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My Wattpad Love

Chapter 23

I didn't move. I didn't breathe. I didn't do anything – not even when the house phone started ringing, not even when my phone buzzed in my hand.

Evan kissed me...

Well technically, I’d kissed him first, but then he kissed me, and for the raw passion he showed throughout the kiss he definitely enjoyed it. I stared at my opened front door in silence. I could see my front garden; the vanishing sunlight was brushing the dead flowers softly. I smiled like fool, a wave of happiness and relief washing over me.

Happiness because I’d just had the best kiss of my entire life and relief because Evan didn't reject me, which was my worst fear. I brought a hand to my mouth and I swear I could still feel his soft lips against mine. I never thought a kiss could me make feel so many things. I had been kissed before but never felt this way about it. Actually, my past attempts of dates never really went for the whole French kiss thing. Evan, on the other hand... well, the guy was an expert on the French kiss area; if he hadn't broken the kiss I could have easily spent the rest of my life with my face glued to his. However, I doubted that could happen since Evan was nowhere to be seen. Realization came down on me like a bucket filled with ice-cubes.

Evan left.
He'd gone.
He walked away.

I'd never been so confused about my emotions. I was happy a second ago but suddenly now sadness was taking over me even though a part of me was still squealing excitedly about the kiss.

Such a bittersweet moment...

The wind slammed my door closed in a very violent move making me jump awake. I'd been in some sort of trance.

The house phone was ringing. I snapped my head towards it.

What if it was Evan? Was he calling me to apologize for leaving like that? That didn't sound like something he would do, but I still hoped that was what he was going to do.

Grasping some courage, I answered the phone.

"Ugh, hello?" I had a hard time finding my voice.

"Jules!" My mother's voice exclaimed into my ear. Relief and disappointment filled me. God, I really needed to stop these contradictory emotions in me.  

"Hi, Mom."  

"Where were you? I've been calling for a while now." Her tone was demanding. Feeling like a thief caught in the act, I swallowed a lump in throat.

  "I was..."

Making out with my ultimate crush in our living room.

Yeah, like I would say that. I needed to come up with a lie, which knowing me wouldn't turn out any good.

"I was..." I trailed off again.

Don't say anything stupid! Don't say anything stupid!

"I was... Eating?" I finished uncertainly.

Phew! That wasn't so bad.

"Eating?" Mom repeated incredulously. "Eating what?"

"Nuts," I said stupidly.

And you ruined it, idiot!

"You don't like nuts," my mother reminded me "What's going on, Julie? Is everything alright?"

"Everything is absolutely, definitely, perfectly fine," I replied in a rush.

Oh verbal diarrhea! Thank you, brain.

"Did you just use three adverbs in one sentence?" Mom seemed to be getting more and more suspicious.

"Yeah, I... It's an exercise... My English homework actually. You know adverbs, verbs, adjectives, kiss." I quickly snapped my mouth shut.

"Kiss? Julia Ann Jones, what the hell is going on?"

"He, I... There was a kiss in a book we're reading in class so yeah," I explained, laughing nervously.

I suck at lying! My God!

"I'm going home," Mom informed, sounding angry.

"No, Mom, I swear everything is fine!"

"Sweetie, I'm your mother. I know you, not to mention you are a terrible liar. You got that from your father." There was a silence. It was the first time that Mom had mentioned him in a while. She seemed to realize that too because she didn't say anything else.

"You don't need to come home. You have patients to take care of, and I'm fine, Mom. Trust me."

"Just promise me you'll explain everything to me tomorrow, alright?" She didn't sound angry anymore. She sounded worried.

"I promise," I stated in a defeated tone. There was no point in continuing this futile attempt to lie.

"Alright, I'll check on you every two hours. Lock the doors and-"

"All the windows," I finished for her. I was used to being alone in my house. Mom's job forced me to get used to it. Somehow, that made me more independent and mature in some aspects. Mom hung up after making some comments about behaving and being a responsible daughter. I couldn't blame her, she knew I'd been lying and she still let it pass... until tomorrow, that is. I shuddered thinking of her interrogatory.

I let myself fall on the armrest of the couch and blew a strand of hair out of my face.

What a long day! I looked down at my phone where a few mails from Wattpad were waiting, but none of them said anything about dark_poet001.

Should I text him? But what was I going to say?

'Hey, I was wondering why you ran away after we shared that awesome mind-blowing kiss.'

Nah, that was not happening. I’d run out of bravery for the day. I needed to talk to someone. Needing a friend, I scrolled down my mobile messenger contacts. I knew I would find Laura online.

Me: Where are u?
LauIsASexybeast: Jordan's place. Why?
Me: I need to talk to you. Can you come over?
LauIsASexybeast: Something wrong?
Me: No, but I need someone to talk with. It's cool if you can't come though.
LauIsASexyBeast: I'm coming. Don't do anything stupid.
Me: Anything stupid?
LauIsASexyBeast: Yeah, like killing yourself or throwing away your awesome purple top.
Me: You're crazy.
LauIsASexyBeast: Haha I'll be there soon.
Me: Ok.

I threw my phone on the couch and got to my feet. I needed a glass of water. The turmoil of emotions inside me had been overwhelming. I was heading towards the kitchen when-

"Mi corazon esta abierto, lo tengo que cerrar, me importas tanto. Eres mi debilidad." I stopped on my tracks frowning at the song echoing behind me "Mis heridas me recuerdan, que el pasado es real."

What the hell? Was that my phone? Was that a song... in Spanish? Why on Earth...

Ask questions later! Answer the phone!

Slowly, I went to pick up my phone. I scowled at the ID:

Jason rocks :D

"What the hell, Jason?" I answered, totally confused. "Your ringtone-"

"Is a song in Spanish," he interrupted me and chuckled. "That's a pretty good song."

Okay, so everyone seemed to feel right with changing their ringtone in my phone without my permission. Great!

"When did you-"

"Jules, listen.” Jason cut me off. “What did you say to Helen?"

"What are you talking about?" I frowned.

"Well, she didn't give me my dose of sex today."  I rolled my eyes at his remark.

"And what does that have to do with me?"

"Because after getting off my car, she said, and I quote, 'Go ask Jules for it. I'll bet she'll be more than happy to please you.’
My jaw dropped to the floor. "What?"

"Great, now you're deaf. I won't repeat the whole thing."

"No, I heard you. I just... What would she... I didn't say anything. I met her at the parking lot but we barely talked."

"You sure? She seems pretty sure you and I have a passionate hidden best friends' affair."

"Best friends' affair, seriously, Jason?" I wanted to slap him through the phone. He chuckled.

"Can't deny I'm creative, huh?"

"You're an idiot."

"You still love me so that makes you idioter than me."

"Idioter? That's not even a word!"

"But it sounds cool, doesn't it?" I face-palmed myself. Maybe the wild sex was killing my best friend's brain cells in a slow but steady process "Your Mom is on duty, right?" He asked, dragging me back to reality.

"Yeah,"

"I'm coming over so we can talk better about this,"

"Alright, see you soon." I hung up, feeling confused.

Why would Helen say that? Was she jealous? That was a good sign; it meant she cared for Jason.

After eating two bags of Ruffles, drinking coca-cola and locking all my windows, I finally heard a car's engine outside the house. Finally! It took them long enough.

"Jules?" I heard Lau's voice and then some knocking on my door.

"Coming!" I shouted, throwing the empty Ruffles' bags in the trash can. I opened the door to see a grinning Laura. God, Jordan was definitely making this girl happy.

"Hey, twin.” She kissed my cheek and walked inside. We sat down on the big couch in Indian style facing each other. "I have something to tell you, too," Lau stated with a flustered face. "But you go first." I let out a sigh before telling her the entire story, from the tempting ride to the passionate kiss.

"Oh my God!" Lau squealed excitedly. "You kissed him! I can't believe it! No offense, but I never thought you'd get the courage to do it!" Lau clapped her hands. "How was it? Did you like it? How long did it last? Did he use his tongue?"

"Whoa! Slow down, woman!"

"Oh come on! Tell me! I want every juicy detail!"

"It was amazing." I looked at nothing in particular as I spoke. "It was the best kiss I've ever had-not that I've had many- but yeah." I closed my eyes remembering the kiss; a smile crept to my lips. "There was so much passion..." I opened my eyes slowly, but my smile vanished when I remembered he'd left. "But then he left," I added sadly.

"Maybe he was shocked or something," Lau said, holding her chin as if she was deep in thought. "You probably caught him off guard. I mean, everyone knows you're a chicken." I glared at her. "Don't look at me like that. It's true. So, your sudden act of bravery must've have shocked him."

"You think so?"

"It's just a possibility. Men are kind of hard to read," Lau confirmed.

"You think we should ask Jason about it?"

"Sure, it'll be good to see this from a man's point of view." Lau shrugged her shoulders.

We chatted some more about the kiss. Let me tell you something, Lau was a sucker for details.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" I asked. Lau blushed and looked down. "Lau?"

"Well, I..."

"You...?" I stared at her.

"Jordan and I were making out on his couch and he…" she paused, "Well, wekindofgottosecondbase." She rushed her words making it almost impossible for me to understand her. Key word here: almost. She was my best friend; I was more than used to understanding her rushed sentences.

"You did what?!" I jumped on the couch bewildered. "Wait... Second base is..." I gestured towards the boob's area. Lau nodded. Oh God! I was the one asking for every single detail now. Seemed like Lau was not the only sucker for details today.

We spent the night talking about everything. We prepared some hot chocolate and decide to watch some thriller film. We were half-way the movie when my phone buzzed in my pants. I checked it desperately but it was only a text from Jason.

Jason rocks :D

Sorry! Can't come over! Helen changed her mind :D

I rolled my eyes and typed a reply:

Good for you. Have fun.

"Who is it?" Lau asked as she sipped on her chocolate. "Is it him?" I knew she referred to Evan. I shook my head sadly.

"Nope, it's Jason. He's not coming. Apparently, Helen is not angry anymore,” I replied.

"Seems like Jay-Jay is getting laid tonight," Lau snickered.

"He hates than nickname, you know," I commented.

"That's the point." Lau grinned at me. Lau and Jason got along in a very weird way. Some days they couldn't stand each other and then there were these days when they acted like good friends. I guess they just had those types of personalities that collide once in a while. I stared at my phone intently. I was dying to text Evan. Lau had distracted me a lot but he was still present in my mind most of the time.

"Why don't you text him?" Lau seemed to be reading my mind, not literally of course, that'd be pretty weird.

"I don't know. What am I going to say?"

"Anything, just talk to him," she encouraged.

"He left. He should be the one texting me, he owes me an explanation."

"You know how he acts. Do you honestly believe he's going to text you?"

"No," I sighed.

"Then you go ahead, don't waste your time waiting for something that will never happen."

Listening to my best friend, I started typing a text. After hesitating, deleting words, writing again, deleting and finally writing a final text I sent it:

Hi.

Yeah, don't judge me. I just needed to know if he was going to talk to me before texting anything more serious. When my phone notified there was a new text from Evan. I hesitated to read it. My poor heart was beating so fast I thought it would come out of my throat. I touched the screen to open the text:

From: Evan <3
Hey.

Really? Hey? That was all he could say?

You texted him 'Hi' what were you expecting?

My inner voice snapped at me. I looked up to check on Lau. She seemed to be swallowed by the movie because her eyes were focused on the TV – and she wasn't even blinking. I bit my lower lip as I typed a reply to Evan:

We need to talk.

I waited for his reply but it never came so I texted him again,

Are you there?

No reply, it was obvious he was avoiding the talk. Sighing in frustration, I looked at the TV trying to catch up with the movie, checking my phone each two minutes.  
Evan never replied.

Lau and I watched some other films and then we talked about everything. It'd been a while since we’d a moment for ourselves, so time flew by as we spoke. Lau was telling something about her dancing class when my eyes landed on the window next to my front door. My eyes widened in shock.

"Oh My god!" I exclaimed, jumping out of the couch. I stared at the sunlight streaming through the window.

"What?" Lau stood up and frowned at me.

"It's the sun!" I exclaimed freaking out. Lau's frown turned bigger.

"Yeah, what's wrong with it? Are we role playing the vampire movie we watched a few hours ago?" She asked amusedly.   I glared at her.

"Very funny but no," I said, picking up the empty bags of Ruffles, Doritos, chocolate bars, coca-cola cans and so on. "Mom's duty ends at 6:00 am so that means she's-" I was interrupted by the sound of an engine outside the house. "Oh shit! She's here!" I threw everything in the trash can and held Lau's hand to pull her upstairs "Run!" I hissed.

When we were lying on my bed hidden under the sheets, Lau took the opportunity to make questions.

"What's going on?" She whispered secretively.

"If Mom finds out we stayed up all night, she'll kill us, but not before giving us the entire sleeping habits speech." Lau made an O with her mouth in realization.

"Did you turn off the TV?" She asked worriedly. I panicked.

"No!"

"Then-" I covered her mouth when I heard footsteps in the hallway.

"Shhh! Pretend to be asleep!" I ordered but as soon as I closed my eyes I didn't need to pretend anything because I quickly fell in dreamland.

**

Poke
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I was dragged out of sleep by an incessant poking on my forehead. As my senses were waking up, I started hearing voices around me.

"Leave her alone!" Lau's voice sounded irritated.

"No, she's been sleeping all day." Was that Shane?

"Stop poking her!" The poking stopped.

"We're going to be late because of her!"

"She needs to rest," Lau stated.

I opened my eyes slowly. The first thing I saw were a pair of beautiful hazel eyes staring at me – Shane’s eyes. He was too close for my liking so I pushed him away.

"Sleeping beauty is back," Shane joked, grinning at me. "How was the hibernation?" I ignored him and sat up.

"What are you doing here?" I mumbled with a sleepy voice.

"We were waiting for you to wake up. It's been a few hours." Shane folded his arms across his chest. I was about to ask him why when my eyes landed on my window. There was a big full moon on the sky.

"Oh God! The moon!" I cried in shock.

"Yeah, you're going to turn into a werewolf now?" Shane joked. Lau punched his shoulder.

"Get out," she said, pushing him towards the door.

"Oh God! I did sleep all day! It's night already?" I asked Lau when Shane left us alone.

"Yeah, you better hurry."

"Why? And what is Shane doing here?"

"He came with Jordan. We're going to Helen's birthday party,"

"Woah woah, what? I'm not going!" Lau grinned at me.

"Evan's probably going to be there," she urged, wiggling her eyebrows.

"We are so going!" I said, running towards the bathroom.  

***  

As soon as we parked in front of Helen's house, I grew nervous and insecure. This didn't seem like a good idea anymore. I mean, Helen didn't really like me so showing up at her birthday party wasn't the brightest idea.

Oh Evan... The things I do for you... I thought sadly.   I got off the car and followed Laura. For the first time in a while, I could say I looked good. I was wearing a blue dress that matched my eyes. Laura had straightened my hair making it curly at the ends. She also did my make-up. That girl could do miracles. Shane and Jordan joined us at the front door.

After getting inside the house, I was growing more and more nervous. There were people everywhere. The music was really loud. How was I supposed to find Evan in this mess? It was like looking for my missing pencil in my room, a total lost cause, I never found it by the way. Jordan and Lau informed me that they were going to look for some drinks, so I was left alone with Jerkpid. I turned around to ask him something but found an empty space.

Of course he would leave me alone here. Smooth, Shane, real smooth. I scanned the crowd warily. Some people were dancing, others were drinking but most of them were doing both things.

Reaching the living room, I rested my side against the wall. I was starting to regret coming here. However, that feeling went away as soon as my eyes landed on him...

Evan...

My stomach did a major back flip. He was sitting on the armrest of the couch, dressed in all black as usual. I was frozen in my spot. He seemed to be talking to someone. I looked at the person standing in front of him and my mouth hung opened.

Melissa...

Melissa was talking to him, smiling and punching his shoulder playfully. They seemed to be very comfortable around each other. Were they friends? Evan was smiling at her and I felt a shot of jealousy crossing me. So this is what he was doing while I was dying in my house waiting for his reply to my text. He looked careless. There was no sign of apprehension on his face. I crossed my fingers for Melissa to go away. It seemed to work because she whispered something in his ear and disappeared in the hallway.

You can do this.

I squeezed my sweaty hands and tried to ease my pumping heart. I crept over to him. He hadn't seen me since he was looking to the opposite side of the room. I touched his shoulder getting his attention. His deep-black eyes met my blue ones and I felt like they were piercing through my soul. He looked surprised, and his smile instantly vanished.

"Hey," I greeted shyly.

"Hey," he greeted in the same tone. I barely caught his words through the loud music.  
I leaned closer to him and whispered in his ear, "Can I talk to you for a sec?" I leaned back not before sensing his fragrant cologne. He smelled so good. Evan nodded and stood up. He led me through the crowd until we crossed some Victorian doors and entered the lonely peaceful garden. He stopped walking, not even looking at me.

"What?" He asked coldly, shoving his hands inside his pockets.

I bit my lower lip. "Why are you ignoring my texts?" I asked straightforwardly.

"What are you doing here?" He ignored my question.

"I came to see you." There was no need to lie. "We need to talk."

"No, we don't," he retorted harshly.

"Could you at least look at me?" I demanded, growing upset. Reluctantly, Evan turned to me.

"What do you want from me?" he sighed.

"I want answers, Evan. You can't expect me to act as if nothing happened."

"Nothing happened." His words hurt.

"You regret kissing me, don't you?" I confirmed. I was on the verge of tears. Evan's cold expression broke for a moment and I thought he would kiss me and make me forget everything.

"Yes," he answered, averting his gaze."It was a mistake." I swear I could hear my heart shattering into a millions pieces.

"Oh." I took a step backwards. Two thick tears escaped my eyes. I wiped them away quickly, and Evan’s expression softened when we locked eyes.

"Don't cry," he whispered, trying to reach me. I took another step backwards.

"Don't touch me!" I yelled at him angrily. He seemed surprised by my outburst. "You are a jerk! You played with my feelings so carelessly!" My voice broke.

"Jules, I-"

"Don't! I've tried over and over again to get you to open up to me. I tried to help you even when all you've done is to push me away. I..."

"Jules, It’s-"

"I've been so stupid," I stammered. Tears rolled down my cheeks freely. "I've been such idiot for thinking you actually cared for me." I wiped my tears away angrily. "Why would you? I'm just some girl you met on the internet." My sight was blurred with surfacing tears. Evan tried to reach for me again but I slapped his hand.

"I never meant to hurt you," he assured.

"But you did," I said sadly. "Don't worry. I'll be okay. I will please you, Evan. I will leave you alone. I'm so done here." I turned on my feet and started running away.

"Jules! Wait!" I heard him scream from behind me, but I ignored him. Tears flew from my face with the wind as I ran out of that house.

I've been so stupid.

God, this hurt so much. I ran down the sidewalk until I couldn't breathe and had to stop. I was sobbing uncontrollably, and I was sure my mascara and eyeliner were rolling down with my tears, turning them into a darker shade, but I didn't care. My chest felt so empty; it was the most painful sensation I'd ever felt in my entire life.

Heartbreak...  

So this was what it felt like to be heartbroken. Let me tell you, it's really devastating.    
When I thought things couldn't get any worse, it started to drizzle. Oh Great! Now I was going to freeze to death. The drizzle turned into heavy rain getting me damp in a matter of seconds. I reached the town's square and sat down on one of the banks.

What was wrong with me? How did I end up feeling this strong towards a person I met on the internet? Is it possible to fall for someone over written words? I was proof that it actually was. I’d just felt this strong connection between Evan and me since the day we'd started talking. I just felt as if we complemented each other. I rubbed my wet face, shivering slightly. I caught some movement from the corner of my eye and snapped my head towards that direction. My heart skipped a beat.

Evan was standing there a few meters from me completely damp. His wet hair was sticking to his forehead and ears. His chest was moving up and down as if he was breathing heavily. I got on my feet surprised.

What was he doing here?

He walked to me slowly, our gazes locked. Rain was dripping from his nose and chin. When he was standing right in front of me, his hands held my face.

"I'm so sorry," he whispered, resting his forehead on mine. I didn't know what to say. I had to tilt my head back to look right into his eyes since he was taller than me. Rain was falling on us relentlessly but I didn't care. Words were unnecessary, I could see everything in his eyes; they were filled with so much regret and need. I cupped his wet cheek and he closed his eyes pressing his face against my hand.

Then, he leaned closer and pressed his wet lips against mine gently. Volts of electricity ran through my entire body. The sensation was so good that I felt my knees go weak. He started moving his lips on mine slowly as if he wanted to savor me. I eagerly kissed him back with all I had. Below us, my feet felt like they were slowly liquefying in my shoes. Evan gripped my face tightly as he deepened the kiss, sliding his tongue inside my mouth. He tasted so good, and it felt so right to kiss him. His long fingers tangled through my hair and the kiss turned into a passionate one in a matter of seconds. It seemed like we couldn't get enough from each other. Evan's hands left my face and went down my arms until he finally wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him. Our bodies were pressed together, so that I could feel the warmth radiate from his skin beneath his clothes. The sweet smell of his cologne caught my nose, and I lost myself in his aromatic scent. Our breaths were becoming heavy as the kiss became more and more intense. Evan bit my lower lip softly, stealing a soft sigh from me. He definitely knew what he was doing.

And there, under the rain, I realized I was kissing Evan like there was no tomorrow. Hell, I was kissing him like we were going to die right after that kiss.

There was no point in denying facts. I was not only crazy about him.

But I was falling for him, falling hard.

X M W L X

Long chapter!

Love and strawberries (I'm eating them right now)

Arix :D