why I am here. This is why I made sure that I get to have you working for me so this talk can be made possible. I waited for years Y/N, years so that I can tell you how sorry I am."

 He takes a deep breath in and gives out a long heavy breath as he ran a hand through his hair. "I don't want to see and feel you angry at me anymore. I have disregarded your emotions, broke all my promises and acted selfishly, I know that. But it's something I had to do to get to where I am right now. I wanted to prove to your family back then that I am not just some no-name wanna-be. That I can actually make it big doing what I like to do. That I can be somebody. It's not just your family, of course, there's mine that I had to deal with, the people who surrounded me, and myself." He paused to take another deep breath.

"On our last night together, I wanted to gamble everything and keep you with me. To agree with your idea and make you stay. But you had your life planned back then, and I have dreams too. I don't want you to lose that chance because of me.  I was honestly scared to take that big leap to reach those dreams but you've always reminded me that I can do it, you gave me that push to take that chance."

He begins to tell you how his mind had been such a mess when you left, his struggles. Part of him wants to get you back but another part wants to gamble with the chance of making it big. He said he decided to call the artist he wrote that one hit song for. He told him before that if he wants to join his label, he is always free to do so. But they'd only take him and not his friends. That was his drawback before which made him decline his offer. But because he is willing to do anything to get one step ahead to reach his dreams, he made the choice of signing a contract with the label as a solo artist. He left Namjoon and Hoseok's group, which caused a rift between them. A year later, he was ready to get launched with his first single. 

Before his debut, someone from the company asked if he could recommend artists like him who don't need to get trained for a long time so he called his friends. It wasn't an easy task because they had to settle differences which took a bit of time. In the end, their friendship is what prevailed and they made amends. Namjoon and Hobi got a break in the industry not long after he did.

"If your Aunt didn't point out to me why we shouldn't be together, I will never make that decision too you know. She said it a bit too blunt but in a way that kind of helped too." Yoongi recounts.

You raise your hand and interrupted him. "Wait for a second, you talked with my aunt? Aunt Eun-Sil? Was this when you spoke with her at the house? You know that whole mess of an argument that we had?" 

He slowly shakes his head. He realized he's said more than he wanted to. He was hesitant to give an answer and you had to prod him again. "It's not important anymore."

"It is for me. Did you speak with her other than that day you went to my dad's place? You know, when you were supposed to pick me up? Or was it after I left" You can tell from his facial expression that he's not going to answer your question but you insist. "Just tell me because it'll help me have a clearer view of things."

"Fine...it was at the airport when you left. I was too late when I got there, she said you already went inside and that your dad had to go ahead to take your grandmother to the car because she's upset about you leaving."

You find your breath stuck in your throat with what he said. So he went to the airport after all? You remember Aunt Eun-Sil not walking you toward the departure doors. She stayed outside and just gave you a quick hug, telling your dad she doesn't want to cry when you leave. It's another of her bullshit act of course. What if Yoongi could've made it if she didn't block his way? It's eight years too late but still, the thought of having your pain getting lessened over the fact that you've seen him keep his promise might make a difference.  

You are feeling angry, hurt, and confused at that moment. You have no idea how to react and yet you have questions that are still unanswered. "How come you never answered my calls or messages? If you wanted to break up with me, you could've told me straight. That might have made things easier for me. I went back Yoongi. I was stupid enough to think that I'd actually find you. I was totally disillusioned and blinded by what I felt for you back then that I didn't listen to Elin's discouragements to travel back during my term break." 

You laughed bitterly and shook your head. "I've spent all the money I've saved for that five-day trip. Other than Kylee, Elin, and my Grandma, no one knew I made that fucking trip." You take a shaky breath. 

You didn't expect Yoongi to stand up to sit next to you, he grabs both of your hands. 

"I had to hold myself back from answering you. I thought it'll be much better if you hate me. I felt that you don't deserve someone like me. You're the sweetest girl I've met Y/N. You are passionate about everything you do including with love. I felt how real your love was for me. But I don't want you wasting your time waiting on me. It's just a big turn of fate that got me here now but back then, nothing was certain. You might get sick of me apologizing but I will apologize again, sorry for everything I've done that caused you to feel all those pain."

You wanted to pull your hands away because bringing up the past just started to open old wounds again. But you do need to heal as you've told yourself earlier. They say time heals all wounds and eight years is enough time. In the corner of your mind what he said makes sense to you. Having been hurt made you realize things about yourself, and how strong you can be when faced with trials. You've gone through so much with your parents already but having been hurt because of love just made you see things on a different level. 

It led you to find love and happiness again. But it's not your fiancee's hand you're holding right now and that made you feel you're betraying him. Your heart beats fast because of this. No, you're just letting the chapter with Yoongi close once and for all. Your teenage romance that made you do crazy things. You are no longer that girl and he's no longer that boy. Your worlds have drifted apart. His world is so different from yours now. The truth is, you do not regret loving him the way you did. It left you with good memories. The frenzy of being in love and having been loved in return.