If your father could see you now he'd wonder why he didn't just let you die! He'd wonder why he even bothered to go after you that night! Why he let himself die for such a good for nothing failure! Do you have any idea what a disappointment you are? To me? To everyone? Look at you, playing the victim, pretending like everyone is hurting you, you're hurting yourself! *she screams at me as she looks to the cuts on my forearm*

-Lilith Dearheart

Well I can't help it! If I'm not hurting myself then I'm hurting everyone around me! I know I'm a disappointment! I know he wouldn't love me! Wouldn't want me! No one does! Not even you, not even my own mother, the woman who gave birth to me.... You don't even want me.... *I hold in my tears and turn, walking away and stopping at the front door* I try so hard... *the tears slowly slip out* I try so hard to be worth it, so hard to earn your love, so hard to be good enough and make others happy but I can't. Not even the man I love wanted me... I'm a failure so I just stay alone... In my comfort zone, no one can reach me there and hurt me. No one can reach me there and get hurt by my thorns, the spikes sticking out from behind me.... I'm free when I'm not here. No not this house, this life. This world. I only get peace when I'm not apart of it... I destroy everything I touch but in my dreams I'm free *I turn around and smile at my mother, tears streaming down my face* I'm so afraid to move, to breathe... I found out a way to stop. All I have to do is let go....

- Rosalina Dearheart