I live a picture in my head 
Colors soaring as I float above my body in my bed yea 
And I wonder if I'm dead, saw the white light flicker so I wake up in a sweat 
Code red, sirens going off 'bout something that I dreamt, 
Thinking 'bout the shit I never told you that I meant 
I can't shake it off, chloroform, peace and rest 
But you know all I ever really wanted was a friend
-Sweet Little Lies

To say that the visit was emotional for everyone would be an understatement.

Zayn just stood at the same spot for 10 minutes . Staring at the sonogram of his Princess,as if it would come alive.

But it didn't. It never will.

Jeff was watering the roses. His main purpose to visit the Park. Anne and Trisha were somewhere inside exploring the other side of the park. While Zayn just stood still.

He felt the tears gathering up in his eyes ,so he closed them. Titling his head up as if the eyes will absorb the tears back in. But instead the tears slipped down his cheek.

Zayn immediately sprinted out of the park. He wouldn't cry. Crying isn't going to make anything better. So he bottled up his emotions and tears again. Pushing them in the deepest part of his brain.

He should work. That's the first thing that came to Zayn's mind . that's the best way to distract himself . so Zayn took out his phone from his pocket. Checking his E-mail's for the update given by Jonathan or his assistant.

Zayn entered inside the house ,his sole focus on the small gadget in his hands. He was busy reading the E-mail when he heard a sob. Zayn didn't had any time to register before another heart wrenching sob was heard.

Zayn immediately looked up from his phone, to see Harry walking; more like stumbling like a drunkard  towards the stairs while he sobbed and cried.

"Harreh !!" Zayn yelled frantically as Harry was just a few feet away from stairs. Zayn was sure Harry wouldn't be able to walk down the stairs in the condition he was in.

He yelled his name again  as Saffa rushed in the living room too with a bowl of cold water and ice in her hands.

But it seemed like Harry couldn't even hear them. Zayn was immediately climbing on the stairs, he was a little late as Harry reached on the second step just to slip and fall down.

Saffa screamed ,as the bowl in her hand fell down with a crashing sound. But luckily Zayn was able to stop Harry from rolling down more then 3 stairs.

Zayn immediately,Lifts Harry up in his arms. He is still sobbing ,his face scrunched in pain as he tried to curl up in himself. He is still burning.

"Harreh !!" Zayn doesn't know what to do. His heart is crawling out of his chest and he is shaking as much as Harry.

His brain is frozen in fear, since he saw Harry slipping on the stair.

Yaser is there though ,lifting Harry up . Saffa is there too rushing behind Yaser ,who is taking Harry to the room.

Once all of them disappear inside the room ,Zayn snapes out of his trace. He stand up from where he is kneeling on the stairs .

He reaches the room with unsure steps , Harry is crying on the bed ,curled up in a fetus position as Yaser and Saffa tries to calm him down.

Yaser tries to touch Harry's head but Harry just curls in himself more. Sobbing loudly. Trying to move away.

"Zayn , come here. Calm him down . He will make himself sick. " Yaser urged Zayn with urgent eyes.

Harry looked pitiful and it was obvious even Yaser was scared.

Zayn gives a shaky nod before , getting on the bed. The bed looked really big and Harry looked like a small frail puppy ,shivering on it.

Zayn looked At Saffa ,who was chewing her nails. And then at Yaser.

"You - you both can go out. Close the door." Zayn said ,knowing that Harry needed some privacy. And Harry's condition was affecting them too.

Yaser and Saffa looked hesitate ,but walked out nonetheless. Closing the door behind them.

Zayn looked at Harry , remembering Dr. West's words. He have to ask Harry about the nightmare.

Zayn Carefully sat on the other side of Harry. Before lying down . He slowly moved close to Harry and pulled him on his chest.

Zayn tightly wrapped his hands around Harry . Letting Harry cry on his chest. He combed his fingers through Harry's curls. Staying quite. Trying to decide what to come up with something go stay.

"I- I - I couldn't s-save her." Harry whispered between his sobs. His voice hoarse and rough. 

It was hard for Zayn to listen what Harry said ,but once he did. He immediately started shaking his head.

"It was not your fault. There was no way that you could have done anything. Don't blame yourself."

This time Harry was shaking his head.

"I couldn't save her. I killed her." Harry said frimly. Repeating it over and over again. In a loop. The words were frail but firm. Fast but Full. Full of pain and grief.

Zayn tried to say something but Harry just kept repeating the same thing over and over in Zayn's chest.

Zayn finally sat up . Harry still clinging on to him. Zayn took a hold on Harry's jaw not too gentle ,not to harsh. Just enough that Harry's face turned up from his chest to look at Zayn.

"You did not kill her,Harreh. She was too pure for this world. This world didn't deserve her. She is safe. She is happy. She is good now. Just....just not with us. " Zayn slowly fed the words inside Harry's brain.

Harry just stared at him with no emotions on his face.  He wasn't crying anymore and that was enough. Zayn loosened his grip on Harry's jaw, if Harry wanted to move away from him . He can.

But instead , Harry slumped back on Zayn's chest. Zayn wasn't prepared for it so he fall back on bed. Harry still on his chest.

This time Harry sneaked one Hand around Zayn's waist while other fisting his shirt.

Zayn took a hold on Harry's waist,his other band slipping in his curls again.

"She is safe. She is happy." Harry whispered after a minute.

"She is safe . She is happy." Zayn confirmed.

And just like that both of them fell asleep in each other's arms. With the same thought in their mind.

"She is safe. She is happy."