The sound of screeching tires, makes me shoot out of my bed. I run my hand over my face in frustration, my body is sticky from all the sweat.

I hop in the shower, its been 2 weeks. When my world came crashing down, my main reason for living. Its gone, with a snap of my fingers, in a blink of an eye. My life is not all sunshine and rainbows, my life is bullshit.

I smh my head, I grab a towel and work out clothes. I turn the water on super hot, the hotter the better for me anyways. I grew up with no parents, my parents left me at 13 with my little sister to watch over.

I'm 23 now, I was too young to work at 13 but I found my ways to get us by. No I did not rob or steal from anyone, I'm trying to live and not get my lil sister taken away.

Everyday I would sing in the park or the waterfront, a few of the carts that setup here. They help me with my kid sister, anyways give me a minute.

It's still hard to talk about, the tears washing down with the spray from above. Two weeks ago, my kid sister just turned 21.

My lil sister and I were driving to get food. We took turns driving each other everywhere anyways. We were coming around a bend, when the car on the opposite end was fucking around.

My sister braked super hard, I hit my head on my steering wheel. My sister is ejected from the car, then the screech of tires. As the other car speeds off into the darkness of night. I call out for her, she tells me to eat well, sleep well and find love.

She tells me now I can live my life, All I did for us was the ultimate sacrifice, I didn't do everything because I had to. I did it because I wanted to, I never once complained. I spoiled her rotten, and I'd do it all over again in a heart beat.

Present Time

I'm dressed all in black, my face bare. I left my hair down, I'm on my way to the funeral. Where I bury my 21 yr old baby sister, my life sucks ass right now. I talked to the priest, I made my way to the front to see her friends along with some parents.

The tears are flowing, once again non stop. I stepped up once the priest was done talking, I fell twice. I didn't care, her two best friends Eric & Jennie helped me up.

Hi! I thank all of you who
has come to this thing. I take
A much needed breath, I grab Eric's hand. Many have known us, since we moved here from Busan 10 yrs ago. She was suppose to get married to Eric,
This summer.

I grab onto Eric as I said,
those words. They've been together for 8 years. At first
I hated you, you were taking my only family away. But soon your dumb ass ways snuck into my ice cold heart and made it warm. Along with your dumb ass friends, I don't know what
will happen after this. But I've see you all as family. I hope that won't change, I hope you will still be my family.

I remember on my birthday, she said as my present. That she wouldn't be a nuisance anymore because she was getting married. That I can live my life, the way I wanted now. I can go to one of those singing shows, I can sing my heart out.

I did back then, But Arya you were the reason I was singing for. Now today will be the last time I sing, at the burial it will be the very last. I love you baby sis, I'll miss you always.

I stepped down, Jennie helping me to my seat. She sat with me and hugged me, afraid I'd do something stupid. Knowing me well she called the others, to come and sit with us. Her car was delivered this morning, all fixed and ready to drive. The service was over, they walked me down to the Limo.

I wouldn't get in, they all came in with me. The ride was filled with silence, crying and sobbing was all you heard. I was the first one out, I made my way to where they would bury her. My whole body numb, I sank to my knees. As the priest said a few words.

I clutched at the ground, screaming at no one in particular. That life wasn't fair, she wasn't suppose to leave first. I begged and pleaded, but my cries weren't heard. Everyone, crowded around me. Making sure I didn't jump after the casket, I would of done it too if Eric and his boys didn't stop me.

I stood up and turned around facing everyone:

Everyone gathered around me, holding onto my shoulders. As I gave the cue, the casket started to lower into the ground. I fought the hands, that restrained me. My bottom lip trembled, as this will be the last time I'll see her.

I have pictures and videos of her, it's not the same. She is physically gone, my baby sister. Eric's first and only love, Jennie's partner in crime and best friend. Our Arya was only 21 yrs old, taken from us because of some stupid asshole that fucked around on the road.

I was brought out of my thoughts, when a drink was placed in my hand. I smelled it, I was never a fan of alcohol but I downed that shit like it was water. We were at the reception, my mind in a daze that no one could get me out of.

Eric gave me a ring, What the fuck was I suppose to do with it? Eric said Arya had a maid of honor ring made and this was it. I looked at Eric, what about Jennie? He said Jennie knew that Arya would have picked me no matter who her best friend was.

Eric is really famous in Seoul! He is a co-host on a show called "ASC" After School Club. Where k-idols go on the show and talk to fans and other things.

YAH! Are you even listening? Miahne, what's up? Will you co-host with me? Arya's favorite Idol group will be in the next taping!!!!

To be honest I liked them too, how they sacrificed a lot to achieve what they wanted. In that moment we were the same, but just in different aspects of our lives. I looked at Eric, if I could trade places with her, I'd do it in a heartbeat. She has you guys, I only have you because of my sister. No one would actually care that I was gone.

When Ara said that I wanted to slap her so hard, she just didn't understand that she impacted our lives too. I nodded my head, go eat Ara or I'll call the guys to force feed you.

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