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Italics: Ara
Reg. Font: Yoon-gi
Bold: Jimin

Lately Jimin has been distant, when the guys come over he doesn't come with them. I know I didnt do anything wrong, the last couple of times they would say he was sick.

They were making excuses for him, it was 2 weeks before Christmas. I was working on a song, that was my part of my present for Jimin.

The guys brought the tree, the house is already decorated. I've gone to the dorm, Every time I knock he is sick or I just missed him. I knew what was happening, I sacrificed myself again.

My bottom lip trembled, the guys kept lying to me. I walked into the loft in tears, I slammed into Jungkook. I shook my head, DON'T lie to me. I HATE ALL OF YOU FOR LYING TO ME.

I walked into my room, I opened his present that was carefully wrapped. With love and care, now it means nothing. I gave them all of their gifts, I went to my balcony and threw it as far as I could.

I never cried so hard, I cried and cried. Till I had nothing in me, I packed my shit. I hopped my balcony and made my way to the one person that could console me. Jennie! I knocked on her door.

What I didn't expect was Jimin to open the door, Jungkook was worried about me hurting you. But it looks like you were to hurt me all along. I hate you Park Jimin.

I hopped in the car and drove off, I pulled to the side of the road. Crying some more, I had my own pity party. I drove to work and slept in my office, I went home when no one was there.

I wrote a letter to Eric, I put it under his door. I packed everything I owned, I found a new place near work. I bought studio equipment, I did talk to one of them.

I didn't talk about it, I know the one helping me wanted to say something. Just say it Yoon-gi! I don't know what your talking about?

I'm ready, to record it, the music played. Yoon-gi had no idea what song I was singing, but I knew they knew some Japanese. I think Namjoon knew more, but this was the only way for me to move on.

I plan on singing this at the Christmas party, I waited for the beat to drop. I hit that first note, I saw Yoon-gi give me the thumbs up saying he got it all.

Did you write this? I nodded my head. Its for him isn't It? I bowed my head, I told him I was willing to sacrifice everything to be happy. But in the end The Ultimate Sacrifice was giving my heart to someone who doesn't love me. So this is my goodbye.

Can you sing something else? Sure but let's take this to my piano in the living room, okay let me wrap this up and you go setup.

I made my way to the living room, I grabbed to ice teas. I brought them to the coffee table in the living room, I set up my equipment.

I waited like 5 minutes, I was playing the keys when I heard him cough. I looked up and smiled, umm it's in English so yeah.

I was in the studio, my phone rang it was Jimin he facetime me. How is she Hyung? Why'd you do it? Jennie bet me to do it! So you didn't like her at all? It was all an act?

What did you win if she fell for you? I do, but she has all these issues. Park Jimin are you fucking serious? Jennie would let me fuck her virgin pussy.

I'm so disgusted, you make me sick. But I want you to watch this, lets see how you can still face her after this. I'm letting you know, you know what nevermind you'll find out at the Christmas party.

I hung up the phone, I got up quickly. I held her in my arms, cmon let's go get some air. I pulled off my jacket and put it around her, Ara your better off without him.

He doesn't deserve you, your tears that you are crying isn't worth it. It was probably my lack of being close to someone, but I liked being held by him.

Thank you Oppa, I smiled and looked in his eyes. He gave me a gummy smile, I looked in his eyes.
Why wasn't it you? I wish It was you instead.

I went on my tippy tied, I was going to kiss his cheek. But at the last second, he turned his head. Our lips met, the kiss started off slow.

I pulled back biting my lip, Oppa I'm hungry let's cook. We walked back inside as he held my hand, I smiled shyly. I didn't know what this was, but I'll just take it as it is.

I took off Yoon-gi's jacket and hung it up in my room. I grabbed the black hoodie I stole from him last time, I changed my clothes to a tank top and boxers. I put my hair in a bun and grabbed my glasses.

Walking back to the kitchen, I washed my hands as I see Yoon-gi. chopping onions, I smh. Give me,  I'll do it. I grabbed the knife, how do you want them? Small please.

I sliced and diced, I hopped on the counter as he was cutting up other ingredients. I leaned back on my arms, my legs swinging back and forth.

Tilting my head back, I was going to hop off. But Yoon-gi stepped between my thighs, my core mashing up against him. Are you happy Ara?

I looked at him, I shook my head no. He's not good enough for you Ara, you need someone who is willing to handle you. At your best, and at your worst as well as in the middle.

I looked at him for a minute, fuck it I said. I pulled him down closer, our lips met in a sweet kiss. Which turned to hunger, he turned off the food. Food forgotten, since it wasn't the most important thing as of right now.

👈Smut👉

He picked me up my thighs, pulling me closer. He turned around as he carried me to the bedroom, taking off his shoes. He laid us down, letting out a little squeak. He caressed my face, kissing me, my jaw and my neck.

I let out a moan, as sucked on my neck. Soon my clothes were tossed along with his, I flipped us. Making him lay on his back, I ran my nails down his chest.

He let out one sexy ass moan, his dick twitching at my explorations.
It was laying there against his stomach, I lowered my head him. He stopped me, you don't have to do this. But I want to I tell him, he raised his hands in surrender.

I licked him from base to tip, my tongue sliding over the slit. His dick flexing w/ my ministrations. My name slipped thru his lips, it was sexy as fuck. I lowered my head to the big mushroom head, sliding past my lips.

Inch my inch going into my mouth, I relaxed my gag reflex as I deep throated him a few times. I couldn't fit all of it, at least I tried right.

He pulled me up, pulling me to straddle him. He reached between our bodies, his fingers finding my pussy already wet.

He flipped us saying it his turn to feast, pushing my legs open and over his shoulders. He kissed my thighs, nibbling and sucking nowhere near where I wanted him to be. The tingling feeling of knowing he was almost there, he blew a breath all over my sex.

His lips attached on my labia, his tongue licking me up and down. He stuck two fingers into my pussy, sawing back and forth. My breaths labored, he inserted a third and all I saw were fireworks.

His fingers working magic, with his tongue. I felt teeth, I cried out as I crescendo over the edge. He licked my pussy and placed a kiss on it.

My body still recovering from my orgasm, (I hate autocorrect so much right now) he made his way up my body. Upon reaching my lips, I can smell my scent on his breathe.

I don't have a condom, I promise I'm clean. Its been awhile. I have them but, you would break them cause they are small. I'm clean too, it's been a year and a half plus I'm on the pill.

He kissed me with hunger he placed a pillow under my hips to angle me so he has a better position. I left the tip at my entrance, I moaned and whimpered.

He leaned down kissing my lips as he eased himself in my walls. Fuck your so tight, I whimpered and rocked my hips against him. That one move costs me gentleness, but I didn't care.

He felt so good, I felt him plunge deeper. I screamed as he stretched my walls, he kissed away my tears. He started moving slowly, so I got use too his size and thickness.

The pain slowly ebbing as, pleasure over took my body. It was soaring, I wrapped my legs around his waist. His hair tapping his head, as he set a pace.

I felt it coming as my stomach was in knots, my nails scratching up his back. Faster, harder I tell him. Fuck yes please cum with me, he was going faster his hips thrusting harder against mine.

We both yelled out eachothers name, as we crashed into each other. Bodies collapsing together, our foreheads lying on top of one another a we tried to catch out breaths.

👈Smut Over👉

Ara, why did it feel like you were a virgin? I was raped one year ago, but he didn't put his dick in my pussy. I let it settle till, I looked up into his eyes.

Tears, his eyes watery. He sniffed, I reached up and wiped them away. Did Jimin know? Jennie? I shook my head no, only Arya and Eric knew, I'm sorry baby girl.

It's okay Yoon-gi, we didn't meet yet. There was no way for you to know, that's not really a good conversation starter now is it?!

He pulled out, I winced a little. My pussy pulsating,  missing his warmth. I whimpered, as he pulled out completely. I'm sorry sweetheart, did it hurt that much?

It's not that, it's just I feel empty. I blushed as I finished saying that, he pulled me close. I hope you don't mind but I like to cuddle. You think, you could give me a chance? When your no longer hurting?

I don't mind, I love to cuddle. Can I ask you a question before I answer yours? He nodded his head, I turned facing him. Why did you decide to help me? I was a straight up Bitch.

You were hurting, I wanted to help you get over your hurt. I wanted to be there for you, I'm letting you know now before you hear it from anyone else.

Yoon-gi, in all honesty, I kinda knew. Tae called me when I was at the mall, he left a cryptic message. But he sent me a voice note, with Jennie & Jimin talking in the background.

But what hurt me more, was you guys were lying to me. Making up excuses for him, I kinda lied to you as well. The song is a goodbye to myself, I'm no longer willing to give up "The Ultimate Sacrifice!"

My heart! Unless you truly want it and me there is no way. But you, have a piece of it. Just try not to hurt me more than I already am.

I looked at her closely, it kinda sounded like she professed her love to me. I lowered my lips, to her face as I kissed her lips. She just answered me, in a read between the lines kind of way.
Ara, Are you happy?

In this moment with you Oppa, I truly am. I just wish I was happy all the time, but life fucks is over without any warning.

Be my date to the Christmas Party, we all have to bring dates. Hitman Bang said it's a joint party with your work & Big Hit.

Okay, but I have to buy a Dress.
Good, I'll help you pick it out!

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To: My lil islanders
Fr: Luna
Here's a extra long chapter.
She lost her V card to Yoon-gi
Fuck you Jimin (just kidding)
💟💟💟💟 Saranghe 💟💟💟💟