I woke up to see the sun shining, Eric's at work. The boys are in the studio, or at dance practice. I stretched my body, I sat up slowly. When I remembered, my plans for today. I grabbed clothes, my outfit for today:

I made my to the kitchen, grabbing a cereal bar and some milk. I went back to my room, I grabbed a denim beanie. I made sure I had my phone, I grabbed some gum and a water bottle. I made my way out the door, locking up.

I decided to leave the suburban, I looked at my sister's car. I contemplated, I pressed the alarm when mix drop beeped out. I cracked a smile, I can't believe I dished out 30,000 won for that. But whatever made her happy, I got it for her. I reached in the glove, grabbing my sunglasses. I pulled out hers, I looked at them for a second and put them on.

I drove to the gas station, I filled up the car. I grabbed some chips and a cherry vanilla coke I also bought a single red rose, I got in the car making my way to the cemetery. I counted the steps, from exiting the car. Making my way down pass the mausoleum, I sat on the bench for a second.

I gulped, I got into a kneeling position, I pulled the weeds from around her name plate and head stone. I looked in my fanny pack, for some wet wipes. I wiped it down, cleaning its edges and her picture. My tears, being born in my eyes, living down my cheeks, to slowly die on my lips. I kept the sons back, till I couldn't no more. I placed the chips, soda and rose on your name plate.

Like who the fuck would give those things to a person thats buried 6 ft under? I would, because I'm that time of person. I look at your name, I reach out and trace the letters. I'm so lost without you, I'm dating your Oppa.

Jimin-ssi, he makes me feels things. Things I haven't felt since you know, it's hard you know. Waking up to not hearing your loud ass snores, to not hearing you sing off let.

I swear some days, I forget and I make too much food. Eric, won't speak about his feelings. He's too wrapped up in how I am, but I know deep down he is hurting.

Arya? Why we're you taken from me? I have no idea what to do, I was better off busting my ass taking care of you. Its better for me, not to think about myself.

I wonder if I didn't duck out last minute, of the Xfactor finals. Would you still be alive? Would I still have be saying Jimin? Would I be happy? Would you be married right now to Eric?

I don't regret it though, making new memories with you and Eric and hisbdumb ass friends. Even Jennie, she's doing alright. I'll have to have a girls night with her sometime soon. That was what? Every other Friday right?

Unnie, what are you doing here?

I looked up to see, just the person I was talking about. Jennie, sits down with a cherry vanilla coke, chips and a white rise. I laughed because, we look like twins right now. We were wearing almost the same things, except she had a black top on with black nikes.

She looked at me and caught in to what I was laughing about. She looked at the name plate, she put the rose next to mine. I pulled her between my legs, I held her like I would hold you.

I told her cmon let's go have some fun, I pulled her up. She yelled good, I yelled arcade. The stuff we use to do when you were here, we will continue to do it. I asked her how she got here? She said the bus, I pointed to the car.

Her bottom lip trembled, I have her a minute. I texted Jimin to know, that me and Jennie will at the arcade near big hit. He texted me to come see his practice, I begged Jennie to go.

We bought panda express for his and the boys, I waved to the receptionist. Jimin already announced to the world, that he was saying me.

I was scared at first, but Armies blessed me and his relationship. I was happy with that, she gave us visitor badges. I knocked on the dance studio, I saw this:

Always messing around, we closed the door with a slam. Well Jennie closed the door with a slam, I hit her arm after. I held up food, that shouted out food.

I placed it on the table, I made sure to bring some for the staff that were in here. I shooed the boys away first, I said staff first.

I grabbed Jimin's good before it got snatched, I made my way over to him. He eyes me up and down, Jennie called me over to show me a dance. I laughed because she got it all wrong.