Why won't you take me seriously
Look at me all fucked up over someone I'll never meet

Don't let those demons in again (mhm hmm)
I fill the void up with polished doubt, fake sentiment
Surrender yourself

-False Confidence

Harry was so shocked that he didn't moved from his place for a second before looking at the floor and rubbing his face with his hands. He groaned.

He didn't mean any of the things he said. It just flew out of his mouth. He will apologise. Harry looked up to see Trisha standing on the door step with a disappointed look and tears in her eyes.

The look on her face made it clear that ,Trisha heard the fight. And she wasn't much happy about it.

"Tris-" Harry tried to defend himself but Trisha was quicker.

"He didn't killed her." Trisha said in firm voice. The voice that Harry heard for the first time. Trisha's voice was always soft and full of love.
"I know-" Harry tried again but Trisha wasn't having it.

"He is not how he looks , He isn't anything that you said. I thought you were different. I thought you could finally bring him back from the darkness ,that has been concealing his happiness for years. But you are just pushing him deeper. I didn't expected this from you Harry. " Trisha wiped her tears as they slipped down her cheeks.

"Zayn wasn't anything like how he is now. He was this carefree person who loved everything and everyone. He wrote poetries and stories since he was 9 . He used to paint and sketch. He used to wake up at 4 in the morning to sing . He said it was music practice. But he just liked to annoy his sisters. "Trisha smiled a little as she sat on the bed . Patting the spot beside her.

" He was in love with this girl. Perrie. They were in a relationship for 4 years. When Perrie told Zayn about her pregnancy ,he was on cloud nine He was so happy. "

Harry slowly walked towards the bed and sat beside Trisha.

"And then the accident happened. Zayn was called in the hospital. He was the first one to receive the new of Wali's death. " Trisha's voice cracked as more tears streamed down her face. Harry carefully placed his arms around her shoulder. "Wali and Zayn were so close. Zayn shared everything with her. And she did the same. They both fought a lot but at the same time ,they wouldn't even eat without each other. James (Dr. West) told us,That Zayn didn't cried. He just sat in the waiting room ,with a blank face waiting for our surgeries to get over. "

"I know my son ,He locked his emotions in cause he thought it was his responsibility to take care of everything at that point. Saffa was fine. She even woke up the next day and Zayn was there to comfort her. I and Yaser were still critical. The media spreaded the news that we were all dead. Jonathan helped us a lot at that time. Zayn was in the hospital for 3 days straight and at that times James asked Jonathan to take Zayn home ,so he can get some rest. " Trisha stopped as she closed her eyes.

Harry let her have her moment before she continued again,

" Jonathan dropped Zayn off at Perrie's and Zayn's apartment. Hoping that Perrie would be able to comfort Zayn. No one knows what happened after Jonathan left Zayn at the apartment. But when he went back to pick him up the next morning... " Trisha trailed off with a sigh.

"Perrie was dead. She was lying on the floor in her own blood while Zayn was sitting beside her ,he was holding the gun as he stared at her lifeless body. He killed her and the baby ."

To say Harry was shocked was an understatement. He didn't knew how to react . Zayn killed his fiancée and unborn baby ? But why would he do that ?

"Perrie wasn't what we thought. She was with Zayn for his wealth. On that day she tried to kill Zayn. She got the news that all of us were dead and after Zayn's death ,she would be the sole owner of all our wealth but Zayn tried to stop her and it the struggle with the gun ,Perrie got shot. She died on the spot. " Trisha turned towards Harry. Cupping his face, "You and I can't even imagine the pain Zayn might have felt. He lost his sister , His parents were almost dead and then he himself killed his lover and unborn child who he loved more than his life"

"Jonathan had his ways, he knew Zayn would never do anything wrong so he took care of Perrie's body . Zayn told us what happened that night. Just a small part of it. But I know there is a lot more than he is showing . He grew up after that , he took care of the company , he took care of us. He closed himself after that. He didn't cried. Not even on Wali's funeral cause we all were crying and he had to be strong to hold us all together. "

Trisha and Harry sat in silence. Harry somehow felt Zayn's pain. He saw his daughter getting killed , he blamed himself for her death. So he knew that the burden on killing their own Child on Zayn's shoulder would be too Heavy.

He felt guilty. He shouldn't have said those things.

"He loves you."

Harry looked at Trisha with a bewildered look. No way !!

Zayn can't love him !

"I know ,you won't believe me.  He doesn't shows it but he does. He cared about you too. You don't know but after the baby died you were kidnapped again . if Zayn wanted he would have left you alone to die but he didn't. He came to save you. He talked with me in these 3 months and he was always worried about you. About your health. About your nightmares.  He is scared . scared to trust anyone else again. I know it's too much to ask but Help him. You are the only one who can teach him that he Doesn't have to bury his emotions. He can cry. He has the right to feel vulnerable and weak. That he can lean on someone."

Trisha stood up ,and wiped her tears. .

"I sometimes think ,it was our fault too. We leaned on him. Kept the burden of company and us on his shoulder. We were too busy in morning for Wali that we didn't realised that Zayn was dying emotionally. He was this delicate Rose that dried and withered away and now ,there are only thrones left. "

"I'm sorry." Harry finally said. He didn't realized he was crying until Trisha wiped his tears.

"I know you are in pain but inflicting pain to others isn't going to help you. "